9 times.
yes.
The fire alarm rang 9 times,
and...
I didn't hear a single one.
Is that possible?
The only thing I heard,
was Mr Herwin's announcement,
that it (the fire alarm) is faulty.
And...
it was the last announcement.
(there was an announcement after each alarm)

So yes,
I slept well,
until my alarm rang.
I snoozed it,
being so tired.
I only respond to human voices,
which is why my alarm is music,
with singers SINGING out loud.
Lol.
=)
Then again,
I don't hear my alarm/phone ring,
unless it is near the time I am about to wake up.
Hahaha.

Neoprints.
I love.
=D
I love love love love love.

hahaha.
Got super sunburnt today.
Okay,
maybe not super,
but got burnt.
Yes,
got caught in the rain 3 times,
showered 3 times,
am burnt,
look like a lobster,
and had SO much fun.
=D

Pictures will be uploaded soon,
along with the botanic gardens trip,
yesterday's Kbox pictures and all.
=D
I'm.. happy.
=)
Super tired.

Lei gong lei oi ngo,
ngo mm xiong sun.
mou tang ngo la,
ngo mm zhong yi lei.
ngo mm ui oi lei geh.
fong shao la.

KC,
I can't...
I...
will rather be..

My NJstar free period usage time is up,
shoot.
I hate this crap.
=(

今天，
我还是出去了。
是我最后决定，
还是去，
免得后悔莫及。

=)
好久没玩得那么开心了。

晋轩，
志勤，
你们俩真是我超好的朋友!!!
=D

Mamma mia,
4.3/5 rating! =D
I love the show!
I was not expecting much,
although I was waiting for the show,
because of Gracia's comments (her friends' actually)
but I'm glad we watched it.
I knew almost all the songs inside! =D
It's really nice!
=D
I love musicals,
and I want to
SING!!!!! =D

垃圾。
虽然歌是唱得很悲哀，
可是，
我觉得，
我赞同，
我愿作你身旁的垃圾。
真的。
我愿等待，
你呢?

I miss Grace.
A lot.
Sigh.
She hasn't updated her blog for ages.
The other day,
either tuesday or wednesday,
she text-ed me that she was on her way to UK,
and is flying soon,
just to say goodbye.
I was really shocked to see the text.
I was so caught up in promos,
playing whiff-whaff and all,
it slipped my mind.
I feel bad,
that I have not been keeping myself updated with her.
Saw her tag on KC's blog,
and I miss her even more.
Why didn't we go out more often?
Plus,
singing "I see Grace" last night,
made me remember the first time I sang the song,
at WOW camp,
when Grace was next to me,
and Lisa and Lydia started saying
"I SEE GRACE!!!"
pointing at Grace,
and it was super cute. =)

Bo introduceda website to read Detective Conan.
Shoot.
I'm hooked.
Totally hooked.

And to 绿，
我刚刚得知，
绿，是我想象中的青，
所以，
没什么啦。
我明白你是谁了，
但，
为什么下不了台那?

=)
long day.
Tired.

Hmm.
Thanks Yee Wern,
but I'm really alright.
I was just upset/disappointed.
Yes.
I am facing another problem right now,
still thinking of how to handle it best.

Who's the last person who tagged me?
And...
I didn't really understand the tag ah....
o.O
Nevermind.
Will get someone to help me out.
=)
Anyway,
nothing much to blog.
Played pingpong,
not bad today,
badminton was rather bad though..
Lol.

Shall take my time to learn guitar.
=D
And slowly polish up on piano as well,
and at the same time,
pluck up my courage to sing. =)

because another 60 seconds that you spend upset,
is another minute of happiness that you will never get back

I know.
Really,
I do,
but I can't help it,
I can't control me emotions...
Like the ever dramatic and oversensitive girl that I am,
today has been a rollercoaster ride.

Been on my feet almost the entire day and i am tired,
tired,
tired.

你问我为何伤心，
我怎么可能说得出口呢?
今天是你的生日啊!!
我亲爱的仪雯，
祝你这十六岁生日，
会过得十分美好。
*hugs*

I would love to blog in Chinese,
but I think I'll leave that to the reflection part.
shall blog about today's summary first.
As in,
a summary of today's happenings.

i woke up at 615,
which is unusually early,
since i usually sleep until...
Lol..
Anyway,
i think it is because I slept so early last night.
At 9,
to be exact.
Anyway,
met KC and Matt for breakfast.
It was good.
like any other day,
then we proceeded to study,
Matt did anyway,
KC did too...
I just....
continued my "Sense and Sensibility"
and had a good time talking to Anju,
who did not go to school due to uniform issues.
Lol...
Played the piano,
had fun,
went to shop for ingredients,
and the total amount was BAD...
Lol.
It did not help that KC kept repeating the number since I was definitely feeling a big pinch,
and frankly,
I was scared.
with that all done,
we went back to the hall,
started with the cake.
While KC did the top layer (CHEESE CHEESE CHEESE)
I crushed the digestive biscuits for the base,
but I was so slow,
that KC did the last quarter by himself.
=.=
Anyway,
after the entire thing was done,
I did the pasta,
managed to borrow Ms Cheryl's rice cooker (THANKS)
and overcooked the first batch,
the alphabets.
KC was so scary.
really.
I was really freaked out,
since he is not...
usually like that,
so I was really worried about the spaghetti,
but thank goodness it came out fine.
I borrowed a lot of stuff from people,
like sieve and bowl from kitchen,
rice cooker from Ms Cheryl,
pitcher and cake mixer from Ms Sharon.
Yes Yes,
but we had a good lunch,
although the birthday girl came at 4pm,
making the rest of us die of hunger.
LOL.
Whiff-whaff before "lunch" was good though. =)
I hope that everyone enjoyed the pasta,
cake and lime juice. =)
I had a lot of fun making it,
apart from the... part when I was sort of scolded...
=P
I'm still feeling quite...
embarrassed at how bad I am..

After "lunch",
another round of pingpong.
Matt and Tung are getting better and better,
more aggresive too.
=)
it's fun to play,
but sometimes I'm scared I'll get hit,
because I naturally have slow instincts/reactions,
so...
I'm a natural target.
=P
*Feeling dumb*
Lol.
=)
but I love my Whiff-whaff mates,
and I love to call it "whish-whash"
Haha. =D

你应该不知道，
当我问你 :"东西洗了吗?"
我没什么意识，
只是因为我看到东西好像还在桌上。
然而，
你的答案:"锅已洗了，桌子也抹了，满意吗?"
那眼神、语气，
都是一种很大的刺激，
一种打击。
我真的没料到你会那么凶，
说话那么刻薄。
你应该不知道，
你说完后，
志勤说话，
我也很无礼的回答，
掉头就走了。
不是生气，
是伤心，
失望。。。
你的回应，
已在我心上括了几下。
是的，
你是我的好友，
我怎么都不会预料你会这么讽刺我嘛。。。

说这么多，
也不是为了什么，
所以。。。
算了吧!
以后，
我不会这么敏感。

谢谢你。
真的。
谢谢，谢谢。
虽然你刚才好恐怖，
被我的厨房技术，
吓坏了，
但，
谢谢你帮忙作蛋糕，
谢谢你，
帮我解脱事件。
谢谢。
如果有不礼的时候，
或得罪之时，
请多多谅解与原谅。

谢谢大家。
今天其实还蛮爽快的。
=)

Okay.
Now even KC's blog,
(note:new blog!)
is dead.

No one's blogging,
except Candice...
Sigh.
It's boring when you can't blog hop!!!

Anyway,
it is....
intriguing that the word
PROLIFERATE
came out for GP vocab.
Lol.
A word that's constantly used to describe me,
is......... difficult.
Lol.
=P

GP
Maths
Chem Paper 2 and 3

PHYSICS PAPER 1, 2, 3

LITERATURE

CHEMISTRY PAPER 1.

Will I tide through this safely?

not by might, not by strength, but by the spirit of God
Amen.

Gabriel,
Lol..
yes yes.
I have a slight break,
and so I will indulge in a bit of entertainment and all...
For a while.
=)

Hehehe.
COUNTER-STRIKE!
Yay! =D

candice dearie,
no worries about the flashback.

I just secretly....
deep down..
want to go back...
or at least to a reunion...
Things have changed...
time flies.

anyway,
blogging on kc's xiao bai.
I got a blue rose today.
Thank you.
I never thought I will get a dyed blue rose.
Lol.
It's pretty,
but WHITE LILIES RULE!!

=D

Okay.
GP
Maff

Typing this in the student resource centre...
I'm too lazy to tag Candice on her blog..
*sorry!*
so I shall just.... blog here. =P

She mentioned missing Ayu,
and her "phantom of the opera" songs.
It kinda transported me back,
AGAIN,
to IJ.
I miss IJ so much.
Miss Kristyn,
Amanda,
Joy,
Si Jia,
Shao Cheh,
Miss Sunny,
Rachel,
Ariele,
Matilda,
Miss Charissa,
Gretchen,
Clare,
Xiu Hui,
Miss Ming Hui,
Zippy
Putu,
Cooro,
Van,
Anh,
Prae,
Pook,
Anju,
Lallu,
Lipsa,
Miss Mai,
Hong,
Miss Jessica (JM),
Caroline,
Ayu,
Stephanie,
Miss Isabella,
Miss soooo many of them so much.

It hurts.
I can't wait to have a class reunion.

Won't be blogging today already.
Saving it all for tomorrow.
Wish me luck!
to all,
don't give up now.

Feeling dejected.
FREAK.
Seriously.
Why can't I just hold on?
Why can't I just commit it all to Him?
Why can't I just get it?
Am I that dense?

It's tough.
I don't really know what to do.
I don't understand.
I am afraid.

Sometimes,
i wish I was like her.
Her life seems fun.
I want my own too.

这是我博客，
第"二十一"章了。
=)
时间真的迅速的在眼前过去。

昨日，
我竟然没开电脑，
更是没有在"网上日记"书写，
感觉还蛮奇怪的。。。

=)
对了，
昨日，
我病了。
应该是志勤，
或是室友传染的。。。
我的体抗力真的很烂。。。
星期一就要上考场了，
我真的越来越紧张，
愈来愈害怕。。。

我已经知道，
我想留下来，
读完这两年，
完成我的学业，
不愿辜负父母。。。
但，
我，
作得到吗?
一切已只有靠主了，
因为，

Zechariah 4:6b
Not by might, nor by power,
but by my spirit, says the LORD of hosts.

我怕，
我真的又怕又紧张，
但我相信，
我相信。。。

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
I am familiar with all your ways.
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
For you were made in my image.
In me you live and move and have your being.
For you are my offspring.
I knew you even before you were conceived.
I chose you when I planned creation.
You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you live.
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
I knit you together in your mother's womb.
And brought you forth on the day you were born.

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me.
I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
Simply because you are my child and I am your father.
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
For I am the perfect father.
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Because I love you with an everlasting love.
My thoughts towards you are countless as the sand on the seashore.
and i rejoice over you with singing.
I will never stop doing good to you.
For you are my treasured possession.
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul.
And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart.
for it is I who gave you those desires.
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine.
For I am your greatest encourager.
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles.
When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes.
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth.

I am your Father,
and I love you even as I love my son,
Jesus.
For in Jesus,
my love for you is revealed.
He is the exact representation of my being.
He came to demonstrate that i am for you,
not against you.
and to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
his death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love.
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.
I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.

My question is....
Will you be my child?
I am waiting for you.

Love,
Your Dad
Almighty God.

Father's love letter Video


I can never truly express how I felt,
when i read the letter.
Last night was my third time reading it,
and I must confess,
it was the only time i did not cry.
(speed reading helps you control your emotions)
Re-reading it twice today,
watching the video,
typing it out,
has caused a great waterworks.

Labels: father's love letter

Gracia takes the most unglam of pictures.
Seriously.
Her pictures of me are the first that I have ever un-tagged in Facebook.
Goodness.
So horrible...

Still waiting for pictures from Botanics Garden.
=)
KC's Eee is super cute!

Had a good game of whiff-whaff today.
Haven't laughed so hard for super long,
but I don't think this is the time to search for my long-lost sanity,
I don't think this is a time for.. anything,
but that one thing.

Anyway,
big THANK YOU!
to

NyonNyon - studying together
Matthew - teaching me... and studying together! =D haven't asked maFF questions...
KC - lending 小柏 to me, studying together.
Jun - playing such a funny game!
KC- yes. for tips on Whiff-Whaff!
Gabriel - for being a GREAT sport and taking my complete nonsense! =D
NyonNyon - for playing such a good game that kept making me laugh!
Marcus - for picking up the ball, HITTING ME, LAUGHING AT ME. Lol.... =)

everyone,
for making today such a pleasant one.
I love you people.
Really.
=)

我对你们的感激，
是文字表达不出的。。。
谢谢。
谢谢你们，
这段友情，
真是对我很有。。。
有那种。。。
"推动力"，
更是把我在这段"困"的时候，
给了不少积极和希望。
谢谢，
谢谢了。

I'm afraid.
Really.
but still holding to my whimsical dreams.

I can't really blog on KC's computer,
(which is what I am doing now)
because the keypad is so tiny
(I'm not used to it)
and I can't blog in chinese on his Eee
(xiao bai)
hahahaha
because..
It's just too hard without NJstar!
=P

Blogging later,
I have been studying.
o.O
Yes, I know.

梦着。。。
my white lilies and baby's breath.

It is really happening.
Well,
I guess I'll just take comfort in other things,

iPod and Lilies will make my day.

Can't stop sneezing..

I wonder who will be the first to give me a bouquet of lilies.
Must be someone super sweet,
or someone who knows me too well. =)
White lilies are "IT"
the key to my heart.
In love with White Lilies surrounded by Baby's Breath.

8 flowers means apology.
Did your 8 pink roses mean the same thing?
Apology requested.
Apology accepted.
Or what did they really mean?

I want... =)
I really really want. =)

Star Grazers...
Or even better..
Lilies.

White.
Just the way i like them,
surrounded with Baby's Breath.

=)
feeling romantic and air-headed right now.

Okay,
it's true.
My MSN is super screwed up.
I shall refrain from using the "F" word.
I just deleted every single one of my contacts.
Great.
Now I have...
no one on my list at all.
SHIT.
SHIT.
SHIT.
What the... CRAP.
Seriously.

Sigh
The only reason why I haven't got up and SCREAM like a banshee,
is because I am talking to my sister on skype!
and....
yes!
I am happy!
(although the MSN thing irked me completely....)
I love talking to her!
She's really funny,
but she keeps saying that I talk like..
"a F-ing (auto censor) SINGAPOREAN!"
stop "leh-ing!"
Malaysians "lah, not leh".
and yes,
my brain has received permanent damage from all the pollution she dumped on me.
I see "F" on the right,
"F" on the left,
"F" in front,
"F" here,
"F" there,
"F" "F" everywhere.

Okay,
anyway,
read my friend's blog.
I'm beyond impressed and amazed with his journey with God.
It's really...
for lack of a better word,
"cool".

My sister has an iPod Classic Video.
Mac PC.
Using iPhone.
I know I shouldn't,
but I'm... jealous...
I wish I'm more like her,
less noob (REALLY!!)
about technology stuff....
How can she be so good and I be so bad?!
It just doesn't make sense...
Sigh.

I love my sister,
really.
I want to...
SEE HER NOW!!!
but she told me something really scary,
but me...
trying to....
impress her...
(Yes, I'm still at the stage of trying to impress my sister....I'm a LOSER. I know NyonNyon)
I just laughed it off,
but truth to be told,
it's no laughing matter.
My sister said she can drive me from Teluk Intan to Singapore
(next year)
in 3 and a half hours.
=)
Hahahaha.
It's....
scary.
My dad takes 8 hours.
Yes.
My sister once drove me to KL,
in an hour plus,
when my father usually takes 3 hours (give and take).
so..
this is no laughing matter.
but I still laughed..
convincingly...
She also said..
The Corolla Altis would become a convertible,
and the wheels would probably spin off by the time we stopped.
And....
due to my overactive imagination,
I can believe her.
I can imagine it happening.
People,
if anything happens,
thanks for being my friends.
I love you all.

Bit tired,
waiting for my sister to hang up her "international call",
with some...dude.
so that I can talk to her.
I am hungry,
but I will wait,
because I will rather talk to her.
I miss her a lot a lot a lot eh.
I cannot wait for end of this year,
because my brother and sister are both back!
It will be a REAL family reunion!!
I know to most people,
this is...
erm.... okay.....
kind of thing,
but to me,
it means a lot.
I guess I am family-oriented.

我想念他们，
想念小时候，
一起玩、大驾、争吵。。。
童年的回忆，
永远都是美好的。。。

Struggling to control..
I hate it when my emotions overflow.

I'm Yours.

It's unfortunate,
but I have no idea how to upload a video from youtube...
Anyway, I like this song.
=)

Read my friend's blog,
I don't really know what to feel.
Technically,
I am beyond impressed,
his walk with God has been amazing,
and really encouraging.
It's "cool".
Really.

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.


Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

瑞安， 多谢你的称赞。 =)
我会多多加油! =D

眼看着这张图片，
我觉得，
意识还蛮好的嘛。

噢!
对了!
朋友们，
如果有看到任何错别字，
请告诉我，
让我可以。。。
多多学习! =D

今天，
没什么事情发生啦。。
Gracia 煮了些食物，
然后我们一块儿吃，
所以没出去，
更是没有花钱。 =)
也没怎么啦。

couldn't get the "shen me" out just now.
kept typing "se", "she" and everything else.
Sigh.
I really need to catch up on my hanyupinying. =P

由于没什么发生，
也就没什么好记录了。
就到此为止吧。

=)

最后一点，
陈晋轩，
明天，
加油哦! =D

I really really like that song!
=D
The fa la la song.
=)

If you want to falalala with me,
then let's go.

=)
Anytime!
=D

I love people who can sing!
As in people who sing so well..
=)
It's amazing,
how their vocals are so good.

Something rather stupid happened just now.
Went to NyonNyon's blog just to listen to the Falala song,
but I could not hear anything,
so I put my laptop speakers on full blast,
as well as the imeem player on full blast..
Then I realise,
my headphones are lying at the side...
No wonder... >.<


No twisted lovers
No forever and evers
I’m a sucker for simplicity
No complications
No angry telephone conversations
Seems like yesterday when
I learned to be free

If you wanna fa la la la la with me
Then let’s go let’s go
Don’t be another one just like the other one
If you wanna fa la la la la la with me
Then go o no
I ain’t gonna wait
Cos I’m doing fine on my own

So watcha waitin for
Just gimme your hand and we’ll explore

The many little kinds of things that
Lovers don’t do or hardly anymore
Your clock is ticking and so is mine
Why put everything on the line
Good ol Daddy Time says
We’ll learn to be free
I wanna be free

If you wanna fa la la la la with me
So let’s go let’s go
Don’t be another one just like the other one
If you wanna fa la la la la la with me
Then go o no
I ain’t gonna wait
Cos I’m doing fine on my own

On my own
Yessirree
I’m runnin on a new ground
Comin from a newfound
Free is what I’m looking into calling me.

You takin' your time to think it through
I’m moving ahead with or without you

Yes people.
I'm proud to announce,
that I managed to put the imeem player!
and yes....
you can hear

The Fa La La Song

here on MY blog,
or at NyonNyon's Blog!
Gracia totally taught me how to link!
It's right there on the.. taskbar.
Lol! =D
I love love love love JACK and Rai!
=P

I don't understand Aunty Alien's blog posts....
Lol...
Too... difficult to understand.
Was reading a friend's post,
and I was rather touched.
Suddenly,
A have this overwheming urge to blog in chinese,
so I shall give in temporarily to the urge.

现在有点累，
更是有点闷。
不用说的是，
我超想睡觉。

昨晚，
我的学妹告诉我，
她要和我说华语，
以便进步于语言方面。
我顿时有点吃惊!
我的华语是行不通的啊!

中秋，
昨日就过去了。
想不到，
时间真的已默默的飞过，
而我， 还在陶醉于过去。

眼睁睁地看着将近的考试，
我的手心不禁冰冷了。

没有你们，
日子就不像现在那么的有意义，
那么的美丽。
这是从我朋友的部落各上抄来的。
我本身认为，
这句话，
很优美，
意识更是深刻。

忽然有很想家的感觉。
怀念当时，
和哥哥、姐姐，
无忧无虑的。。。
"烧灯笼"、"烧报纸"。。。
当时还玩得哈哈大笑。

好了。
不多写了。
虽然华文可更加表现我所要说的，
但是汉语拼音，
实在太难了!!

华文的优美，
是我了解，
但表现不出的。

Hmm.
=)
Blogging later in the room.
=D
Hehehehe.
Gracia is stupid today
-as always.
Lol.

Blogging later.

I'm curious.
Is it that hard to be considerate?
It is exam period and everyone is trying to study,
including yourselves,
so why can't everyone just practice a little courtesy
and respect for others?
Is it that difficult to?
I hope not..

But just when I think that all hope is lost with Oldhamites,
I see people,
who selflessly volunteer to help clean up the hall,
which made me feel guilty..
and in an attempt to rid the guilt,
I stayed and helped as well.
It did made me feel lots better.

For those lucky people who attended Assembly today,
check out www.jackandrai.com
I still have not figured out how to Link properly..
Sorry..
So yes.
They are the two awesome singers who blew me away!
=D
Really!
I was feeling low,
then high,
then hyper (yes STEVENN!!!!)
then low..
because of certain things..
then they sang!
Really well!
and made me remember why I want a boyfriend who can serenade me..
It's just super romantic.
=D
Jack was super sweet when he played the guitar and his mum sang.
Made me a little homesick...
but I enjoyed assembly tremendously.
=D
It's just super nice!
I guess...
All hope is not lost,
yet.
=)

Life's not bleak,
all the time,
you just need to find colours.
=)

I love 14 September 2008 after all.

RuiAnn, thanks for the encouragements
KC, thanks for peeling the pomelo and being Hercules!
Matt, thanks for listening to me rant on sms..
Stevenn, THANKS!!!! =D *you know why*
NyonNyon, hope your mood's better now. I love Jack and Rai! =D
YeeWern, thanks for the apples. =)

I feel bad,
but it is against my principles,
so I will keep it there,
to serve as a reminder to myself...

I don't feel the excitement anymore,
but I'm glad things are still good.
You will still be my rock & I will continue loving you.
I don't feel scared anymore,
and I am glad ... *patpat*

I shall blog about Saturday,
maybe it will cheer me up.
Although most of the pictures are with KC,
I will get them,
then upload on facebook and here!
It started off with us leaving OH at 735am..
It was raining,
yes,
and we just braved the rain (wow...lol)
and upon arrival,
we started looking for "pondok"
otherwise known as shelters..
(Can't remember the other term...)
we finally settled inside one..
before it stopped raining,
and we went out on the grass.
Took lots of pictures,
of ourselves,
of birds,
of the black swan,
and ourselves.
Lol.
It was funny,
really.
I think we might have upset certain..
ELDERLY,
but,
I can't be bothered right now.
The day was too good to be spoilt by some random,
stupid,
nonsensical comment. =)
Attempted to study,
but soon it started drizzling,
so we had to move back in,
to the shelter.
Took pictures again,
studies fora bit,
and then I started stoning.
Matt and KC continued their work,
but I had a good time stoning.
That was my main purpose going to Botanics anyway,
so I was rather happy.
yes.
When it stopped raining,
I went out to stone,
while lying on the grass.
The feeling is really..
just too good.
=)
Unfortunately,
Matt couldn't take the heat,
being a "putera lilin"
so KC came out instead
(this is not the unfortunate part...)
The thing was,
both KC and I got BAKED outside,
and I actually have a slight burn/tan to prove it..
Lol..
After all the... "movements",
we had lunch at Oishi! pizza at....
Serene Centre?
Or.. Crown Centre..
Whichever it is.
And... lunch was from..2pm to..
430pm.
Yes.
By the time we got back to OH,
the three of us were exhausted and we were simply too tired.

Is it just me..
or is everyone playing "Word Challenge"
and doing a good job at it?
Dropping my rank further down..

Had a REALLY good saturday.
No regrets.
Perhaps only a slight twinge of guilt that..
I seemed to have infected my friends with
my slacker & procrastinating bug.

Can't say today's good though.
It's only 1pm,
roughly 2 hours from the time I woke up,
and I already am rather...
pushed off with the idea of today.

Maybe if I don't based my day on feelings,
but other stuff,
it will not be so bad.

Blood red nails.
Yes.
Just an expression and a statement.
I like it like that,
so live with it.

Shall blog about Saturday with pictures asap.

A little addicted to Counter Strike right now.
Since I totally suck at Word Challenge,
and I'm more than afraid to go play badminton now...
(no one I'm close to playing
and I've learnt my lesson)
I shall play..
Counter Strike,
again.

I think I should go and run,
would rather swim but still having my period,
thank goodness it's the last day.
I just need to get rid of all the built-up energy inside me.
Run it away.
Would it work?
I don't know.

It's weird,
but I kind of like how no one is tagging..
Makes me feel that I have..
my blog all to myself,
which is plain weird..
come to think of it..
Lol..
=)
I'm going for a game of CS first,
shall continue blogging later...

Okay.
I think I am quite retarded.
I only like 1 map,
but I've played that map...
too many times.
I've basically exhausted that map.
I only like Ice world 1.
I can't stand the other maps.
Keep getting lost and don't know what..
Lol..

Shall play Type or Die.

YAY!!!!!
I'm so happy!
YESYESYESYESYES!
Shall sms MATT Now!
Guess what,
I played,
and I got different ranks for different levels..

Level 1- 1
Level 2- 7
Level 3- 36
Level 4- 12
Level 5- 31
Level 6- 1

YESYESYESYESYES!!!
and guess what...
I got No 1!!!!!!!!
Among 100 players before me.
Hahaha.
Last time,
I got no8,
while Aylwin got no 7.
Then Matt played,
and he got no 3,
which pushed Aylwin's ranking to no 8,
and pushed mine to no 9..
Unfortunately,
the game only records to no 8,
so my name disappeared..
but for this game....
=)
I got no 1!!!!
NO 1!!!!
NO 1!!!!! =D
yay!!!!

Maybe I'm really good at this after all.

I remember saying..
"I'm not good at anything" during CF last week,
and Aunty Linda said
"that is a lie!!"
and I have to agree with her.
I now ammend the sentence to..
"I'm not good at anything that I am particularly aware of as of now,
except perhaps.. Type or Die..Lol!"
=D

Okay.
Shall go study...
=P

I don't know whether the internet "resurrected"..
or only the office pc can online,
but here's the post for the day.
=)

Yup.
There are pictures to be uploaded,
and ...
yeah.
Botanics Garden has been good for me.
Emotionally.
Not physically,
because I got sunburnt.
Sigh.
Thanks to sitting out the entire time.

Tired,
but finally mugging.
I want to ace Chem because I like Ms Theresia.
If I cannot bring myself to do it for myself,
I will do it for her.
=)

No access card = doomed for life.
=(

Okay,
going off.
=)

Naked.
That's how I felt.
Standing out there,
playing a sports I am quite bad at,
and playing such a poor game that the usual me would have been counted as a GOOD player.
Now I remember why I don't play with people I am not close to,
especially when there's NO ONE I'm close to playing at all.

Maybe I should have gone there after all.
It's too late regretting now,
but today's just been so bad.
I want to just go and sleep.

I'm impressed with the new computers at the Students' Resource Room.
Pretty, sleek and new. =)
Rather fast too.

If I'm feeling any lower,
I think I need to disappear from the face of Earth.
I'm not even excited about tomorrow anymore.
I just want to go there and sleep,
never wake up.

Erm..
people,
I know you people are the best,
walking with me through it all
(like the song..)
but.. erm..
please don't tag or comment..
for a while..
k?
I just don't feel like..
hearing/seeing other people's thoughts and whatever for a while.
Thanks...

Ok.
I know how a day is,
is based mainly on perception,
and I am disappointed..
that after such a PERFECT day,
today...
is....
disappointing.

MSN.
Lit.
Blog.
Just to list pointers so that I don't forget anything.

I cannot believe that MSN is acting up this way.
I have failed messages alert in my inbox every single day,
in like... 100s?
which means that my hotmail account has been sending spam mails to others.
which also means,
there is a sort of virus/hack thing in my account.
Great,
isn't it?

Lit.
My lit essay came back.
The one that he said,
please attempt it again to see how much you can improve,
so I did
(and am apparently the only person in the ENTIRE class).
I got 16/25,
instead of my previous 14/25.
Considering the amount of time and effort I put in for this essay,
I'm sorely disappointed in myself.
I thought I'll get 18.
Give and takea mark.
but no,
16.
16.
16.
Fine.

Blog.
My language on the previous blog post,
missing out a "t" here,
misspelling a word here and there..
irks me.
Yes.
I am THAT fussy,
when it comes to this kind of..
stupid, useless thing.
Get used to it.

I cannot believe it.
After so long,
things are still the same.
I've gotten upset a few times,
but I never ever wanted to blog about it,
but today,
I just can't take it in anymore.
What the ...
SERIOUSLY....
Is it that hard to just reply?
It's not about the reply,
it's more on..
You don't even bother to reply after seeing the text.
You don't even bother.
It's not once,
it's not twice.
Your friends may be used to it,
but I'm not,
because it used to be ...
better.
You had better phone etiquette than that.
Maybe because I'm not as important to you now,
so this kind of shit happens.
Fine.
Fair is fair.
I should not expect so much from you,
and to make myself feel less stupid,
texting when ..
you NEVER reply anyway,
I won't.
Why waste credit?
It will be beneficial to us both.
I don't text,
you don't reply.
You don't text,
I don't reply.
No problem!
Case solved.
No one will be pissed/upset as well.
So next time,
unless you are on your way to the hospital,
don't bother to text,
k?
Cuz..
I just might..
take a week to reply?
Yeah.
=)

Meal penalty.
Yes.
I missed NINE meals.
Not ten,
not eleven,
but NINE.
GREAT.
GREAT GREAT.
Guess what's the icing on the cake?
Not only is the money due on Monday,
not only am I broke because MOE money is not in,
I lose my access card this morning.
somehow.
I don't know where I lost it,
but I can't track it back.
Not in OH office,
not in school office,
not in school library.
Okay.
What does that mean?
That means,
that Christabel is screwed.
She's screwed,
poor,
grumpy,
and downright pissed off.
Fine.

I'm not saying that nothing is going the "right" way,
or even that nothing is going my way,
but this kind of things,
added up,
is just IRRITATING.

You said I was not there,
I apologised.
I heard the silence,
the non-forgiving silence.
What can I say?
I don't want to compare and contrast,
but when were you here when I needed a friend?
How could I know that you needed me,
when you didn't pick up the phone?
When you didn't text?
I was the same,
which is why I never brought this issue up.
You said I would not listen.
Have you heard yourself?
Aren't I listening now?
Maybe because you always want me to listen,
and I'm a TALKER,
for goodness sake.
Isn't that obvious?!
that I cannot take listening all day long?
You ask me for advice on things I do not know much on,
on things I have almost zero knowledge of,
what can I say?!
It's always the same topics,
so what would you have me do?
I'm BORED.
for crying out loud,
bored .......
to the extent I'm near tears,
listening to your non-exhaustive stories.
It's always the same.
Yes,
I am not there.
I know.
Now I do.
I'm sorry,
but maybe this is what they call...
friendship/relationship fading away.
I can't help it.
I'm ANGSTY.
I need a friend to hear me too!
You are in no state to listen to me,
and I am in no state to listen to you,
so let's compromise.
We shall not listen to each other,
okay?
Just...
go do your own stuff.

I was told to polish up on my vectors.
Shit.
He told me today,
and Maths lecture test on Monday was on Vectors and MI.
Does that mean I flunked the lecture test,
again?

I don't care if I am not staying anymore.
I told you,
but you didn't listen.
You heard me alright,
but you wouldn't listen.
Maybe you are sick and tired of me whining,
and pining away,
Fine.
I am tired too.
Tired of talking to someone,
who wouldn't listen,
who doesn't really seem to care like last time,
who only tells me about 2 things..
When things go wrong,
it's me.
I have to hear it all.
I don't mind,
because it is always during these moments,
that I cannot help myself,
I feel so bad..
I want to be there for you,
protect you from everything.
O.
but....
when things are fine,
I don't get notified.
I have to see ...
and realise it...
Great.
So you DUMP all the bad stuff on me,
and when there's good news,
it's back to the same old thing,
is it?
Okay then.
I get you.
and you question why I hang out with my secondary school friends?
Yes,
maybe they are not at our level.
Maybe they have not been POLLUTED and CORRUPTED like us,
but guess what?
I like it like that.
What will happen when some leave?
I will just get all heartbroken and homesick again.
What else?
I'll get used to that kind of feelings.
I'd rather go through that whole thing,
than to be how I was in the mid-years.
True friends stand by you no matter what.
Yes.
I leave in La-la land.
I plan to stay there,
so I don't care
You're too matured for me.
I don't give a crap.
I'll just stay in my comfort zone.
Just stop pretending you care when you don't.
okay?
It makes me sick when I realise it.
After the initial confusion and euphoria that ..
hey!
Maybe we are still close,
I'll realise.
Nope.
Nope.
Nope.
It's time I register this all.

I don't want to go on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.
I don't care.
I'm going to give myself a long break.
Quit tuition.
He's a really good physics tutor,
hands down,
hats off to him,
but I don't want to go anymore.
I don't have money to pay,
and I don't want to waste so much time travelling.

I will have no regrets leaving this place.
If it is meant to be,
I'll leave at the end of this year.
If it is not,
I will do my J2 here.
I am not going to pine and whine,
and hope to the stars that I will stay,
because I believe that deep down,
the only thing holding me back,
is the fear of disappointing my family,
and the fear of detachment from my current bunch of friends.
I know I'll miss each and every person,
but I've lived through changing environments,
and surviving it,
so maybe I'm just not meant to stay in this..
menacing,
money-leeching place.

I wish that I am able to write like Dickens,
perhaps not the "dry humour" part.
I like to think that I am more
"shakespeare"
because Shakespeare is so much more DRAMATIC!
So much for tragedy,
tragic heroes...
Drama
Drama
Drama.
Everyone enjoys a "shakespeare".

Why can't things just be alright for a while longer?

Sometimes,
it really is just so easy to burst my bubble..

I don't know...

I know who I want to turn to,
MATT!!!!!
=D
That guy can always cheer me up.
Lol.
He is sensible,
like KC,
who I used to approach super lo,
till that person said I sms him so super lot....
=P
Made me feel bad..
Plus,
he doesn't really let me b*tch,
which girls need to do....
to just get things out of the entire system.

Anyway,
I know I blog totally randomly,
but I hope there will be no misunderstandings,like last time...

but I won't,
even though I feel like listening to his...
"rational, collected, well-organised thoughts"
for one,
he is busy wth PW and homework.
Plus,
his Promos are in... 6 days?
So I should not do this to him,
and let him study in peace.

Since I feel bad disturbing NyonNyon,
who is having Prelims now as well,
and neither do I wish to call RuiAnn,
because I have been doing calling her...
I guess..
I don't really have much choice left.
It's either KC or nothing.
Between the two,
I think it's nothing tonight,
because I feel bad disturbing him too.
He who is soooooo busy,
(but can still watch movies and go out...)
*sounds familiar though*
And this is a trivial matter,
just that it's a little on my nerves..
So...
I shall attempt to be matured,
and not let this get to me.
Can I? Maybe I'll just be evil and purposely irritate.... aish.... I need to stop having evil thoughts.
How I wish we were all free...
free to do what we want to,
free to talk...
free to... everything else.

Cooro's Catholic thing is tomorrow.
Should I go?
or should I indulge in a game of badminton first,
then go for CF?
Hmm... tough....
but.....
Lol...
Okay..
shall decide tomorrow. =)

Will be wearing specs.
Dreading it.
Have to pay meal penalty,
Yucks.
Sigh.

I've found out something very uncool about myself..
I've got the free version of Photoshop,
but I have no idea howto use it,
whatsoever.
Sigh.
Okay.
Moving on,
I realise this is my 181st post!
That's quite a lot of posts,
for a blog which has just been...
resurrected from the dead this year...
I just checked...
in May too!!!!
Wow..
I do blog,
a lot...
Lol...

I really am excited about Saturday,
what I am not so excited about...
totally upset *waves bimbotically so as to not disappoint Gabriel*
is that I should abstain from contact lens for a week.
An entire week!!!!
I think I will not wear tomorrow,
and that's it.
My right eye was swollen,
yes,
I agree,
but
it may have been because of my itchy hands?
because I was so tired?
I don't know..
It was not really...
decidedly because of the contact lens....
Nevertheless,
I shall be good and wear specs tomorrw.

Botanics Garden!!
I can't wait.
I can't wait to have the feeling of grass at me feet,
and looking atthe clear blue sky up above...
I'll take pictures!! =D
Yay!
Matt coming with me!
=D
A bonus!
=D
Anyone else wants to come along?
Erm...
I'm not inviting the whole world,
but I think it'll be nice for close friends to go. =)
Sweet.
=D

Happy happy mood! =D

Don't know what else to blog,
so shall stop.

How do I link?!?!?!
Shoot.
I can't remember what to type..
So I shall just make references...
Sigh.
I suck at this..

Please go to Candice to read 15 points to know if you are a mugger
and to NyonNyon to read the section on "Bel!!! must read this!!!"

Yes,
both are highly recommended!! =D

I forgot to blog about the colour "sky blue" last night.
Why do people assume that others know that a certain colour is "sky blue"?
I can accept "midnight blue",
because the shades of blue during midnight,
do not vary by much.
However,
"sky blue" actually incorporates quite a range of blue colours that the sky has.
How then is one particular shade,
defined as "sky blue"?

Okay,
on another matter,
I've stopped being worked up about Ahmad.
Although he is an idiot,
he's probably just out to wreck our society's stability,
and we should not let him get his way.
3 years of punishment,
I think it's not a lot,
and I think he should reflect on it.

Got my period last night.
Usually I'll be rather upset
(not THAT upset,
but upset nevertheless)
but I was not.
Perhaps it is because Vann asked if I'm pregnant..
and this is proof that I am not..
Vann : "are you pregnant?"
me : "No. unless I'm going to be Virgin Bel".
I think that I was just really too happy to let anything burst my bubble of happiness,
so even this monthly annoyance was a "good thing".

Parents called,
and I talked to them half asleep...
Lol.
Mum called back because I hung up after talking to my daddy,
because I was simply too sleepy to wait for her to finish another call..
but I did not bother to pick up the phone.
Too sleepy..
>.<
Sorry mummy.

I can't wait for my Botanics Garden trip!
Got my floor mat already. =)

KC asked me to share testimony during Cf this week.
Frankly,
I'm freaked.
Is it impactful enough to share with an entire.. group of people?
I mean..
I can feel the impact,
I can understand..
because it is happening to me..
but I don't know how to share the experience with others.....
At all..
So I'm TERRIFIED.
Really.
me,
terrified of sharing...
It just sounds weird,
doesn't it?
Lol.

Finished the book I bought yesterday,
Acting up,
by Melissa Nathan.
I just googled,
to double check her name,
and realised to my utmost horror..
That she passed away 2 years ago,
due to breast cancer.
No wonder the book was about...
people acting on "Pride and Prejudice"
for breast cancer charity.
Now I see the link.
I should have realised,
this kind of things are never random.
Every character,
every story,
every line,
is put there for a reason,
influenced by something specific.
I like her book "Acting up",
perhaps because it's fabulous,
perhaps because
I LOVE "pride and prejudice".
I love Elizabeth Benneth! =D
Yes Yes..
I even have her other book
"the waitress",
which is witty and funny too.
=)
I guess I like her books a lot because
she's an English writer,
and it is reflected in her books...
in her use of the English language..
and the fact that her book does not dwell on sex,
and does not give explicit details on sexual feelings/desires/actions,
makes me more inclined onto reading it.
In the book "acting up",
crushes and feelings are described,
(NATURALLY!)
but no sex was mentioned,
until the very last chapter,
when it was briefly and subtly mentioned.
This is what I call,
teenage fiction.
I think that youths nowadays are already bombarded enough,
by all these sexual ideas,
that we do not need more coming from.. books,
particularly romance novels.
Why can't we all just be like Melissa Nathan?
simple and nice. =)
I like!

Nano-Chromatic.
The colours look really pretty.
I just saw the email that NyonNyon was talking about. =P
My sis just bought me an Ipod Nano,
like.... a week ago?
Lol.
This is funny.
I guess one can never truly keep up with all these innovations
and new inventions. =)

Anyway,
nature calls.
I need to go shower as well.

Just made a mad dash to the laundry..
but it was closed...
Good thing the "jie jie" was nice enough to open the door,
but only for me to send,
not for me to collect...
So I have to make a second trip down later,
if not...
no uniform!

Personal reminder :
sms Matt tmr
ask KC for floor mat

Shall list down today's happenings.
It has been an interesting day.
I woke up feeling super rejuvenated,
perhaps it was the non-interupted sleep,
perhaps it was the prayers...
I'm inclined to believe it was the prayers,
that made today an almost perfect day.

Went to school as usual,
and was stoning in the bus...
Nothing much happened..
until in school.
Had maths tutorial,
then PE...
I was praying so hard that I didn't have to do my 2.4,
but as it is,
not all prayers are granted.
I ran alone,
since my entire class has finished it in Term3.
A girl from another class,
who happens to take H1 Chinese (random!)
ran the first round with me,
(for fun)
as she put it,
and I completed the other 5 rounds alone,
physically alone..
but I was appreciative of the alone time,
that I had with God.
15 minutes.
I managed to complete my run in 15 minutes,
and I'm glad to say,
I'm proud of myself.
More than satisfied with the results,
since I have not ran for.. a month?
The guy PE teacher actually asked me..
and he was sort of worried that I had asthma,
and was not holding on to my inhaler at that exact point of time..
Although I actually had the chance to say "no" to running,
I did it anyway,
since it is the last PE,
and I don't see the point of procrastinating,
so I did!
and yes,
I'm proud that I did.
Improvement of 5 seconds.
It's not a lot,
but I'm still happy.

After PE,
I had GP lecture,
which I completely forgot,
thinking it was already Chemistry.
Anyway,
it was alright,
although I began to feel sleepy..
Mr Tan really is a sarcastic man.
Sigh.
Funny,
but too sarcastic.
It's only funny when the joke is not on you.

Chemistry next.
We had a short test,
on three chapters,
of which two I studied,
and one I neglected.
When the test I ended,
I was so scared,
and totally worried that I flunked the whole paper.
Surprisingly,
I got 14/20!
Without any hints,
and help whatsoever!
14/20 happens to be 70%
which is an A!!!!
Although it is barely an A,
it is still an A!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes KC,
praise the Lord!
=D
I can't even begin to describe the joy I felt,
and how I began to say thank you to Him. =)
The feeling is just near euphoric!
Near,
but not. =)
Euphoria must be saved for ...
non-academic issues. =)

Tag replies!
NyonNyon, lol... I got a bounce back!!!!! =D
Gabriel, Lol.. Sorry. I like it this way. =)
NyonNyon, again... Lol. I still don't get the new dawn thing...

After chemistry,
I went to the general office to get my picture taken,
for the new EZ-link thing...
The guy actually asked me to go..
tidy up my hair..
>.<
which I didn't really,
and just told him to take the picture because I don't care...
=P I mean,
I HAD PE!!!!
Lol..
Went back after that,
or so I planned initially.
=)

I talked to Bo.
A first in... weeks.
It wasn't much...
There wasn't even much communication,
since he didn't really say much,
but I'm glad I did,
since I sort of feel bad for not doing it on Sunday.
It felt like a burden was lifted off my shoulders.
Thank you...
I really don't know how to describe,
the joys that the Lord has granted me today.
It is a little funny,
since I was so down yesterday..
but today,
is like a brand new day,
a brand new life. =)

Went to Toa Payoh,
because I was craving for McFlurry so badly.
Tried "Berries & Cookies",
and LOVIN' IT!
=D
Met Vanessa,
then PeiQi. =)
Went to Popular,
skimmed through a number of books.
=)
Met RuiAnn,
then Matthew.
Lingered for quite a while,
like...3 hours?
Actually the total time in Toa Payoh Central was..
3hours 30minutes,
give and take.
Yes.
That long.
I bought a book,
Matt bought...
quite a few stuff...
Then we grabbed something to eat at Cake History,
before the Three Musketeers headed back.


RuiAnn with the HUGE dictionary we saw!


The dictionary and I!
(looking apprehensively...)

Of course,
not to be beaten,
she got a bigger book! Lol..
It's half her size!!!

On our way back,
we saw nice ...
the sky looked really nice,
and so...
I attempted to take a picture,
only to have the sky blocked by the lorry..
and RuiAnn laughing at me..


Second attempt is better,
but I realised,
( a little bitterly and resentfully)
that the beauty of nature,
can never be truly captured,
by the work of Man,
be it in art or by the camera,
simply because we cannot capture the vast beauty,
along with each detail....
It's either, or,
not both...

Another picture,
this time taken from Barker,
at 4th floor,
above the swimming pool.
=)


Immediately upon reaching Oldham,
did we go for dinner.
Where I got a doughnut,
from my school teacher mentor
(the nice guy!)
as encouragement for Promos.
He's sweet,
right? =D
Thank you Mr Teo!
Dinner was western,
so it was really not bad.
Had mini mooncakes from KC,
which were nice.
"ice skin",
direct translation,
is really nice.
=)
Thank you!
=D
Went into a heated debate on word usage,
initiated by....
I don't know actually....
NyonNyon and I were just laughing at the guys..
for turning red,
over the mention of "the word".
No,
really.
We just said "the word",
without even saying the real word out loud,
then KC and Matt started blushing.
Like pet like owner I guess.
=P
It's a long debate,
which..
ended after a while..
and I still think it's time for society to abolish the negative connotation on the word,
and the prejudice and label against the word,
because of how people have misused it.
It is we,
who will have to challenge this,
but in the correct manner,
which is to not abuse the word any further.
I do agree that we should not use this word unnecessarily to provoke people.
Another issue was embarked upon,
the "Ahmad" guy.
Yes,
Malaysian politics.

After all my angst and anger is washed away,
(showering helps!!)
I can't help but feel sad..
(on such a happy day too!!)
that no matter what,
just because we are not ethnic a.k.a Malays,
we will never be truly accepted as Malaysians.
We will never be able to truly feel that Malaysia is home.
Why?
How can you feel that,
when your country is divided by racial disharmony?
when your country has been going through this again and again?
when you are unsure of your stand in your own country?
It's just disheartening..
Isn't it time for ALL of is to realise,
that each and every race has played a role to bringing Malaysia to its current state
(be it good or bad)
and we should stop discriminating against one another.
Racial harmony is promoted everywhere for a reason.
Stop the hate,
spread the love.
Lord,
please be with me,
as I pray for the wind to blow over for this,
as I pray to not get so upset anymore,
to watch my words,
and actions.


This picture was taken at 4th floor,
Oldham Hall,
outside the study room,
after dinner,
in a futile attempt to capture the multi-coloured sky,
at this moment. =)


Angeline's nail!
Okay..
It's just some..
slip-on nail,
but I think it's cool...
Lol.
It's funny,
the "inventions" Man come out with.


Saw a book,
"512 places to visit"
I think my mummy will love it.
Will get it for her birthday,
if it is still at $19.90 then..
=)