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2008/11/30 || 12:31 pm A brand new day!! Yeah. Right. It is the last day of November. Great. I know why I am dreading it, because if I put so much hope in that one day, it may be as disastrous or even worse than yesterday. I've always been crazy about birthdays though.. No matter is it mine, or any friends'... Nothing much to blog about, but "Blessed Be Your Name", really sounds like a song now! =D Yay!! I went out to the garden for a long while, because a little black stray dog came into the garden, through the gate.. "she" ( I have no idea of the gender) was playing with Storm, until my mum intervene and shooed "her" out... about.. 5 times? She would leave, but she kept coming back in.. until I knew.. my mum's heart had softened. So.. my mum got her three crackers.. and a bowl of water.. and she lapped it all up.. At first Storm refused to go back to her house, but after much persuasion, or more like.. "HOI!" from my mum, she's in the house.. but she keeps whining, and once in a while, the puppy will respond.. in a high pitch bark.. At one point, the puppy ran towards Storm's house, but because I happened to be standing in between, she kind of stopped, terrified, and turned back, tail between her legs.. I believe that when my father comes back tonight, he will SHOO her all over again.. but I think she will stay.. Just a gut feeling. and my mum will ask me to help and bathe her in dettol tomorrow. I think Storm will like this new companion. =) I mean, they were playing just now anyway. but this little black stray, has four white paws.. My mummy thinks that is the reason why it is a stray, why it has been abandoned.. It also has a little white tip at its tail.. and my mum says my grandma would have CHOPPED it off almost immediately. Lol.. I'm so curious about this new dog, I can't really concentrate on anything else!! signing off. |
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2008/11/29 || 12:18 pm Today is supposed to be a special day, because it is my brother's birthday! So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANSEL!!! Yup. That means my birthday is just around the corner. I'm not looking forward to it. Yes, this is a first in 18 years. Maybe I outgrew that one bit of girly delight. Maybe I'm just too pessimistic to be "looking forward" to my birthday. Anyway, my sister bought some stuff at SKY MEX today, at Parkson, Ipoh, I bought something for Awi from there! Super cute, but I hope I remember to give it to him.. Somehow.. Just when my sister was paying, the cashier was packing the things, and I realised.. it's where KC helped buy my pouch!! (it's the same plastic bag!) Lol.. Then I asked my sister, "are we near Tambun?" "yeah.. like the Sunway thing... =)" after that, when we were leaving Parkson, actually.. it's Ipoh parade, it's just that my parents always call it Parkson.. my brother saw Sam Tet, and exclaimed.. "Ha? So small!!!" Mum :"It's long..." Lol... Okay. yeahyeah. Whatever. I texted KC about it, but it was a really short messaging session. There is some Elvis impersonation thing going on tonight at the club, but I didn't go with my parents.. because I was so busy sleeping.. Lol... but it reminds me of the concert held in SMK Convent.. when I was in form 2. I acted as Elvis, and I have a picture of it! It was rather successful, until someone screamed, "go michael jackson!" >.< Lol.. and I remember that the MC, VEENASYA! announced to the audience that .. "she was ricky martin last year, but this year.. she's......" and the curtains drew open, that kind of dramatic thing.. Lol... When I impersonated Ricky Martin in Form 1, I was supposed to sing "sleeping, cleaning, living a boring life... Watching TV, living a boring life..." to the tune of... the song that goes.. "outside inside out.. I'm living... da vidaloca??" Lol... but I refuse to sing in public, so I had to.. "shake my bonbon instead.." it was embarrassing but I think the crowd had fun laughing.. So.. yeah. =P Those were the crazy times. He got so worked up, when it was a little joke, not even a real joke... and he called her "a piece of shit".. I knew she was shocked.. but she was so hurt, she cried. she's really quite angry now... upset, humiliated. What's wrong with him? I don't get it.. Why does he hate us so much? What have we ever done to him? Siblings fight all the time, but not hate each other when they are almost adults! It was not so bad last time.. Did something change? How come he gets to call one of us "a piece of shit" and gets away with such.. such language, such implied thoughts.. If it had been one of us, you would have screamed at us.. Maybe you are biased after all. I just never looked at it this way. Now, no one will teach you how to ride a bike. I can't wait to take my license. I need my own pair of wings to take me away. "just take your undang next year.. You have a lot of time.. Around June?" Oh God. Please just.. Ok. Nevermind. At least it is soon.. not "when you are 21!!!" Sigh. I don't want to hear anything. My nose is so blocked up I can't breathe. Maybe I'll just rot and die. |
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2008/11/28 || 1:18 pm Got back from IKEA. Yup, mummy, Gretel, Hansel and I, made a day trip down to KL today, more specifically, Damansara (WOW!! I know! Lol..) so that mummy could meet up with her friend, while the three kids just.. had lunch and hung about. Note to self: I prefer Nandos to Kenny Rogers. We did not buy any clothes in the end, even though my brother planned to buy some stuff, because he really has like.. no clothes at home.. Haha. Anyway, I went to Giordano, in search of those long t-shirt dresses, but I did not see any at all. I am rather disappointed. There was ONE nice t-shirt, and ONE nice beige/white bag, but I did not buy anything today. Feels weird to be shopping with my family.. Lol.. I miss my shopping spree with Gracia/Mei/Gina/HuiZyi.. Anyway, I was re-reading some of the notes and cards people gave me, and I realised, I have not really thanked anyone on my blog.. Little notes, cards, from people like.. and those who sent me off.. MeiMei Gina YongLiang Sultan Win Gracia Zac (the beautiful candle holder!!! =D) XiuLing Yindy Angeline Pratiwi Cheng Feng Tim Aylwin HuiZyi Vidya Jixie GuoJun RuiAnn NyonNyon Yee Wern Chien Wen Matt KC Dharlynnie Ming Hui Bernie Putu Indora SiJia ShaoCheh Amy Sasa Sasa's bf.. erm.. Benjamin Clare Hui Clare Tang XIUHUI! =) Gretchen (sorry about.. dinner.. Lol) Ariele Mathilda Ban Zhang (the cookies were TERRIFIC! siblings fought with me...) Joy Amanda Anju Zippy Isabella Kathleen Kath's FIREMAN! =D Rachel Lim Cooro Dung Andrew Bryan Ms Jo Mr Tang Mr Chan Mr Andrew Ms Chin Yee Ms Pam Ms Eelin Aunty Linda I hope I did not miss out anyone.. I miss the place a lot.. but I shall not be emo here, because I've found a new place to be emo, this shall be my.. "happier" blog. =) I saw pictures on facebook.. and it only reminded me of how I'm scared of museums.. Is it normal? I don't know why.. but museums scare me.. They make me uncomfortable.. My mummy LOVES museums.. and we are always visiting museums whenever we go overseas.. The only museum visit that I did not feel so bad was the SAM one, because Indora was with me the whole time. I miss her so much, but I have no idea how to contact her, since I think she is not in Singapore, and I do not have her indo no... so it's like a dead end.. Sigh. I dislike museums, and I hope I do not wish to ever visit one again.. How can an art student hate the museum?? Lol. When I was at Ikea, I suddenly thought of when I went out with KC to pick up stuff. It was actually my first time going out with him. So much drama in that day. School guard was so scary. the haircut academy had a case of mistaken identity. We cabbed back and the cab driver was so talkative. Funny times.. It also brought back memories.. since I saw Cineleisure, and went over to the Curve. I remember the night that I was at the Laundry Bar/Itallianies. We were all eating dinner, then I left to call Matt. He was washing grapes.. Lol.. I hung up after a while and called KC who was on duty. He had to help some boarders so I had to hang on.. but after a while. Matt picked up the phone and started to talk to me.. which was a bit surprising, but not shocking since they are like Siamese twins. Seriously. Whenever Marcus sees me, "where's matt?" "I was about to ask you the same thing.." "Oh.. I think my brother is with KC then" "hmm.. haha. I guess." but.. that was one very.. different night. It was a night that.. I swore a lot, in all my text msgs, but not out loud, it was a night that.. I could not control my emotions.. they were flooding all over the place. I was angry, I was sad, I was upset, I was disappointed, scared, angsty, afraid.. so I called... called people who I miss terribly.. who I miss too much.. but being passed from one to another, and when he just disappeared from the office completely, without even a word to the stupid handphone caller, I just got even more irritated, upset, downright angry, and hung up. Sigh. That crazy me. Oh goodness. I am getting a little long-winded right here. Lol. I am still thankful, and apparently.. it's ... HAPPY THANKSGIVING!! =D Ps. praveena! I can't remember your blog add... =((((((( Sorry.. can you tag me with it? or email me? Lol. anyway, nah.. I go to www.blogskins.com =D They have good stuff~ |
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2008/11/27 || 4:26 am IT just passed noon, so technically, I am allowed to BLOG! Why.. oh why.. do I set stupid rules for myself? Lol.. Anyway, had a game of badminton last night.. Hahaha. It was hardly a game, since it was drizzling and it was windy.. and I sucked. Lol. There's improvement for guitar! I attempted "Blessed BE Your Name" and it actually sounds like a song. The only drawback is that, my left hand.. three fingers hurt.. quite a bit. But it's kind of fun, learning guitar with my sister. I personally believe we spend more time tuning the guitar than anything else!! =) Hehe. It's a crazy world out here. KC, erm.. yeah.. haha. and I see that you have a new post, I was rather.. no. I was VERY surprised! Lol.. Matt, I'm just.. pig. not pig pig pig. you are the PIG PIG PIG PIG PIG! =D It feels weird not seeing both of you around.. only seeing... my family. =P Going down to KL again tomorrow. Around Ikea, but I'm not allowed to buy any furniture or anything.. Oh dear. Where's the fun?? I ask.. Lol. =P Apparently my parents will not allow me to send in my application, until.. the letter from MOE comes. GREAT. It is supposed to come in mid-december, but I think if by the first week there is no news, I will email Ms Yvonne Tan. I mean.. I'm scared I won't be able to get a place in Sunway, or the hostel/condominium. That would be DISASTROUS. I'm rather excited, a little apprehensive, but mostly excited. and really glad that Gracia seems better. and I just re-sync-ed my iTouch. Now, it has 3449 songs, and 500++ pictures, along with a "Jelly Car" game, which I have no idea how to play, or more specifically, WIN.. and some messenger thing which allows me to chat with Skype and MSN people at the same time! I tried it out last night, halfway through my conversation with Tim and Mei. It was... interesting to chat with my iTouch, but I must admit, my finger-touching-screen-to-get-alphabets skill is really... undeveloped as of now, in comparison to my typing, which my sister says is.. "YO!! SLOW DOWN!!! Why do you type so hard and fast? You think this keyboard is the piano?? It's my MACBOOK PRO!! Do you have ANY IDEA HOW MUCH IT COSTS?~?!" So.. alright. Lol. I type softer now, but still fast, simply because I like to.. and I AM STILL NO.1 for TYPE or DIE!!!! YAY! =D hahaha. =) Okay, today is a decently good day. I love myself? Don't you? What can I do to soothe my aching fingers?!?! =(( This reminds me of my sore feet due to ballet.. Why must all this come at the high price of PAIN? =( At least piano was not a problem... until.. the paddle part, which I keep getting a stitch. Bleah. I love me. I no longer hate you. because I no longer miss you like crazy. I just.. miss you a little bit. but everyone miss everyone a little. =) *patpat* and adios Oh wait, and I finally installed the chinese thing.. It was.. easy. Lol. |
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2008/11/26 || 7:03 am LOL. What was with the WEIRD font!? Haha. I'm not really used to this blog... It's weird.. Hahaha... as in the new skin, because of the whole.. erm... navigations thing. =P At least I've been talking to people, more people, on facebook. Makes me feel better. The other thing would be the fact that I'm playing more songs, including "Fur Elise" (Although I really dislike the start and major part of the song) "Pour Adeline" "Gertrude's Dream Waltz" (I LOVE THIS!!!!) a few of Jay Chou's songs.. (not THAT great to me) "the entertainer" (perfecting it..or should I say Improving) "sleeping beauty" (gettng BORED of this beauty) "pink panther" (Still figuring the ending out) I can't seem to play the guitar chords properly though.. There are three guitars at home, but only one is being used right now, since one other is rather old, and another one has not been taken out of the bag yet. My mum tuned it for me last night, but it went out of tune this morning, the first 4 strings.. I tuned it back this afternoon, since I had dental check-up this morning, but it went out of tune after my sister played with it for a bit, only the first 2 strings.. but it's rather annoying.. because I can only tune it with the piano, and my mum is teaching, so I am not allowed to go and.. "fool around"? Lol. It's really quite simple to tune, especially if your sense of hearing is rather sharp. The first string (thickest one on top), when you play it just as it is, it should be the same as E on the piano. Bass Clef E. =) and following that, to tune the second string, press on the 5th felt of the first string. They should be of the same... tone, sound, whatever. Yes, same goes for the 3rd string, press the 5th felt of the 2nd string. Again, it is the same for the 4th string. However, to tune the 5th string, press the 4th felt of the 4th string. after that, to tune the last one, it is E as well, so just play the first string! If it sounds the same, VOILA! You are done! However, it is easier said than done. I personally find it tiring.. Lol.. Anyway, something funny I erm.. discovered during my dental check-up today. I went to a new dentist. Very young, and quite handsome according to my mum, but erm.. beauty is in the eye of the beholder. He's.. decent. Nice teeth. Hahaha. Anyway, when he was checking, due to the soft music playing in the background, and the cute toys hanging around, (though I kept my eyes closed most of the time) I slowly... drifted off to sleep.. but jerked away, in a bit.. Hahahaha. I kept falling asleep!!!! My sister is scared of dentist, she has a fear for them, the machines and all, but me? I was happily.. snoozing. Haha, I think I really must admit, I'm a pig. Accomplishment for today : I blogged in the afternoon!!! |
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2008/11/25 || 1:15 pm The Rules: Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the Fibs alone. -I have no idea what this means- Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test. I miss somebody right now. I don't watch TV these days. -watching all my sister's "I Dream Of Jeannie", "crayon Shin Chan"- I own lots of books. -my mum's!!- I wear glasses or contact lenses. -both in fact- I love to play video games. -YES!!- I've tried marijuana. -LOL- I have been in a threesome. -wow.. even if it's true I wouldn't dare to highlight it in anyway- I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. -Lol.. once....- I believe honesty is usually the best policy. -USUALLY- I curse sometimes. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. -LOL... that's ZACK- I'm TOTALLY smart. -yeah.. like TOTALLY BIMBO too. Lol.- I've broken someone's bones. - nah.. just slapped the face!- I'm paranoid sometimes. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. -nope.. insult to my parents.. disrespect too- I need money right now. I love sushi. I talk really, really fast. -my sister complained of it!- I have long hair. -one of my longer hair moments! but I want it longer!- I have lost money in Las Vegas. - well.. I ate there.. so I "lost" money I guess. I have at least one sibling. -two in fact!- I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. -funny.. Never... not yet. I had REAL hair extended on my hair.not THAT keen, but not against it.- I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. -yup. I tried.. but it was HORRIBLE- I like the way I look. -hehe. -today's one of those YES I LIKE HOW I LOOK days- I am usually pessimistic. -Nope! USually nuts.- I have a lot of mood swings. -WAHAHAHAHHAHA. even if I tried to say no, I'm sure all of you know better!- I have a hidden talent. - totally! It's so hidden I don't know what it is!- I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have. -I'm only not hyper when I'm angry...or emo-ing.. okay. i don't know..- I have a lot of friends. -I'd like to believe so! =D - I am currently single. - hehe. yes!- I have pecked someone of the same sex. -mummy dearie! Sister! =D can't think of anyone else right now- I enjoy talking on the phone. -oh yes I DO!- I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. -I'd love to.. PJ pants.. but.. sigh...- I love to shop. -hehehehe. Oppsie!- I enjoy window shopping. -erm.. not really. I don't like being reminded how I cannot buy stuff.- I would rather shop then eat. -I'd rather sleep than eat! not shop..lol..- I don't hate anyone. I dislike them. -yeah, right.- I'm a pretty good dancer. -again, I think it's all about perspective! =D- I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. -huh? OF COURSE NOT!!! I'm so PROUD of my supermum!- I have a cell phone. -=.=" DUH- I believe in God. -Yes I do!- I watch MTV on a daily basis. -erm.. my sister did.. not me. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. -O...ouch. brings back CORNY memories... =P.- I've rejected someone before. -why are there stupid questions? Lol- I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. -nope. I'm sure I want to just sit, read, sleep and rot- I want to have children in the future. -YES! FOUR!!!!- I have changed a diaper before. -er... no.. LOL- I've called the cops on a friend before. -HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. I think one of my friends might have to say yes on that.- I'm not allergic to anything. -I have nose and eyes allergy, so I'm sure I'm allergic to something.. just not food related.- I have a lot to learn. -doesn't EVERYONE?- I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. -er... No. LOL- I am shy around the opposite sex. -RARELY. I find myself more comfortable sometimes....- I have tried alcohol before. -WAHAHAHAHHA. no no no. I did not. REALLY. I mean.. I just.. got drunk...on oxygen..- I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. -Oh wow. Wouldn't that make me a BITCH?- I own the "South Park" movie. -??What's this??- I would die for my best friends. -well.. a few months ago, I might have bolded this.. but.. then again.. life's short enough without us dying for each other.- I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. -er... no. One of the... not so good ones in fact..- I have used my sexuality to advance my career. -hahahahaha. no. no. no. NOT YET anyway. LOL- I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. -er.. I know I'm weird, but I'm not eccentric- I can work on a car. -no. of course not! IN a car, maybe.. but not ON- I love my job. -I hate school. I think I'll hate my job. but I pray that I won't.- I am comfortable with who I am right now. -yes, as mentioned, today is a good day- I have more than just my ears pierced. -er... no... lol....=P- I walk barefoot wherever I can. -YES!!!!!!!!!- I have jumped off a bridge. -no.. sigh.. my life's a bore, right?- I love sea turtles.- I don't LOVE them.. but they are ... fine.- I spend ridiculous money on makeup. -It's NOT RIDICOLOUS!!!!- I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. -of course! like earning one million bucks!- I'm proficient in a musical instrument. -perspective, perspective, perspective.. I think anyone who can play a song is... proficient, not professionsal though.- I worked at McDonald's restaurant. -er. no.. but there's a McD at my hometown!!! IT's new!!!- I hate office jobs. -er.. my dad works in an office.. it's.. alright ler- I love sci-fi movies. -er.... what... are they??- I think water rules. -as in.. I like water?- I went college out of state. -yup. but I'm back in state. I like sausage. -YES!!! especially (actually.. more like.. ONLY) bbq-ed sausages! I love kisses. -well... from the correct people...if you get slapped after.. trying, well. you are deinitely not in the group- I fall for the worst people. -worst as in.. they are just... sigh... yeah.. not rascals or gangsters....just arseholes.- I adore bright colours. -they make me HAPPY!!!! but then again.. I only dislike... brown.. I quite like BRIGHT YELLOW now!- I can't live without black eyeliner. -OF COURSE!!!! unless there's a brown one around..- I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. -wahahhahaha. I DO!!!! cuz of MATTHEW CHAN CHUN HIN- I usually like covers better than originals. -huh?????- I can pick up things with my toes. -hehehehehe. cool, huh? Don't need to bend over. an essential trick for a lazy bum like me- I can't whistle. -hahaha. i CAN! yay!- I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither. -EEEEEKKKKK- I have ridden/owned a horse. -I have and I want to own a horse! my own black beauty, a magnificent white and a beautiful chesnut!!! okay.. so that's not A horse..- I still have every journal I've ever written in. -OF COURSE!- I can't stick to a diet. -I tried... after I lost the weight.. I screwed the diet..and now? I don't even bother...- I talk in my sleep. -hehe.. embarrassing. but yes I do...- I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. -but it seldom works- Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. -naturally! i Loved climbing trees!- I have jazz in my blood. -I'd like to think so! JAZZ and COUNTRY music rock!!- I wear a toe ring. -er... not cool.... I have a tattoo. -hehehehe. just a small one...next time.- I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. -nah.. I'm a peaceful person!!!! LOL...- I am a caffeine junkie. -er.. no. I just like to smell coffee!!!- I know what cosplaying is. -yup.. thank you Madam Tee!- I have been to over 15 conventions. -HUH!?!?!? What's this? Oh no. I'm retarded.- I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. -er... no. thanks.- I'm an artist. -I WISH!! I can't draw to save my life...- I only clean my room when necessary. -yeah.. and sometimes when I'm bored.- I like a person of the same sex. -ooooo... I like Gracia, but not in that way. I wonder it anyone will have problems with this question..... Lol..- I love being happy. -sigh.. no no.. I love being sad.- I am an adrenaline junkie. -I wish!!! but it usually makes people scared when I'm hyper!!!- I miss being my crazy self. Miss being nuts. I'm happy today, but not hyper. =P Lol.. Time flies. but why am I stuck in yesterday? |
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2008/11/24 || 11:31 am According to some test thing, My priorities in life are in this order FAMILY PRIDE LOVE CAREER MONEY I described myself = friendly partner = selfish enemies = disgusting sex = aromatic my life = full of emotions Veenasya is someone I will not forget. Matthew is someone I consider my true friend. RuiAnn is someone that I really love. Tim is my twin soul. (?!) Kuan Chin is someone that I will remember for the rest of my life. Hmm.. interesting.. test. Anyway, okay. After some intense talk thing with my family, it's been decided. I am doing A-levels in Sunway. Three subjects needed. So my three subjects will most probably be.. Maths (>.<) Psychology Law (The only subject I'm still debating with myself about) Should I really put myself through the rigour? I am afraid I won't get my A... but my family thinks I should give it a shot, give this subject a shot, that I may excel in it, although my siblings did not. Talked to Simon online. I'm back to my depressed self. Don't ask no questions, and you will be told no lies. I don't want to go... Aish. Anyway, made a cheesecake for my family today! It's my first attempt alone! and it's... lol. It's not a disaster, but it's funny. haha. =) The cake came out too sweet. and the jam on top did not help. So..... my sister said I should go for ROUND 2!! =P but I'm a little scared... that I have to put them through all this nonsense all over AGAIN! haha. I love my family at times like these, but when I remember the fights (more like quarrels) the insistent tension surrounding us, the times when my mum annoy the crap out of me, because I know that I cannot rebel since it will hurt her a lot, but whatever she is saying does not make much sense, is illogical or irrational, and I feel a need to defend myself. but I swallow it all in, I try not to flare up, but it shows in my face, and she will further aggravate me. Do we really need all this nonsense at home?! Aish. Hmmm.... Anyway, life's been... alright when it's not bad? Okay, that's sprouting nonsense. I miss hostel life. I miss the August times. I hated November. And it's still over yet. Frankly, not looking forward to December either. Sigh. Thank God I have Patrick. Watching Martin Leung Youtube videos. Now there is a pianist, a prodigy. =) I feel like talking to someone. A friend. but no one I want to talk to is online... No one at all.. Sigh. To call? They are all overseas.. and I feel bad. like BAD. Sigh. What am I to do. What is a girl to do.... I hate you. Hate how I still miss you. |
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2008/11/22 || 2:29 pm ok. can't help but feel the urge to blog..don't know how to go down to the next line using my sister's phone. yes. using the x1 sony ericsson phone, otherwise knwon as xperia.. in penang now. ok.. tired out.. dad said might as well go into monash pre-u cuz it's 1year and cuz i want to do bachelor of communications under bachelor of art, offered in monash university. but the thing is i don't want to go to aussie.. anyway, to reply tags.. mei, at your blog d. :1 matt, take care and have fun at home. ruiann, text me when you are out of camp!! i miss you a lot. kc, i'm alright. can see me updating what.. lol. shall blog another time, hard to blog using these mobile devices.. |
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2008/11/21 || 1:10 pm phew. I feel like blogging.. Although I've just typed a super long post this morning, It happens to be dared yesterday, so I can blog again. I'm home. A lot of travelling has been done and I'm tired.. But I'll be going up to penang tomorrow.. Been eating quite a lot of good food, But when I checked, I lost 1 kg, So not so scary I guess.. Or maybe not yet. LOL.. Been practising the piano and playing old pieces Learning new ones as well.. One can never tire from the joys of producing music, Be it playing the guitar, piano or even singing.. Been immersing myself in music, So that I don't have to hear the other kind of "music". It's chaotic at home.. It started with my mum being upset with all of us.. Is it menopause? I wonder.. Then my parents and my sister are upset with my brother.. I understand that they are worried But I feel bad for Him.. Fights.. Not serious, But headache inducing.. Tiring too.. What happened to the perfect, quiant little family I had in mind? Was it because we have not met for so long that I forgot the truth? Was it because I was so homesick I painted a picture of my family in my head that was too perfect? Gracia called.. Sigh. Life is a messed up thing. Seriously.. Anyway, everyone is sleeping already. I was hoping to continue on a laptop cuz typing on this is not that fast.. So until next time |
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2008/11/20 || 11:14 am everyone's hogging the apple MacBook pro my sister brought along to kl, so I can only blog on this little beauty. Haha. Ok, fine, everyone is hansel and gretel only. Okay. Im actually typing this on the macbook. FINALLY. So I can type more, and it'll be faster. Anyway, I've been in KL. Supposed to met up with Vee, but as usual.. She could not come by.. We've only met once in three years, and it makes me quite upset whenever I come all the way down to KL, but she cannot make it.. But I guess that is how life is when you do not have a car, and I cannot drive so that's another dead end. Been lookig at college universities. SUNWAY. The campus is important to me, so.... yes. I only have to take three subjects, and I think I may be doing A's in 1 and 1/2 years instead of 1 year, since I have to juggle with "Malaysian studies" (basically Malaysian history) "Bahasa Kebangsaan" (yes. THE national language >.<) and "Civics and moral education". I cannot believe I am back to ... MALAY. Sigh. On a lighter note, my aunty came up yesterday and we ate dinner with her. Oh yes, my brother, sister and I have been staying at our cousin's place. It's GORGEOUS! Really. When we first came, we were super tired, but still had time to admire the beauty of it all. The house is like a hotel, maybe because it is new and nice, but it is even better than a hotel, because it is a home after all. Super comfortable. and I got to have a round at the massage chair. I think there is something wrong with my left shoulder muscle. The shoulder blade and the muscle there keeps hurting whenever it is massaged, even back in Singapore when Fanie helped me during Roll Call. Lol. Anyway, we had crab last night and it was really good. I have been sleeping a lot, in the car (on the way) and in bed. All the time. My sister thinks there is something wrong with me, but I think I'm just catching up on lost sleep.. Yesterday, something funny kind of happened after lunch at Nando's (it's NICE!) We started our journey back to Cheras around 2, and then we travelled. Then we saw the landmark we were spotting out for, but it was a SMALL Giant, instead of the Huge one that we saw, so we freaked out a little, and thought we were on the wrong side of Cheras, since Cheras is really big. So my sister took a turn and we went the other way, until we saw the other highway to Cheras. Then she drove, while my brother and I talked, and talked... until I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was raining cats and dogs, and it was flooding in some areas. The KIA next to us was almost half submerged in water (Okay.. maybe not THAT bad) anyway, things were just ... BLEAH. And us? We were still driving... and it was already 5 plus. I have slept for at least 2 hours.. and we were still in the road. So what is a girl to do? I went back to sleep. When I next woke up, the roads were familiar, everything was similar to previously, and then my sister was going nuts, because we were on the right track! She was so happy that she went crazy (for that moment). The best part came, when we drove on, saw the HUGE giant on our right, and further down the road, we saw the small Giant. So.. guess what? We were on the right track right at the start. Maybe just across the road. But we had a detour, a TOUR around Selangor, Kuala Lumpur area, and back. So we reached home around 7. Guess what? Going back to Teluk Intan at 2, meant that we would have reached home around 430 or 5pm. Lol. It was Funny, but the three of us were going nuts in the car. I don't want to drive in KL. Yesterday, when we were crossing from Sungai Wang to Low Yat, my siblings were super worried about me, because they realised, I have grown quite a bit (emotionally, mentally, and YES. PHYSICALLY) but I still don't know how to cross roads. So the looked out for me (a lot) and I thought it as quite sweet of them. However, my sister made a remark. "AIYO! In KL... You better go find a boyfriend. Checklist : Do you know how to cross roads? Yes? PASSED! =D" =.=" What the... Lol.. I told you my siblings were crazy. But this kind of let me remember how my friends use to help me cross the road.. Most would hold my hand. Sigh. Things have been crazy back here. Listening to my brother and sister, my life does not seem screwed up at all, but then again, since I am their sister, that means my life is SUPER haywired, for now. My OBS friends from KL.. some have already finished their CIMP (some canadian Pre-U thing) last month.I haven't even started my course. Goodness. Sometimes, I hate myself.and listening to 知己.. 还好变成了知已 起码随时看到你 哭泣或欢天喜地 可以陪你 让这个故事继续 结局我们都如此好奇 肯定可以一起有惊喜 魔力或奇迹 让它随意上映 可惜不能靠得太近 但仍心存感激 好散好聚我们都庆幸 一时很难去解释 这样微妙的距离 也许我们都很满意 感情是我们一向来 很尊重的事情 现在就紧紧的 维系彼此关系 长大了也许对于某种 感动的东西 一点点都珍惜 还好变成了知已 起码随时看到你 哭泣或欢天喜地 可以陪你 是没有差到哪里 相处的还算和气 就差那一句 我爱你 可惜不能靠得太近 但仍心存感激 好散好聚我们都庆幸 一时很难去解释 这样微妙的距离 也许我们都很满意 感情是我们一向来 很尊重的事情 现在就紧紧的 维系彼此关系 长大了也许对于某种 感动的东西 一点都珍惜 都得来不易 比如像你 Listening to this song, makes me upset, but I really like it. "Jia Zhuang" by Jolin, is more applicable though.I don't believe in you anymore. I am tired, but not having any expectations of anyone, not being in contact with anyone. It's like.. being lonely.. Feeling small and all alone in this big, big world.. where crowds of people are always pushing against you.. but I know I can do it. I will stand up and be brave. Is is really so hard to even contact me? I don't know what is wrong.. I tried to contact RuiAnn, but it never gets through. Now there is a friend.. who I believe have time for me. It's not anything, but I would rather not bog down the rest of you, who seem to be so busy with life. Maybe when you are separated, you will understand the feeling. Keeping in touch, maybe I overdid it.. so now, I'll rectify my wrong. I feel like a fool, while you are probably irritated.. My phone credit is running low, and all that happens is I get more upset I don't think you even noticed anything. If keeping in touch is so difficult, maybe we should just contact, when we see each other. At other times, just remember the fond memories. Maybe I should not have known, because knowing it, has made me upset, right until now. I can't get over it for real, I can't get over it completely. The trust has been broken. To be honest, I don't know what to do anymore. Facebook? Blog? They seem to be so... meaningless all of a sudden. A crazy girl ranting on and on. It may be fun sometimes, but at other times, it seems pathetic. Sultan. I MISS YOU!!!!!!!! =) Just felt like typing that and being totally random. MeiMei! Look like a lobster already. Hahaha. The class shirt looks nice! =) I miss 0813.. Take care in Indo! I don't want to contact any of you people anymore. Heal this wound and the brokenness I feel inside. If you think I am blogging about you, maybe I am. Haha. BLEAH. Not going to tell you, but if you think it's you, don't tag. I don't want to see any comments or tags from you. Just leave me alone. I don't need that fancy fascination. I can live on this bleak, dark world. |
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2008/11/19 || 4:14 pm ah.. Typing this post on my iTouch is really a little weird. Haha. It's taking forever cuz It is touchscreen. I love my iTouch Can't say that about everything though. Life is screwed up. Ducking screwed. Shall blog rme |
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2008/11/17 || 5:05 am Okay. Sis and parents got me a beauty. I'll be posting pictures up, so that you all will know what it is. I love it. =) One of the comforts of being home. KC, congrats! You are a free man! =D Go play!!!! Then study hard for your baptism. Lol. Matt, heyhey. Jiayou for training, you can go home soon. NyonNyon, RuiAnn, I miss you people a lot! =(( Nothing to do, nothing to blog. too lazy to upload pictures. Practising piano pieces. Quite difficult after all. I have forgotten how to read lines and spaces! Lol. |
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2008/11/16 || 1:45 pm Hostel sick. Yes. Not homesick, since I am home. Yes. Patrick. That's his name. =) because I cannot remember the name I wanted to name him, and my sister said it looked like a patrick, so PATRICK it is. =) Yesterday, my Storm was so happy to see me, my sister said her tail was shaking so vigorously, that her butt seems to be on the verge of being shaken off. Lol. The truth is, I don't think reality has sunken in. I am still texting friends. just less than usual. I seem to be on holiday mood, not really in the whole.. disaster, yet. So now.. it's down to Taylors, Sunway. HELP. My family wants me to go to Sunway, because the campus is the best, the hostel is good, the facilities are up to standard and all, while Taylors is small. However, Sunway does not offer Eng Lit. while Taylors and HELP both do. So I am a teensy bit confused. I prefer Sunway, after everything I heard, but they offer few subjects for A's. Am I really stuck to Physics, Chemistry and Maths after all? I don't really know what to do.. and I don't know who to turn to anymore. I miss you all. Alot. but I promised, I will be brave. I think I have been putting up a good front. Kristyn, thank you for the cookies. They were so nice, my sister and brother were fighting with me for them. Reading all the notes. seeing all the little gifts, I don't know what is this feeling, that rushes through me.. Melancholic? I don't know. I just know pleasant memories will flood me, and I look like a fool, smiling to myself. I feel detached, like someone left alone, though I know it is not true. The only way left, seems to be to keep in contact through blogs and facebook. So it does not help, that some people do not update! *ehem* k *ehem* c. Lol... When did it come down to this? RuiAnn.. I miss you. Thank you.. all this time, putting up with me. My temper and everything. =) There is too much to say to you, that I do not know when and where to begin.. NyonNyon, yes.. That is the first time. I cried, okay, fine. teared. reading the letter. I realised it a while ago, but I did not ever guess that you, or anyone else would have felt this way. If it offends you, I am truly sorry. But I have always been more optimistic about it, feeling that, you people are so great, that I know no matter what, you guys will be there for me. My cushion no matter what. I love you. Okay, I don't want to start emo-ing, so I better stop writing personal messages. I LOVE PATRICK! =D Hmmm. I need to go grab my phone. I need my daily dosage of singapore sms. =P Gracia, I miss you! |
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|| 2:51 am I'm home. Safe and sound. Totally confused about what to do next, but looking forward to... Okay, I have no idea what. I think it's almost confirmed to be Sunway. So be it. I miss you people. You know who you are. Thank you for sending me off. Ferina, sorry I couldn't meet you in the end. Gracia, thanks for RUNNING all the way.. I'll see you soon, alright? Matt, sorry you could not come back in time too... Okay. Enough of all this. I don't feel like blogging so much. I am happy to be home, but a big part of me, wants to just be there with you all. Good thing I have patrick (blue HUGE CUTE dog) =D |
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2008/11/12 || 12:09 pm Well well well. I think I will not be able to online from tomorrow onwards, since NyonNyon's paper will be done, and she will be FREE!!!! It will be a happy thing, with a sad farewell to CHIJ. NyonNyon, treasure the IJ days, but don't let it hold you back, alright? =) I've been out. Tues : Breakfast with KC, Matt. School. Lunch with ShaoCheh, Amy, Sijia. Swimming with Ferina. Wed : Breakfast with KC, Matt. Lunch. Dinner with Stevenn. Ice cream Thurs:Breakfast as usual. Ice cream with Win&YL. Lunch with HAT. Dinner at Sa. Fri : Breakfast with Stevenn. Meet MingHui and teachers at CHIJ.Dinner. Sat : Breakfast as usual. So.. I went to school, and I think things are settled, since nobody called me up. I was late, since I was so nervous that I did not leave at 930 as planned. Got to school late, then the people there were really annoying. I was late in meeting my friends for lunch, everything was LATE, LATE, LATE. I was embarrassed beyond words When things were finally settled, (went to school, lunch at TP, went to j8, went BACK to school, met Ferina) I was happy. Tired. Grouchy too. All at one shot. Today was no better. In a sense. because yesterday I woke up at 745am, for breakfast, and today's breakfast, was at 630am. When I first came down, I thought my eyes were going to pop out of the sockets. Then, I could hardly keep them open. Hope the exam went well, I will continue to pray hard! =) Went back to bed, after talking to Matt for a bit at the lobby. Woke up again at 1130am. Had salad, went to Atria to fix my phone. Went over to GOODWOOD PARK HOTEL for high tea! It's my first time, and it was a nice experience. Lots of pictures, coming.. soon.. =P After tea, we walked back to Oldham. It was not far, since the hotel is in orchard, next to Far East. The only twist, is the fact that it was raining. Poor us, were drenched. Soaked from head to toe. but I had fun. (I wanted to, anyway. Lol.) KC was nice, I don't think he really wanted to get himself so wet, but... since I REALLY wanted to.. And then, Matt had to give in, because majority won. =P On the way back, we got some weird looks, but there was also a nice lady driver, who smiled at me, and I smiled back, then burst into laughter. I think it must have been rather "cute" to her. Three kids, walking in the rain. The girl, in such bright colours (yellow and orangey-red) laughing along the way. =) I had fun today. I am tired. And Stevenn, I am sorry about dinner. I didn't have a phone to text... Anyway, thanks guys. I love you all. =) |
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2008/11/10 || 2:10 pm I'm tired. I'm going to shower now. Right after this post. I'm glad I went to watch "Quantum of Solace", more for company's sake, than the movie. It was a 3.5/5 movie, but a 2/5 Bond movie. I had a good "Hazelnut Latte", at Secret Recipe. It has been a while. I am not giving you any hope, because I still believe that "hao ma bu chi hui tou cao" (if it is even correct) and there simply isn't any chemistry, but, I enjoyed the company. Thank you. As time passes by, it gets harder and harder to close my eyes and sleep. I can no longer sleep like a log once I hit the bunk, and it freaks me out. It scares me, that I cry myself to sleep every night It scares me.. Tues : Breakfast with KC, Matt. School. Lunch with ShaoCheh, Amy, Sijia. Swimming with Ferina. Wed : Breakfast with KC, Matt. Lunch. Dinner with Stevenn. Ice cream. Thurs:Breakfast as usual. Ice cream with Win&YL. Lunch with HAT. Dinner at Sa. Fri : Breakfast with Stevenn. Dinner. Sat : Breakfast as usual. I don't want time to pass no more. Can it please just stop and freeze? Right here, right now. It will be alright. Terrified. Petrified. Horrified. It will be alright. |
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2008/11/09 || 2:03 pm You know you are desperate when you are in love with a lamp post.  MeiMei & I.   When you put three spastic faces together! In no specific order, pictures of the outing on 6th Nov. Shall let the pictures do the talking. The guys.  The girls.  At Botanics (last station)  Suki Sushi before that,  Singapore Art Museum even earlier on,  When we were altogether.  When I was out with the two idiots.  The day we went swimming and Fish&Co.-ed after.  Matt's fish  When we shared the soup  For more pictures of the outing on 6 Nov, please go to Matt's blog. For more pictures of outing TODAY!!!! please refer to THIS! hehe. I had fun. Thank you, Thank you so much dearies. =) I'll miss you all badly too... Everytime I go out with friends, it just gets harder to part and say goodbye. but I will do it, I will go out, because I don't want to regret any of this. I will fully utilise my time here. No matter what will happen, No matter what has happened, I appreciate my time here. I appreciate the people I met, Friends I have made, people who influenced me, I thank. People who encouraged me, I appreciate. People who are there for me, I can't ask for more. Change of plans as well. Mon: School, outing with Gracia,Zack Tues: Outing with Sijia,ShaoCheh, Kristyn. Swimming with Ferina. Wed: Ice cream with IJ girls,Matt,KC at Island Cremery Thurs:Lunch with HAT. Farewell dinner at Sa's place. Fri:Breakfast with Stevenn. Send Zack off. Dinner. Sat: Breakfast with Matt,KC. Personal aim: breakfast with KC and Matt daily. Prav, my msn is christabelng_90@hotmail.com email is ice_cool_90@yahoo.com Blogger account is christabelnke@gmail.com A little story Ms Eelin sent to me, that encouraged me a lot, and will continue to encourage and strengthen me. Small Wooden Peopleby Max LucadoThe Wemmicks were small wooden people. Each of the wooden people was carved by a woodworker named Eli. His workshop sat on a hill overlooking their village. Every Wemmick was different. Some had big noses, others had large eyes. Some were tall and others were short. Some wore hats, others wore coats. But all were made by the same carver and all lived in the village. And all day, every day, the Wemmicks did the same thing: They gave each other stickers. Each Wemmick had a box of golden star stickers and a box of gray dot stickers. Up and down the streets all over the city, people could be seen sticking stars or dots on one another. The pretty ones, those with smooth wood and fine paint, always got stars. But if the wood was rough or the paint chipped, the Wemmicks gave dots. The talented ones got stars, too. Some could lift big sticks high above their heads or jump over tall boxes. Still others knew big words or could sing very pretty songs. Everyone gave them stars. Some Wemmicks had stars all over them! Every time they got a star it made them feel so good that they did something else and got another star. Others, though, could do little. They got dots. Punchinello was one of these. He tried to jump high like the others, but he always fell. And when he fell, the others would gather around and give him dots. Sometimes when he fell, it would scar his wood, so the people would give him more dots. He would try to explain why he fell and say something silly, and the Wemmicks would give him more dots. After a while he had so many dots that he didn't want to go outside. He was afraid he would do something dumb such as forget his hat or step in the water, and then people would give him another dot. In fact, he had so many gray dots that some people would come up and give him one without reason. "He deserves lots of dots," the wooden people would agree with one another. "He's not a good wooden person." After a while Punchinello believed them. "I'm not a good wemmick," he would say. The few times he went outside, he hung around other Wemmicks who had a lot of dots. He felt better around them. One day he met a Wemmick who was unlike any he'd ever met. She had no dots or stars. She was just wooden. Her name was Lulia. It wasn't that people didn't try to give her stickers; it's just that the stickers didn't stick. Some admired Lulia for having no dots, so they would run up and give her a star. But it would fall off. Some would look down on her for having no stars, so they would give her a dot. But it wouldn't stay either. "That's the way I want to be," thought Punchinello. "I don't want anyone's marks." So he asked the stickerless Wemmick how she did it. "It's easy," Lulia replied. "every day I go see Eli." "Eli?" "Yes, Eli. The woodcarver. I sit in the workshop with him." "Why?" "Why don't you find out for yourself? Go up the hill. He's there. " And with that the Wemmick with no marks turned and skipped away. "But he won't want to see me!" Punchinello cried out. Lulia didn't hear. So Punchinello went home. He sat near a window and watched the wooden people as they scurried around giving each other stars and dots. "It's not right," he muttered to himself. And he resolved to go see Eli. He walked up the narrow path to the top of the hill and stepped into the big shop. His wooden eyes widened at the size of everything. The stool was as tall as he was. He had to stretch on his tiptoes to see the top of the workbench. A hammer was as long as his arm. Punchinello swallowed hard. "I'm not staying here!" and he turned to leave. Then he heard his name. "Punchinello?" The voice was deep and strong. Punchinello stopped. "Punchinello! How good to see you. Come and let me have a look at you." Punchinello turned slowly and looked at the large bearded craftsman. "You know my name?" the little Wemmick asked. "Of course I do. I made you." Eli stooped down and picked him up and set him on the bench. "Hmm, " he spoke thoughtfully as he inspected the gray circles. "Looks like you've been given some bad marks." "I didn't mean to, Eli. I really tried hard." "Oh, you don't have to defend yourself to me. I don't care what the other Wemmicks think." "You don't?" "No, and you shouldn't either. Who are they to give stars or dots? They're Wemmicks just like you. What they think doesn't matter, Punchinello. All that matters is what I think. And I think you are pretty special." Punchinello laughed. "Me, special? Why? I can't walk fast. I can't jump. My paint is peeling. Why do I matter to you?" Eli looked at Punchinello, put his hands on those small wooden shoulders, and spoke very slowly. "Because you're mine. That's why you matter to me." Punchinello had never had anyone look at him like this--much less his maker. He didn't know what to say. "Every day I've been hoping you'd come," Eli explained. "I came because I met someone who had no marks." "I know. She told me about you." "Why don't the stickers stay on her?" "Because she has decided that what I think is more important than what they think. The stickers only stick if you let them." "What?" "The stickers only stick if they matter to you. The more you trust my love, the less you care about the stickers." "I'm not sure I understand." "You will, but it will take time. You've got a lot of marks. For now, just come to see me every day and let me remind you how much I care." Eli lifted Punchinello off the bench and set him on the ground. "Remember," Eli said as the Wemmick walked out the door. "You are special because I made you. And I don't make mistakes." Punchinello didn't stop, but in his heart he thought, "I think he really means it." And when he did, a dot fell to the ground. |
