Bel
Dec 3
Sagittarius
2009/12/02
So I thought I should spend the last few hours of my 18th blogging about my feelings and sentiments.. As if I don't normally blog anyway... =P
It's been sometime since I blog, or so it feels because I have not been consistently blogging everyday. However, days have been great until today.
I must admit this day was completely ruined and I went into a fit. I tried calling RuiAnn but she did not pick up, but it cannot be helped since she is in Hong Kong and she did call on Tuesday =)
I tried calling Gracia but as usual I did not get to her. I was waiting for a few replies which never came. I tried calling TY who did not hear but ended up telling Steph to tell me he did not hear which pissed me off but it is only because I am pissed off already. And I took a chance and I got through to NyonNyon, bitch like crazy, must have looked deranged to Nutty, Steph and Tarsha, but I felt immensely better afterwards, and went into super tired mode and was very quiet..
I still feel a little off right now.. Seeing all those wishes? It kind of feels weird because it is not even my birthday yet. It IS weird.
and to all my friends who read my blog, just in case any of you commit (yes, COMMIT) this mistake that a friend of mine did,
I AM TURNING 19.
Not 18, not TWENTY.
but that is it from me, until Friday or something. =)
Hopefully tomorrow won't be as terrifying
because I won't have to see you. I wonder why I still bother with all you ppl and I wonder even more why you still affect me so.
It's been sometime since I blog, or so it feels because I have not been consistently blogging everyday. However, days have been great until today.
I must admit this day was completely ruined and I went into a fit. I tried calling RuiAnn but she did not pick up, but it cannot be helped since she is in Hong Kong and she did call on Tuesday =)
I tried calling Gracia but as usual I did not get to her. I was waiting for a few replies which never came. I tried calling TY who did not hear but ended up telling Steph to tell me he did not hear which pissed me off but it is only because I am pissed off already. And I took a chance and I got through to NyonNyon, bitch like crazy, must have looked deranged to Nutty, Steph and Tarsha, but I felt immensely better afterwards, and went into super tired mode and was very quiet..
I still feel a little off right now.. Seeing all those wishes? It kind of feels weird because it is not even my birthday yet. It IS weird.
and to all my friends who read my blog, just in case any of you commit (yes, COMMIT) this mistake that a friend of mine did,
I AM TURNING 19.
Not 18, not TWENTY.
but that is it from me, until Friday or something. =)
Hopefully tomorrow won't be as terrifying
because I won't have to see you. I wonder why I still bother with all you ppl and I wonder even more why you still affect me so.
&BelbeL signed off @10:41 PM
2009/11/26
Hi NyonNyon! =D
Apart from retarded facebook msgs such as "happy almost birthday"
which I think is totally retarded.. Life has pretty much been the same. =)
I got sore red eyes twice in a week but the first was not TOO bad so it faded by the time I was reaching college, but today's was a disaster. I was tearing throughout morning. =(
but I really want to say THANK YOU to Stephay and family for having me over, being super nice to me and all. =) Only one complaint, they were "too nice". LOL =)
Suddenly I miss the ALSCO people. Sure I still see them around, but we hardly have time to say anything apart from a greeting. The seniors have left and the juniors are ignoring us.. I do not know what is the matter.
The past few days in college, people have been meeting me and saying things such as "o, I didn't notice you." or "O I didn't realise it was you". Have I changed? OR a 1 month absence have erased my presence from people's minds? Neither seem particularly soothing.
I feel weird. I do not know why. I just want this nightmare to end. but I have no right to complain... I KNOW.
Apart from retarded facebook msgs such as "happy almost birthday"
which I think is totally retarded.. Life has pretty much been the same. =)
I got sore red eyes twice in a week but the first was not TOO bad so it faded by the time I was reaching college, but today's was a disaster. I was tearing throughout morning. =(
but I really want to say THANK YOU to Stephay and family for having me over, being super nice to me and all. =) Only one complaint, they were "too nice". LOL =)
Suddenly I miss the ALSCO people. Sure I still see them around, but we hardly have time to say anything apart from a greeting. The seniors have left and the juniors are ignoring us.. I do not know what is the matter.
The past few days in college, people have been meeting me and saying things such as "o, I didn't notice you." or "O I didn't realise it was you". Have I changed? OR a 1 month absence have erased my presence from people's minds? Neither seem particularly soothing.
I feel weird. I do not know why. I just want this nightmare to end. but I have no right to complain... I KNOW.
&BelbeL signed off @6:53 PM
2009/11/23
So I'm staying with stephay and potato was "protesting". LOL. I think someone is jealous! LOL XP
Furniture shopping has been horrifying and tiring but I think I finally have my bed frame and mattress settled. The bathroom cabinet and mirror are settled as well. ^-^
I like the sofa and coffee table and tv cabinet! So I hope we are settling on that. =) the one thing that I cannot decide on is the wardrobe. Should I get a 3-feet or 4-feet one? Hmm.. And when will it all finally look like a really nice cosy home? I'm excited!
And the other little stuff.. I miss coco and storm
Furniture shopping has been horrifying and tiring but I think I finally have my bed frame and mattress settled. The bathroom cabinet and mirror are settled as well. ^-^
I like the sofa and coffee table and tv cabinet! So I hope we are settling on that. =) the one thing that I cannot decide on is the wardrobe. Should I get a 3-feet or 4-feet one? Hmm.. And when will it all finally look like a really nice cosy home? I'm excited!
And the other little stuff.. I miss coco and storm
&BelbeL signed off @12:49 PM
2009/11/20
I took a few more pictures but I am beyond lazy to upload them today since I have to connect the iPhone to the laptop.
I don't really know what to blog about,
but my CONGRATS to everyone who has finished their AS exams.
FINALLY! Right? =) Teehee, so a weekend of chilling out and it's back to college for Sunway A-level students. I am not sure how I am reacting to that yet. To be happy I am meeting most of my friends? Or to be upset I have to start waking up early and actually use my brain?
BLEAH.
The dance classes are going alright. As a co-teacher, yes, CO-TEACHER, I have stretched my patience thin with some students but several of them show potential. While some seem to be in fear constantly, some do not bother at all. Sigh. But I should be focusing on my performance with my mummy. I think it will be big. BLEAH. Truth be told, I am starting to get cold feet, ALREADY.
and Musical is starting, again? I am not too sure, but I intend to find out. =)
I need to pack stuff up again, clean up the new place, and the anticipation comes and fades along with apprehension, which reminds me that I have an injection due tomorrow. *yikes*
which also reminds me about Coco's first injection.
The vet came and it was raining cats and dogs.
My storm and the neighbour's Blackie were barking their heads off, but I was only interested in getting Coco out from the house. When I carried her, for the first time, she struggled and cried. She LOVES being held, but I suspect that the dogs warned her about the evil vet... Hence when the injection was administered, she practically WAILED.
lol... Coco is just adorable la. =)
and Storm displayed her hatred for the vet blatantly.
I love my babies.
Even though Coco bit my palm and left a HOLE (small but deep enough). Sigh.
I'm crazy
&BelbeL signed off @7:53 PM
2009/11/19
I was craving for something to eat and my parents took me to Secret Recipe and we had nice cakes.
Tiramisu with flat white coffee for daddy
and Chocolate Walnut & Earl Grey for me
(but in actual fact we shared it all =D)
and Chocolate Walnut & Earl Grey for me
(but in actual fact we shared it all =D)and I think it is starting to become an obsession but here's my little darling
I tried getting her to pose for the camera but she was distracted
Still distracted
and then she seemed to close her eyes for a snooze. LOL
and when I discovered more pictures of when I was younger.. =D
I think this is CUTE
and here's my.. first birthday? Or second..
&BelbeL signed off @1:18 PM
2009/11/18
I thought I should not blog about it,
but then again I felt that my blog should be truthful and I should not have to sensor myself excessively. Plus, I feel that it will never be revealed who I am blogging about, and the chances of people reading it is already low, the chances of the right person reading it and knowing it is about them, is almost close to nil. Hence, what is there to worry about?
I was having a bad day, due to the unexpected turn of events, but I remember promising, so I kept to my word. Maybe I was over sensitive, maybe you did not mean it, but you sounded bored and wanting to get rid of me. I felt hurt, and perhaps in a weird way I even felt jilted, unwanted. However, I know I should not keep it in heart, so I am blogging about it so that I can let go of it. =) I hope it will pass.
RuiAnn just called. =) I am so glad to talk to her. I miss her. =D
It is not time. It is not the place. It is just all wrong. but I will still stand strong. It is all just an experience, for me to grow. =) and I thank you for that. =)
but I am hoping to be strong enough for all this.
Jiayou.
&BelbeL signed off @8:24 PM
2009/11/16
Overgrown eyebrows and messy hair seems to be the least of my problems.
My eczema is taking a turn for the worse while my sinus is causing continuous swollen eyes.
Bleah.
but where all the bad things end (including a cancelled flight and a 2hour30minutes delay before I managed to leave for home), I came home to meet the new puppy
and her name is affectionately Coco. =) Like a nickname for chocolate, and as beautiful as Chanel's founder Coco. =)
This little darling is so adorable! (or I should say adoraBEL)
I was told not to give in but on the other hand, I was told to be the bigger person. The bottom line is that I tried, but again in vain. I feel rude not to inform, but then the door has been shut in my face. Hence I believe I have tried and it is no longer a matter of courtesy. It has never been easy, but with each time it happens, I grow stronger and more immune, and time and again I believe I will be able to do it, albeit it is never easier.
and the trip to Sabah was splendid. I miss my cousins. I am just glad I am home. Anyway, here is a picture for all to see. =P
I want to take a family picture this year too!
but before we move on, here's the plane I took to Kuching. The new airbus... (okay, maybe not SO new anymore)
and here is a picture of the tiny durians we saw at the Orang Asli market. =)
Before you stare in awe, check out the RED durian!!!! LOL
and yes, your eyes are not deceiving you, I caught the pig running across the road and snapped a picture.
It knows how to dodge cars too!
and I managed to dig up some from the past..
Here's the most recent in the lot..
I don't remember the years.. but this was taken when I lost a front tooth.. Hence the refusal to smile at all.
and this I have no recollection whatsoever.
(but I will admit I think I look cute)
&BelbeL signed off @2:58 PM
2009/11/13
Holy crap, I alsmot could not sign in.. and I just made the changes and ammendments now. I hope it is not too late, but it really should not be, since the entry is technically not close yet.
It's already Friday, by this time on Sunday, I should be on my way to the airport, ready to fly back to my side of Malaysia, even though I must be honest and say that I am very attached to this side. Things have been happening, and I wish I got to meet Janice and Andrew as well. Bleaup.
The disappointment shall not be masked for there was more than one attempt which was ignored. Perhaps it's time for a change. I realised that when you are close to someone, even though you are not close physically, the bond can still be there. =) Damn Nick though, I wish he was not that smart and did not get the scholarship so he would still be in sunway. BLEAH.
People change and mature over time, and difference will grow and perhaps keep others who were away apart. Sometimes I don't think I know who you are anymore, but then when I look into the mirror, I realised a stranger looks back at me! What has time done to you and me?
Will time repair the wounds left behind?
It seems like just yesterday that we were laughing and frolicking, having fun. But you were not the first, and I doubt that you will be the last, who have inflicted this.. Maybe my judgement is impaired, maybe I expect too much, but I think that like how the waves wash away the footprints, the hurt will fade away. =)
Jiayou christabel.
Seeing putu will definitely cheer me up. =D
It's already Friday, by this time on Sunday, I should be on my way to the airport, ready to fly back to my side of Malaysia, even though I must be honest and say that I am very attached to this side. Things have been happening, and I wish I got to meet Janice and Andrew as well. Bleaup.
The disappointment shall not be masked for there was more than one attempt which was ignored. Perhaps it's time for a change. I realised that when you are close to someone, even though you are not close physically, the bond can still be there. =) Damn Nick though, I wish he was not that smart and did not get the scholarship so he would still be in sunway. BLEAH.
People change and mature over time, and difference will grow and perhaps keep others who were away apart. Sometimes I don't think I know who you are anymore, but then when I look into the mirror, I realised a stranger looks back at me! What has time done to you and me?
Will time repair the wounds left behind?
It seems like just yesterday that we were laughing and frolicking, having fun. But you were not the first, and I doubt that you will be the last, who have inflicted this.. Maybe my judgement is impaired, maybe I expect too much, but I think that like how the waves wash away the footprints, the hurt will fade away. =)
Jiayou christabel.
Seeing putu will definitely cheer me up. =D
&BelbeL signed off @4:45 PM
2009/11/11
Ｔｈｉｓ ｉｓ ｍｙ ｓｅｃｏｎｄ ｄａｙ ｉｎ Ｓａｂａｈ．
Ｔｈｅ ｗｅｅｋ ｉｎ Ｓａｒａｗａｋ ｈａｓ ｂｅｅｎ ｔｉｒｉｎｇ， ｂｕｔ Ｉ ｍｅｔ ｕｐ ｗｉｔｈ Ｇｒａｃｉａ．
Ｍｙ ｇｒａｎｄｍａ ｉｓ ｉｎ ｇｏｏｄ ｈｅａｌｔｈ ｂｕｔ Ｉ ｆｅｌｔ ｗｅｉｒｄ ｗｉｔｈ Ｇｒａｃｉａ． Ｉ ｔｈｉｎｋ ｔｉｍｅ ｈａｓ ｃｈａｎｇｅｄ ｂｏｔｈ ｏｆ ｕｓ．．
Ｃｈｉｅｎ Ｗｅｎ， ｙｅａｈ， ｍｕｍｍｙ ｇｅｔｔｉｎｇ ａ ｐｕｐｐｙ． ＝Ｄ Ｓｔｉｌｌ ｗａｉｔｉｎｇ ｆｏｒ ｉｔ．． ｍａｙｂｅ ｉｔ ｉｓ ａｔ ｈｏｍｅ ａｌｒｅａｄｙ．． Ｉ ｄｏｎ＇ｔ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｋｎｏｗ．．
ＲｕｉＡｎｎ， Ｉ ｍｉｓｓ ｙｏｕ ｔｏｏ！ ＝）
Ｍｙ ｔｒｉｐ ｔｏ Ｅａｓｔ Ｍａｌａｙｓｉａ ｈａｓ ｂｅｅｎ ｇｒｅａｔ． Ｍｙ ｃｏｕｓｉｎｓ ｈａｖｅ ｇｒｏｗｎ ｓｏ ｍｕｃｈ ｉｎ ｔｈｅ ８ ｙｅａｒｓ ｗｅ ｈａｖｅ ｎｏｔ ｍｅｔ ｔｈａｔ Ｉ ｃａｎ ｈａｒｄｌｙ ｒｅｃｏｇｎｉｓｅ ｔｈｅｍ！ Ｉ ｔｏｏｋ ａ ｐｉｃｔｕｒｅ ｏｆ ｔｈｅｉｒ ｆａｍｉｌｙ ｐｏｔｒａｉｔ ａｎｄ ｗｉｌｌ ｐｕｔ ｉｔ ｕｐ ｗｈｅｎ Ｉ ｃａｎ． ＝）
Ｉ ａｍ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｔｅｘｔｉｎｇ ｔｈｅ ｏｔｈｅｒｓ ｂｕｔ ｍｏｓｔ ｐｅｏｐｌｅ ａｒｅ ｂｕｓｙ ｗｉｔｈ ｅｘａｍｓ．． Ｉｔ ｉｓ ｒａｔｈｅｒ ｄｉｓｔｒａｃｔｉｎｇ．．ｂｕｔ ｏｈ ｗｅｌｌ．．
Ｔｈｅｒｅ ｉｓ ａ ｃｈａｎｇｅ ｏｆ ｐｌａｎｓ ｆｏｒ Ｄｅｃｅｍｂｅｒ ａｇａｉｎ．I am getting pretty tired and I remember that I have always been bad at planning and better at spontaneous things.
Perhaps this is a sign.
perhaps I am just too tired to bother anymore,
Either way, age is catching up. (pun DEFINITELY ｉｎｔｅｎｄｅｄ）
Ｍｉｋｅ， ｉｆ Ｉ ａｍ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｓｉｎｇｌｅ ａｔ ３０， ｌｅｔ＇ｓ ｇｅｔ ｍａｒｒｉｅｄ ｏｋａｙ？ Ｙｏｕ＇ｖｅ ｗａｉｔｅｄ ５ ｙｅａｒｓ．．Ｉ ｔｈｉｎｋ ｉｎ ａｎｏｔｈｅｒ １１， ｉｆ ｙｏｕ ａｒｅ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｗａｉｔｉｎｇ，ｗｅ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｓｈｏｕｌｄ ｊｕｓｔ ｔｉｅ ｔｈｅ ｋｎｏｔ．
ＲＯＦＬ．
Ｎｉｃｋ， ｓｈｏｏｔ ｍｅ ａｌｒｅａｄｙ． ＊ｈｕｇ＊
Ｔｈｅ ｗｅｅｋ ｉｎ Ｓａｒａｗａｋ ｈａｓ ｂｅｅｎ ｔｉｒｉｎｇ， ｂｕｔ Ｉ ｍｅｔ ｕｐ ｗｉｔｈ Ｇｒａｃｉａ．
Ｍｙ ｇｒａｎｄｍａ ｉｓ ｉｎ ｇｏｏｄ ｈｅａｌｔｈ ｂｕｔ Ｉ ｆｅｌｔ ｗｅｉｒｄ ｗｉｔｈ Ｇｒａｃｉａ． Ｉ ｔｈｉｎｋ ｔｉｍｅ ｈａｓ ｃｈａｎｇｅｄ ｂｏｔｈ ｏｆ ｕｓ．．
Ｃｈｉｅｎ Ｗｅｎ， ｙｅａｈ， ｍｕｍｍｙ ｇｅｔｔｉｎｇ ａ ｐｕｐｐｙ． ＝Ｄ Ｓｔｉｌｌ ｗａｉｔｉｎｇ ｆｏｒ ｉｔ．． ｍａｙｂｅ ｉｔ ｉｓ ａｔ ｈｏｍｅ ａｌｒｅａｄｙ．． Ｉ ｄｏｎ＇ｔ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｋｎｏｗ．．
ＲｕｉＡｎｎ， Ｉ ｍｉｓｓ ｙｏｕ ｔｏｏ！ ＝）
Ｍｙ ｔｒｉｐ ｔｏ Ｅａｓｔ Ｍａｌａｙｓｉａ ｈａｓ ｂｅｅｎ ｇｒｅａｔ． Ｍｙ ｃｏｕｓｉｎｓ ｈａｖｅ ｇｒｏｗｎ ｓｏ ｍｕｃｈ ｉｎ ｔｈｅ ８ ｙｅａｒｓ ｗｅ ｈａｖｅ ｎｏｔ ｍｅｔ ｔｈａｔ Ｉ ｃａｎ ｈａｒｄｌｙ ｒｅｃｏｇｎｉｓｅ ｔｈｅｍ！ Ｉ ｔｏｏｋ ａ ｐｉｃｔｕｒｅ ｏｆ ｔｈｅｉｒ ｆａｍｉｌｙ ｐｏｔｒａｉｔ ａｎｄ ｗｉｌｌ ｐｕｔ ｉｔ ｕｐ ｗｈｅｎ Ｉ ｃａｎ． ＝）
Ｉ ａｍ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｔｅｘｔｉｎｇ ｔｈｅ ｏｔｈｅｒｓ ｂｕｔ ｍｏｓｔ ｐｅｏｐｌｅ ａｒｅ ｂｕｓｙ ｗｉｔｈ ｅｘａｍｓ．． Ｉｔ ｉｓ ｒａｔｈｅｒ ｄｉｓｔｒａｃｔｉｎｇ．．ｂｕｔ ｏｈ ｗｅｌｌ．．
Ｔｈｅｒｅ ｉｓ ａ ｃｈａｎｇｅ ｏｆ ｐｌａｎｓ ｆｏｒ Ｄｅｃｅｍｂｅｒ ａｇａｉｎ．I am getting pretty tired and I remember that I have always been bad at planning and better at spontaneous things.
Perhaps this is a sign.
perhaps I am just too tired to bother anymore,
Either way, age is catching up. (pun DEFINITELY ｉｎｔｅｎｄｅｄ）
Ｍｉｋｅ， ｉｆ Ｉ ａｍ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｓｉｎｇｌｅ ａｔ ３０， ｌｅｔ＇ｓ ｇｅｔ ｍａｒｒｉｅｄ ｏｋａｙ？ Ｙｏｕ＇ｖｅ ｗａｉｔｅｄ ５ ｙｅａｒｓ．．Ｉ ｔｈｉｎｋ ｉｎ ａｎｏｔｈｅｒ １１， ｉｆ ｙｏｕ ａｒｅ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｗａｉｔｉｎｇ，ｗｅ ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｓｈｏｕｌｄ ｊｕｓｔ ｔｉｅ ｔｈｅ ｋｎｏｔ．
ＲＯＦＬ．
Ｎｉｃｋ， ｓｈｏｏｔ ｍｅ ａｌｒｅａｄｙ． ＊ｈｕｇ＊
&BelbeL signed off @2:58 PM
2009/11/05
The phone came. The phone came!
My white iPhone is everything I wished it to be.
I said a big thank you to my daddy and he looked at me with a sideways glance. Sheesh.
LOL..
Still waiting for the puppy.
Just came back from Damansara today,
going to Sarawak tomorrow.
I am really tired.
Need to pack, need to watch drama, need to relax
&BelbeL signed off @7:38 PM