Sigh.
The horror didn't end.

I called the office to unpack my meal.
The Staff of the Quarter answered.
In the end?
It was still a packed meal.
Talk about inefficiency.
All the people employed,
but what's the work done?

I don't want to eat dinner downstairs anymore.
I'm just making people worried.

I really really hate this place.
It's so fucking irritating.
I don't know why I came back.
Hostel?
Bad decision.
I should have gone to CJ..

2008.
Eight is supposed to be a good number,
but nothing really good has happened this year.
If I don't count those everyday little joys,
there is much to be upset about.

Ms Eelin left.
Mr Andrew left.
Grace left.
Rizky not here anymore.
Erin also.
Sigh.
what next?
Today,
the laundry aunty is leaving too...
what next?

What next... Tears won't solve a damn thing.. so I really shouldn't be wasting them

Woke up late.
Definitely not the best way to start a day off.
Was alright and everything since I had a long, nice sleep, =)
until I heard from a fellow batchmate,
about all the nonsense.

How can she possibly DARE to call herself our teacher mentor?
Seriously.
She doesn't care.
Don't tell me she does,
I can prove that she doesn't.
"You are here on tax payers' money."
"... pay back $300K..."
"money....."
At one point,
she even said,
"you are scholars. If we ask you to wear pink uniforms, you will wear pink uniforms."

Okay okay okay..
Hold it right there woman!
If you ask us to stand out by distinguishing our uniforms,
that is SEGREGATING us from everyone.
If you asked,
I wouldn't give a crap about it.
If the principal ever makes such a decision,
I will not follow the stupid DAMN rule.
MOE will have to officially request,
and at that point of time,
"I'm too stressed... I can't handle it.. I'm being oestreosized by my classmates"
I will want to go home,
without paying a BLOODY cent to the government.
Happy?
I don't care how,
but I'll do it my way if you are so FUCKING ruthless.

Two consecutive posts of FUCKING FUCK words.
I guess I'm really pissed.
I don't care if I sound like I keep ranting and complaining,
but life has been FAR from a bed of roses this year.
I do feel bad,
since I read ODJ dated 30 July today...
It's SUPER applicable.....
Sigh.
However,
I guess I'm just not ready.

How did we possibly sink to such a level?
That society doesn't care?
She,
who is supposed to help and guide us,
is showing SHIT as a mentor and role model.
Is that how teachers and locals treat foreigners?
I guess I better warn everyone not to come,
especially not to this JC.
Right?
I wouldn't want anyone to feel this kind of nonsense.

We are selected by your government to study here.
By discriminating us,
you are insulting your government's choice.
We are PAID to study here.
Not happy?
Bringit up to your government,
or simply...
have more kids,
then this country won't be so BLOODY desperate for more people,
to come study and stay on.
Right?

We are supposedly smarter,
yes.
So if you do SHIT to us,
we would notice you know....
because we are not dumb.

and hello?
who the FUCK do you think you are?

I'm not giving a bloody cent for the stupid sale thing.
The school can sponsor it,
while WE have to sell the stuff,
and the profits will all go to the school anyway.
You get FREE man power and labour,
so what's the FUCKING problem?
I'm not donating my money.
I'm too poor to give a shit about this.
You find it a problem?
Call me at 98775134.
WHATEVER.

I know.
My mum says I have a problem with authority,
with respecting authority.
I beg to differ.
I have a problem with authoritative figures who do not EARN that position,
who do not understand the concept of
Respect others to earn their repect.
Do unto others what you want them to unto you.
Yes.
I have a problem with authority of this... LOWER sort.
Authority who cannot even handle themselves properly.

WHATEVER la.
Swearing and vulgarities are only degrading myself,
but it makes me feel better,
so I don't give a FUCK.
I don't want to give a BLOODY SHIT about what you say anymore,
because you are suddenly oh.. sooooo good.
Good for you.
Seriously.
but I'm not good you see,
and I cannot take this kind of thing,
so just.. be good,
and stay away from me.
I don't know how the hell can I go for Bible Study on saturday with this kind of attitude..
CF tomorrow also.
Perhaps I should not go for this week.
I don't even know which church to go to.
Sigh.
I hate this anger.
I hate the feeling of wanting to destroy you and you.
I hate the BLOODY system that Man created.

I'm not letting anyone touch my food.
So if I do not offer,
HANDS OFF!!!!!!!
except Gracia, Zac, Matt, NyonNyon and group.

I'm in a FUCKING bad temper,
so don't try me.
I'm not patient.
I'm too rash for my own good,
but hey.
You've had your warning.

I'll NEVER approach you for help.
I'd rather be sent home.
I'd rather lose everything and start anew from NOWHERE.
My pride is just too great.
and I don't care.
I'd rather just get sent home,
then to bow down to FUCKING authority who treats us like.. SLAVES.
not even like children,
like SLAVES.

We are at an age that we are trying to find our position in the world,
to understand who we are,
what we are supposed to be here for...
We need care and understanding,
being away from home and not under our parents' constant love, care and guidance,
not for you to tell us that we are here under TAXPAYERS' MONEY
and that we have to obey everything that is said.
Hey,
if you can't provide us with what we need,
fine.
But don't make things even harder,
please.
Enough is enough.
I miss home,
where they try to understand,
and even when you quarrel,
deep down you know they truly care and love you,
which is what that is driving them so hard.
Here?
I don't feel loved.
I don't feel any care or warmth.
It only comes when it is convenient.
If it is not,
too bad.
Hourly report.
Too bad,
detention.
Too bad,
scolding.
When did this place become like that?
What happened to home away from home?
OHANA?
like parents and siblings...
what parents?!
You are more like FUCKING dungeon masters.
Don't act like my mum if you don't care about me like my mum does.
You are not my mum,
never will be,
so stop bossing me around.

FUCK OFF.

I wonder why it always ties back to religion.
What's with the obsession? wise words, but do you follow them? things are easier said than done
I'm not going to blog about religion at all today.
Taking a break from.. blogging about it. =)

Went swimming.
I'm glad I swam.
Managed to do 18 today,
as compared to 12 the other day. =D
I like improvements!
However, I pushed myself too hard.
Should have stopped at 16,
a bit too worn out right now. =P
And I definitely got a slight tan.
Aish.

Physics SPA
Teacher was acting like a bitch today.
Never got scolded by him before.
"A simple switch also don't know how to attach? "
I guess I don't respond well to scoldings.
I tend to become pissed off and shut off,
as compared to teacher/AHMs who make me feel guilty.
Speaking of which,
punishment for loitering after lights out the other night : clean pantry.
AGAIN.
I hate that STUPID pantry.
I don't like this cluster.
I like Ms Pam,
but this is not my favourite floor,
or cluster,
or room,
or stupid toilet.
Since this is already the 3rd time the toilet has cockroaches,
and this time round,
there was 1 in the room too.
I don't even know if it's gone.
2 taps in the toilet don't really work,
and 4 sinks are always clogged up.
Fridge is always dirty and not really cold.
Water dispenser is faulty.
What else can go wrong?!
Sigh.
Room?
there are fights/quarrels/disagreements every other night.
"you don't like me"
"you have never been nice to me"
"the way you speak to me is different"
I don't care.
I don't give a shit.
I don't even notice,
happy?
I seriously don't even want to hear anything.
STOP USING MY COMB too.
I don't like it.
It's not hygienic.
Once or twice,
I understand.
If you were my good good good/close friend,
I understand.
Since you don't fall into that category,
you are just roomie,
stay away from my comb.

Why do people always contradict themselves?
Are all of us hiding under masks or pretence?
I don't really know what to do.
I don't want to look emo/unhappy all the time.
I always smile, look happy,
act stupid, be blur and all. I'm feeling really stressed out.
I guess life's just like that.
I hate debates on religion.Frankly I don't like to talk about it with FUCKING ATHEISTS at all. Non-believers of the existence of Christ ARE ATHEISTS.
Homework all piling up.
GP test
I definitely screwed it up.
495 words only,
and minimum is 500.
I don't know how bad she's going to skin me alive.
maths class test
I got an S, 40/100. Not too bad.
Teacher helped me at some parts and those were not counted.
I don't really know how to do MI at one part.

Maths Lecture test.
Chem tutorial.
Maths MI tutorial.
Physics tutorialS.
PW.
Sigh.
Must we really do all this shit?
Where does it get us in the end anyway?
So what if I have a cert?
It doesn't change anything.
I don't see how people can LAUGH at their friends who are suffering.
It's not funny.
and I think it's downright rude and inconsiderate.
So just disappear and be gone if you don't want me to say FUCK OFF to your face.
Bad mood?
Yeah.
Definitely.
Been in this kind of temper for quite a while.
If I'm asked one more time..
"what's wrong.."
"you don't like me?"
I'll probably shout back,
YES!!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!!!!!!! are you HAPPY?!?!!?!??!?!?!

Thanks Ms Pam for listening to Vann and I ranting last night.
It helped,
but this build up is already.. permanent.
I miss the old OH.
Before perversion entered....
before STUPID rules were implemented,
when AHMs TRULY FREAKING cared,
when the boarders' welfare was considered.

A boarding school.
Aren't the boarders' welfare THE priority of the boarding school?
Apparently not so.
By the time they take up suggestions to improve,
it's 2 years later.
Ideas need to processed and approved,
I agree,
but 2 years?
Hello?
OUTDATED?!
We live in a society that comes out with new phone every 2 months!!!!!!
No no no.... OH sunday is more important.
No wonder...
All the funds are going to showing people how NICE the place is,
that there are places infested with ROACHES!
How disgusting is that?
How come the boss is allowed to TRAMPLE into Girl's floor anytime he likes?
Surprise checking up?
HELLO!!!
even my father gives me more privacy than that!!!!!!!
Undergarments must be removed IMMEDIATELY when dried in the toilet,
it's CHECKED too!
Oh right.
What else?
Cannot dry in the room,
it's unhygienic.
Okay,
WHATEVER>
Seriously.
The next time this happens,
I'm lining ALL my sanitary pads on the table,
chair and bed.
I'll just say I feel safe with so many around
because I know I won't stain my bed at all.
What?
PADS are CLEAN and super hygienic.
Your wife uses them too!

Don't come out with stupid rules.
Life is not in a "one size fits all" package.
I'm sure BOYS and GIRLS need to be treated differently,
and people with different cultures and backgrounds have different needs.
You can't meet the needs?
FINE>
but don't make it even harder,
okay?
IT's hard enough surviving in a SHITHOLE full of BLOODY idiots striving in the STUPID rat race,
we don't need more COMPULSARY events to CLOG up our system.
When we don't do well?
O... we are not disciplined...
more rules....
no showering during study time.
no showering after lights out.
no this,
no that.
no laundry ....
HELLO?!?!?!?!?!??!
WHAT THE FUCK are we supposed to do?
Enough is enough!
Okay?
Even your CHILDREN have more freedom!
They can study with the BLOODY ceiling light on, right?
They get to see you all the time,
right?
When our parents call,
o...
it's study time..
cannot.
It's roll call,
cannot.
It's lights out,
cannot.
10-11pm?
Let's see...
shower, do laundry,
print notes...
there's no time to talk to our parents.
so let's just all live in a shithole,
follow all the rules and be boarder of the year.
MY ASS.
I don't CARE if I get FUCKING hourly report anyway.
They are given out without PROPER basis anyway.
I don't give a shit.
It doesn't change anything.
What happened to the people who care?
Oh yeah.
All chased away,
or RAN AWAY.
Good for them.
Too bad I'm still FUCKING stuck here.
What the hell was I thinking..
seriously.

Oh yeah,
Don't tag if you are going to "nag" at me.
Give it a rest.
I don't give a shit about your ideas.
If not,
maybe tomorrow I can blog about how FUCKING pissed I am at you.

Sheesh.
I've got so much in my system I don't even know how to get it all out.
Some are definitely out,
but I'm still FUCKING pissed off.
I'm a FUCKING vice cluster capt...
Poor bernie,
with someone like me helping her.
I'll try my best,
but if it's not good enough,
FUCKERS, do it yourself.

This world will be FUCKING easier if everyone just rot, die and go to hell.

Long or short hair.

I prefer long,
but I can't decide whether I should do hair extensions...
People,
please tag?
Don't worry about "offending" me.
Just go ahead,
I'll need the feedback!!! =D
ThankS!!!!

ASEAN dance.
Anyone wants to come?
This Saturday, 2nd August 08,
Fullerton Hotel.
My friends have to sell 36 tickets,
if not they have to each pay $100 to sum up the money..
So please support.
=)
Tickets are $26 each!
=)
Thanks.

Stressed.
I can't seem to handle what that's placed on my plate.
Tutorials and tutorials.
Tests and exams.
Results.
Studies.
Scholarship.
Tuition.
Money issues.
ASEAN dance.
Friends.
Family.
It always comes together,
all at one shot,
hitting you at your most vulnerable moment,
rendering you helpless..

Chem SPA
Phy mock SPA
GP test.
Maths class test.
Maths lecture test.
Physics SPA.
Physics tuition homework.
Physics tutorial.
Maths MI tutorial.
Chem Kinetics tutorial.

Okay,
I need to go.
As much as I'd love to rant to get these horrible feelings out,
I've stopped being able to do it face to face.
I can't even cry or whatever.
It just seems that every moment and minute with friends are too important to WASTE on being sad.

Oh my goodness..
Just saw KC's "seven deadly sins" quiz results....
Everything's low or very low,
the highest was only... medium.
Mine was all HIGH or VERY HIGH,
except lust which was very low...
Freak.

Anyway,
too tired to really blog.
Am not supposed to even blog for lack of time to study.

Crimson wall today.
Funny.
More to update about this.

Church...
Failed.
Sigh.

Physics tuition.
Intriguing and.... exciting?
I don't know...

Missed assembly completely.

Money issues.
Sigh.

Maths tuition tomorrow.

Bible study will have to be shifted to another day.

Swimming on Tuesday,
Wednesday and Thursday if I can help it.
=)
It really makes me smile!
and YouYing!
sorry!
I remember your cute swimsuit!
Lol..

Gtg d.
Sigh.
Mugging

Swimming was ENERGISING!!!
=D
I'm glad I got my butt off the chair to go. =D
It was fun,
although Zack and Gracia were...too fun.
Hehehe.
I miss swimming with Ferina!
=P
And the days that Dharlynnie,
or Cindy would swim with me.
Just once,
Indora came along.
There was another time with My Linh too!
I miss those times!

I'm so glad for the opportunity to meet everyone again this Saturday...
It may be my sole reason for going to ASEAN dance....
Seeing that it's so much trouble...
but it's Fullerton,
so I guess it's worth it...
*trying to convince myself*

Yet to master the art of freestyle swimming or turning when you reach the wall.
That shall be my new aim,
apart from swimming 20 laps.
I did 14 today,
better than 10 the other day,
but still not at my "dream".

Anyway,
about Silra home...
I think it deserves a full post,
but....
yeah..
I'm lazy now..
so I shall upload photos first!!!!
Camwhore!!!!

Okay,
internet super slow.
It doesn't work
Another time I guess. =)


If I had the time and opportunity,
I would definitely go to Silra home again.
To all of you out there,
it is an experience not to be missed.
It's not like going to Disneyland or anything of that sort,
but it changes your perception of things and make you feel very grateful over what you have.
Although most of the residents were not physically fully capable,
they strive on with life with more gust than some of us.
Never giving up,
they even sang
God is so good,
God is so good
God is so good
He's so good to me.

Tuhan baik
Tuhan baik
Tuhan baik
Baik pada ku.

It's touching to see them sing the song,
and meaning it.
Some of the residents there are catholics.
My aunty is a catholic.
Although there were some communication barrier because my Hokkien and TeoChew
(I'm teochew!!!! >.<)
are both so horrible,
I tried my best,
the aunty was understanding and forgiving,
and we managed to talk quite a bit,
about family,
religion,
life
and
FOOD!!!!!!
Lol.
I'm definitely going to miss that place.
The uncle that Mei was talking to,
plants many flowers, trees and shrubs around!
He even has a "ang mo lu lian"
direct translation being " caucasion durian"
which is also known as...
SOURSOP!!
Cool, right?
I admire their spirit and all.
It makes me reflect that we,
capable YOUNG people,
do not really treasure what we have at hand.
It's always easy to just say that I will, I will, I will..
but when slight difficulties come our way,
we tumble,
and we complain,
we grumble,
and we forget about these things.
It's easy to just say,
and forget later.
I wish I have their courage,
and I guess I'll pray for it.
=)
I admire those residents,
and we,
who go there to "entertain" them
stand to gain a lot from them.
Just open your eyes and learn.
Life is a learning journey that never ends.

Labels: learning journey

Literature is a fine art in which only the distinguished minds can choose to accept and study. =D
I like this line!!!!
I just got it...
from my head...
I'm pretty sure someone said it before,
or something...
Lol.

Anyway,
blog update.

Met up with HuiZyi,
it definitely cheered me up!
Bought a dress thing,
and....
yeah!
Met with Jasmine and Gracia0 after a while,
and dinner at Atria.
After that,
back for CF (I was super late)
and yeah...=)
Lights out.

Slept at 2am,
woke up at 750am for Silra home visit.
I must admit that I was really reluctant and sorely tempted to go back to sleep,
but I guess I heard the little conscience saying to me "WAKE UP!!!"
so I did,
and I went.
It was a unique experience that I would have regretted not having.

I'll be giving details,
A.K.A
what I think and feel about these later.
Going swimming! =D

Was fooling around with Gracia,
saying stuff that wasn't true....
but then....
It really happened.
I really threw up again.
WTH.
Thank goodness it's not a lot,
but it's still... grotesque and.. tiring.
Yes,
I didn't realise this before,
but throwing up is tiring.

I guess I won't be going for SPA at 330pm.
Informed my teacher,
hope she understands.
This always happens after I promise myself no more skipping school or playing truant.
It's kind of funny,
because whenever we want to skip,
we don't feel all that guilty the next day,
but whenever we are sick,
we feel really bad not going to school the next day.
It's a funny world, really.

Anyway,
I think I should go back to sleep.
That's the best time anyway,
I won't hear any rumbling or gurgling from my stomach,
I won't feel any discomfort,
all I feel is bliss and peace.

Oh,
for some people's info,
I slept really well last night.
THanks =D
Haha.
Slept like a pig actually.
Unfortunately,
I had to wake up in the morning for breakfast because the doctor was like..
"You skip meals, right?"
me : "no..... "
Then he looked a little surprise and said
"okay.. don't. three meals, at least. "

....
AT LEAST?!?!?!?
That's... crazy!
Has he looked at me properly?
Okay.. nevermind...
Maybe he's a little different..
He did ask me..
"are you an athlete?"
"Erm.. I play sports...."
"Badminton?" when he asked for my hand to do blood pressure thingy...
"Judo actually.."
"do you swim?"

okay.. seriously...
is that making conversation?
Or maybe..
I just have nice arms.
Hahahaha.
Okay, vain moment passed.
I shall stop being an air-head.
Ms Jo Teo would certainly disapprove.


What am I going to do about Chem SPA?
I hope I can retake it...
or at least they'll give me an average of what they expect...
Aish...
I don't know why things always seem to happen at the weirdest times.

I don't think I can go out with Cindy and Indora this saturday,
I probably should cancel my plans on Sunday as well and just go for tuition.
Friday's plans?
All cancelled.
I may not be going for CF.
=P
I wonder if more rest will do me good..

Responsibilities..
I can't believe it..

Sigh.

Having a headache.
It started at dinner...
Is it contact lens?
I don't know...
but I'm more irritated than ever..
Tummy still feels weird,
especially after food.
It's annoying.
I cannot not eat either,
since it is something like..
severe gastric.
Throwing up makes me feel better though....

If I can answer,
I'll say no.
no.
No.
No.

I am disappointed,
more at myself than anything.
Never been referred to in that manner in my life.
How can someone say something so scathing and hurtful?
Not just about me either.
Sigh.

I want to do my SPA tomorrow,
I can't afford to keep pushing it back,
but I wonder can I tahan till noon...
Why won't the tummy ache go away?
I've already taken medicine...

Got new pictures that I'll upload later,
my phone with RuiAnn's,
and a new phone pouch! =D
Thank you!
you know who you are. =)

I'm tired...
Shall retire.

Prince of Bel-Air
is really funny.
I can't believe today is the first time I watched it.
It's featuring Will Smith! =D

Oh,
I realised..
when I tried to nap this afternoon,
I couldn't.
I hope that I can sleep tonight.
I hate not being able to sleep,
especially with this headache and tummy upset.

I can't sleep.
And I'm super irked because of this.

Anyway,
I was reading up on Yahoo! news..
I didn't know Christian Bale (Dark Knight) was a british.
Neither did I know that "The Dark Knight" hit overall high (I'm quoting "holy blockbuster!")
Lol...
I guess Ledger's performance was the icing of the cake,
and his death (I feel mean typing this) added more mystery and allure as people flocked to the cinemas to watch his last.. show, as a tribute to him.
Something like that la.

Anyway,
haven't been having very good days,
but the rainbow always appears after the greyest and stormiest nights.
=)
I'm waiting for my rainbow!!

I love snail mail.
I don't care how "slow" it is,
I believe that it shows effort.
Plus,
I like looking at handwriting more than typing,
because handwriting reflects the character of the writer,
not to mention effort on his/her part.
=)
I guess I'm old-fashioned.
=P
Birthday gifts?
I think I tend to treasure the little cards and notes that come along... more.. =P

Now I'm not just nauseous,
I'm hungry too..
but I dare not risk it..
Too lazy to go doctor as well..
I am a pig.
=P

Oh,
finished
"True Believer"
by Nicholas Sparks.
=)
I'm glad I finished the book,
been taking ages to read it...
It's a nice book,
not fantastic,
but definitely one of those that I prefer. =)
It's sweet,
but as usual,
it sounds a bit too fantastical and "knight in shining armour".
You can always tell that the girl will eventually be with the boy,
so what is the whole point of reading?
To get a better grasp of language? (highly unlikely)
To expose yourself to fantasies people live in? (most probably)
I don't know.
It's just...
I don't even know why I read it.
Let's just end at that.

Shall go and try to sleep,
again.

What Christabel Ng Kher Earn Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

Okay..
This is freakily accurate...
How do they know just from your name?!

Your Birthdate: December 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper. You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality. Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure. Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone. Your strength: Your larger than life imagination Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered Your power color: Lime Your power symbol: Lightening bolt Your power month: March

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people. You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together. Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly. People crave your praise and complements.

You Are 39% Addicted to the Internet

Internet? Please. You're definitely not geeky enough to be that addicted. You have a full life off your computer - and the internet is just a small pastime.

Men See You As: An Attainable Challenge

You know how to make your man crave more of you But you also know when to show some interest back You're good at keeping your guy guessing And over time, you'll let him know how you really feel

Your Pride Quotient: 50%

You have your proud moments, but you're also likely to be a little ashamed of them. Don't be too hard on yourself. It's normal to want to make a stellar impression.

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life. You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights. A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way. In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit. While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme. You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends. Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

Express myself more?
*faints*
I think Matt should get this...
Lol

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you are a bit stingy. You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others. The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood. You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out. You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat. This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

You Are A Little Scared of Commitment

You're open to getting serious with someone... though you can't entirely imagine it. Maybe you haven't met the right person. Maybe you haven't gotten to the right point in your life. Your reaction to commitment is very normal - especially if you're young or have been burned before. Give it time. You'll probably be ready for a serious relationship sooner than you think.

You Are A Romantic Realist

You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance. Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know. And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball... But you'd never admit it to your friends!

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is an incubator for good ideas, it just takes a while for them to develop. But when you think of something, watch out! Your thoughts tend to be huge, and they come on quickly - like an explosion. You tend to be quiet around others, unless you're inspired by your next big idea.

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

Spontaneous, on a tropical vacation, when he realizes he can't be without you.

You Are 36% Gross

You're a tad gross, but generally you're a clean, hygienic person. No one can be perfectly clean all the time, and it's better to be human than a neat freak.

You Are Somewhat Virtuous

You are occasionally a good person, but you often stop short at doing the right thing. It's just a lot easier (and more fun) to be bad! You do have a reputation to uphold. Deep down, you're a fairly good person. But no one's perfect. You're just a lot less perfect than most people! Where You Are Virtuous You have the virtue of Justice. You treat other people fairly, even when you don't feel like it. You have the virtue of Sincerity. You are not deceitful, and you always have the best intentions. You have the virtue of Humility. You don't boast or brag. Where You Are Not Virtuous You lack the virtue of Order. Many aspects of your life are chaotic and a total mess. You lack the virtue of Silence. You talk too much, and your words aren't as valuable as they could be. You lack the virtue of Moderation. You are attracted to extremes of all sorts.

You Have Fairly Healthy Relationships

You try your best in relationships, and you do a pretty good job. You're as considerate, honest, and giving as you can be. There's always more that you can do, and sometimes you do leave people feeling a bit neglected. Great relationships don't happen overnight. As long as you keep making improvements, your relationships will get better!

You Have a Fairly Strong Willpower

Temptation doesn't get the better of you all that often. If you set your mind on a goal, you'll do your best to achieve it. And while you don't have a perfect record with willpower, you do okay. If you fall off the wagon with something, you're usually not off the wagon for long.

You Are a Total Brainiac

You're amazingly brilliant. Some would even say genius. You're curious, thoughtful, analytical, and confident. You take on difficult subjects because you want to... not because you have to. No field of knowledge is too complicated or intimidating for you. You've got the brains to do anything you want. It's possible you end up doing everything you want.

Your Sensitivity Score: 67%

You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you. You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down. But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.

You Are Cherry Pie

You're the perfect combo of innocent and sexy. At times, you seem a bit naive, simple, and innocent. But at second glance, you are sensual, seductive, and even a little naughty. You have people fooled - at least you'd like to think so. Those who like you enjoy a contradiction. Either that, or they can't really make up their minds about what they want. And you can usually give people what they want... as long as you're in the mood. You've been known to be quite tempestuous, and pleasing others is not high on your list of priorities.

Your Expression Number is 1

You have the skills to be a top executive or businessperson. But first you must develop your natural capacity to be a good leader. You are truly original - with a creative approach to life and a very sharp mind. You reach for the sky, and you have the potential to reach it. Assertive and straight forward, you have little need for supervision. You are self-confident, self-reliant, and courageous in your convictions. While you sometimes fear loneliness, you prefer to be left alone. A bit self centered, you may be hard to life with at times. You also have a strong dominant streak - which can push others away at times.

Your Love is Based on Friendship

For you, chemistry doesn't really happen without compatibility. Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships. Whoever you love should be your best friend. And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question. Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you

It's 100% Love and 0% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

What's Important to You... And What Isn't:

For you, primal needs like eating and sleeping are your top priorities. You find getting things done to be incredibly stressful. You don't like having things to do. Your most important priorities get your attention. You are happily able to let the less important things slide. You want your closest relationships to be a high priority, but you often don't get around to them.

You Are Not Prejudiced

Not only are you color blind, but you're also ethnicity blind, gender blind, and sexual orientation blind. You don't judge someone until you truly know them. And even then, you're probably reluctant to judge. You try to treat everyone equally. Everyone has a fair chance with you. Good job - there's not a prejudiced bone in your body.

Opps.
Lol.

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily. You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful.

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

Your Interpersonal Intelligence Score: 89%

Your Interpersonal Intelligence is Very High You go beyond being a "people person." Connecting with people is the most important thing in your life. You're empathetic, friendly, and outgoing. You are the kind of friend people dream of having. Your interpersonal intelligence is a gift. And you use it well.

Your Quirk Factor: 30%

You have a few little quirks, but you generally blend in well with society. Only those who know you well know how weird you can be.

Your Reputation Is: Maneater

You're the kind of girl all the chicks hate... And guys are both scared of you yet strangely drawn in.

You Are 16% Abnormal

You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

You Are a Night Person

For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early. In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set. So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault. You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

Not a Jealous Bone in Your Body

You're secure, trusting, and giving with friends and lovers And while you may have been hurt before, you've bounced back You're generally happy with your life - and no one's grass is greener than yours One word of caution: some may see your lack of jealousy as indifference!

You Are A Social Butterfly

You love your friends so much... You're motto is "the more, the merrier"! Making sure everyone's included is your mission And you always prefer a group of ten to a group of two

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

You Are a a Margarita Woman

You live most of your life in "Margaritaville", and everyone who knows you knows it. You can party with the best of them - and you're really up for anything! You're the type who's most likely to do body shots or enter a bikini contest. You prefer to date a man as lively as you are... he has to keep up!

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Intuition

You are: A true wordsmith - a master of words Original, spontaneous, and a true inspiration Highly energetic, up for any challenge Entertaining and engaging, both to friends and strangers

You Are 10% Left Brained, 90% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

You Are 44% Perfectionist

No one would call you a perfectionist, but you definitely have a side of you that strives to be perfect. Try to see your mistakes as learning experiences, and don't be so hard on yourself when you screw up!

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner. For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience. You attract others with wit and a bit of flash. Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you. Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life. You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past. You connect best with: Earth Avoid: Fire You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

Your Social Anxiety Level: 8%

You have low social anxiety. You don't have any social anxiety. In fact, you love being social. You're well adjusted and likely quite outgoing. Your social skills put others at ease.

You Are a Little Addicted to Gossip

In your view, most gossip is pretty harmless. And it's a pretty fun way to pass the time! You're willing to pass on some juicy details... As long as you're not impacting anyone's personal life too deeply.

Your Vibe Is Somewhat Sexy

On a good day, you're the sexiest woman in the world But on a bad day, you can't help but feel a little average Try to remember the times you've felt the sexiest... And keep that attitude even on the worst of days

You Are 40% Girly

You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit. Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way.

You Can Make 59% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You

You certainly have this dating thing down - and you know how to charm most people. And when your charm seems broken, just think back to what has worked in the past. You have the tools to make almost anyone fall in love with you - you just have to put them into action.

You Are 12% Shy

You aren't shy at all, in fact, you're probably quite outgoing. You are comfortable in almost any social situation, no matter how difficult.

You Are a Lazy Cook

Technically, you're a cook... in that you do cook the occasional frozen burrito in the microwave. Get a little adventurous. Sprinkle some fresh cheese on that frozen pizza next time!

The Recipe For christabel ng kher earn

3 parts Difance 2 parts Tolerance 1 part Elegance Splash of Grace Chug!

You Are 55% Manic

You are definitely super charged, and your energy is infectious! Your mania is something to be proud of. You wouldn't be you without it. Just make sure not to give into that self destructive streak of yours.

He Is So Into You!

Come on, why was there any question in your mind? If he hasn't asked you out yet, he will! All signs point to strong flirtation - And that's always a good thing.

Never Date a Cancer

Clingy, emotional, and very private - it's hard to escape a Cancer's clutches. And while Cancer will want to know everything about you, they're anything but open in return. Instead try dating: Leo, Sagittarius, Gemini, or Aquarius

Your Observation Skills Get A C-

You tend to notice the big things in life... But the details aren't exactly your forte

You Are a Bit Prissy

From time to time you can be a princess, but these days, who isn't a little high maintenance? You know what you want, and you're definitely not afraid to ask for it. (Just refrain from having a temper tantrum if you don't get your way!) There's nothing wrong with having high standards... as long as they're occasionally low enough to allow spontaneity and fun!

You Are Fairly Normal in Love

When it comes to love, you have fairly normal ideas and expectations. Your relationships and ideas may be a bit quirky at times... But you see love the same way as most people do. Why You Are Normal in Love You are normal because you rather die before your romantic partner. You are normal because you first fell in love when you were 18 or younger. Why You Aren't Normal in Love You are abnormal because you don't believe a long distance relationship can work. You are abnormal because you believe people only have one soulmate.

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart. You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts. At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do. You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

You Are 24% Capitalist, 76% Socialist

You tend to be quite wary of businesses, especially big business. While you know that corporations have their place, you tend to support small, locally owned shops. As far as the rich go, you think they're usually corrupt and immoral.

You Are Ballet

You are quite introverted. You enjoy keeping to yourself and cultivating your talents. You are dedicated and focused. If practice makes perfect, you're willing to keep practicing. While some people may dismiss you as boring, you can be quite edgy and interesting. You can fit in almost anywhere... and your style ranges from conservative to funky.

You Act Like You Are 23 Years Old

You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up. The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

You Date Like a Woman

According to studies on dating, you date like a woman. You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling. A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you. And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off. You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky. You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually? You tend to like to make calculated risks. So while you may not be base jumping any time soon... You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

You Would Do Most Things For Love

You are willing to go pretty far for love - but not far enough to compromise your core values. Love is a priority for you, and you'll go further than most people to hold on to someone you love. But killing for love? Or even taking a bullet? Probably out of the question. No matter what, you love yourself the most!

You Are Mostly Secure

In general, you feel confident and together. But the wrong thing can happen, and all of a sudden, you're not feeling so secure. Luckily, your insecurities don't last long... at least, not usually. So the next time you're feeling insecure, try to snap out of it - and remember the confident woman you are!

You Are a Pretty Good Liar

Your lies are somewhat believable, but sometimes you get caught. Work on keeping your body language and emotions calm. And you'll be a better liar in no time!

You Are a Sweet Person

When it comes to snacks, you're more likely to grab some candy than heat up a pizza. There's a good chance you're female (women prefer sweet snacks)... Or at least, you prefer to be in the company of women. Your tastes are simple and predictable. You are young at heart. You tend to crave food you can just grab and eat.

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt. And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting. Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt. And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

You Are 19% Scary

You're so perfect that it actually is a little scary. Men keep waiting for your dark side to appear, but it just doesn't exist!

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious. You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep. Overall, you are very content in your life. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

You Are 12% Cynical

Cynical? Not even close! If anything, you're a bit naive. Overall, you enjoy life and try not to be paranoid. Even if you've been burned before.

Your Extroversion Profile:

Activity Level: Very High Assertiveness: Very High Cheerfulness: Very High Excitement Seeking: High Sociability: High Friendliness: Low

You are 80% Sagittarius

Your Love Quote

Love is like pi -- natural, irrational, and very important.