disconnect me

♣

2009/01/30 || 9:27 am

Shoot.

I just realised,

that Dharlynnie gave me a pink cow mug!

It's not a pig!

Shoot.

This is embarrassing..

but to be fair..

It does look like a pig..

Daddy gave me a new phone.

He got a new nokia touchscreen one,

so I got his iPhone,

and I don't have any contacts yet,

Lord help me..

So...

There was something else I had to blog about..

Oh yes!

I watched

"My Fair Lady" again,

and Goodness,

Audrey Hepburne is just so beautiful!

Apparently she wanted to be a ballerina,

but she was too tall for the job.

Sigh.

What nonsense,

but she's so beautiful.

All this info?

My mum has a book about her,

written by her son.

There are many pictures inside,

and I go ga-ga whenever I read the book.

Lol.

Was at my sister's place at Lim Kok Wing.

Yes,

it is confirmed that she is staying back in Malaysia,

can't get renewal for her visa.

Bleah.

I know she's sad,

but we'll make do.

I have about.... 17 months to go.

It's not that life sucks here,

but I would really rather be in...

let's say..

UK?

uni?

Lol.

Yes.

And that reminds me of my homework.

Yucks.

but I have to go.

Oh, before that,

pictures!

The sight outside the window of the hotel just before Chinese New Year

When I was feeling bored...

and visited the Pavillion toilet.

and just before we went out

When I was trying it on to see if I should buy the top...

and then..

the next day before we went out..

I liked what the shirt said...

Daddy's Lil Girl

I like what this shirt says too!

but I'm no blonde!

When we were at Nando's!

I think their stools are adorable!

When I tried the skirt at Nicole,

why do my Gap jeans look so bad

*bimbo gasp*

and yes,

I bought the top,

which I wore for New Year Eve's Dinner!

Ta-Da~!

The next picture is taken a few hours later,

when I've eaten a lot,

so I'm smiling (oh-too-widely)

and I swear,

this is an accident,

as in,

I'm not supposed to look THAT blur..

Here's a cute picture I took later when we were out at Mid Valley,

more specifically,

Gardens..

It's supposed to say "Food Garden" by the way.

Cute, right? =D

Cushions! =D

and here's a nice picture I took inside the car,

I think it looks fake,

and it proves my continuous fascination/obsession with the sky.

♣

2009/01/29 || 3:30 am

Okay,

it is time for a new skin,

but I am using my sister's HP TouchSmart,

so it will have to wait.

Probably post no 323 or 324 since I am at 322 right now.

I am addicted to the sims.

Honestly.

It's so fun,

so I am playing it a lot a lot a lot,

so I will be sick of it soon enough,

and not pine after it.

(It's in my sister's PC.. and it's original so I can't "steal" it)

Facebook is still lagging.

Bleah.

So I think I shall venture into talking about my dream.

Oh,

before that,

NyonNyon,

I am not THAT girly..

Remember?

Vann calls me.. masculine. @.@

more masculine than about... 3 guys that she knows.

that's pretty sad lor.

MeiMei,

I want to backpack around Europe!

but..

mummy won't even let me go to places like HongKong with friends.

Sigh.

It's shopping heaven there and ShangHai so I totally cannot wait!

Pictures are still not up,

my apologies.

and I heard that Belle passed away.

It was pretty weird,

because I am not THAT attached to her,

but yet,

we share such a..

similar name that I can't help feel...

weirded out.

Can't wait to go to Sg.

And Gracia is facebook-ing me,

must be a good sign.

for a great new year!

Anyway,

about that stupid dream.

It's not a nightmare like the clown one,

but it's..

pretty weird.

I cut my nails (left hand only) yesterday,

so that I can practice the guitar properly.

Granted I still played the piano with long fingernails on my right hand,

but that I can manage.

The dream started off with me in my Tang Soo Do uniform.

It was some kind of big championship,

and it was..

open air.

Like how the Singapore National Day celebration was actually.

It was almost the same,

except it was half the size,

and from what I remember,

there were no proper steps,

except the big steps to sit on,

where the next one is about..

half my height tall.

So,

I was sitting between Jon (new friend from Sunway, senior actually)

and Andrew Tham.

I know!

Totally random!

and he was in the uniform too.

There were a lot of friends on top and below us,

next to them as well.

but halfway watching and waiting for my turn to spar

(free-fight)

I suddenly realised,

I have long fingernails on my right hand!

I would be disqualified upon checking!

So I panicked,

and I kind of screamed,

so Jon told me to calm down and look for Master Chin (the head instructor of Perak)

because he always has a nail clipper

(btw, I know this. Jon doesn't. Lol.. but the dream messed things up)

and Andrew Tham laughed at me

(which is... expected I guess)

and I started to descend from the steps.

Remember I mentioned there were no small steps?

So I had to climb down,

and I have always been good at climbing up but not down,

so I made a fool of myself.

Jon tried to help me in the first step,

but I managed.

and Andrew?

He just kept laughing.

I made my way down,

pretty slowly,

and started to run,

looking for Master Chin,

climbing up and down.

Finally I saw Eve,

Eve Teo,

who is actually in New Zealand now,

and she was just at a desk,

tossing this nailclipper around.

My eyes literally glittered and I managed to borrow it from her.

In an attempt to cut my nails properly and neatly,

I took ages..

until Eve came over to ask for her clipper back,

and I had only finished with my thumb.

so I had to cut in ragged juts for my other four fingers.

Sigh.

That was when I woke up to go to the toilet.

The entire dream was in a hazy blue setting.

But I didn't realise it was a dream until the moment that I woke up.

All I can say is...

DANG!

That was totally weird!

Just another little story about Storm darling.

She's terrified of fireworks.

It is the first time I have seen her tail disappear under her body,

and her heartbeat was faster than usual

(yes, I actually checked)

and she was like..

hyperventilating..

She wouldn't come to me when I call her,

but continue to paw and scratch and bang my front door even when I was next to her,

crouching,

trying to comfort her.

At one point,

she got into the house,

because mummy opened the door and she forced her way in..

(I noticed I always refer to Storm as 'she' instead of 'it)

and she hid in her favourite two spots,

behind the couch and in the kitchen,

alternating whenever possible.

Mummy called me down,

and had me carry her out because in the kitchen,

Storm was at a corner,

she turned her face into the corner,

and refused to budge,

even though mummy used the cane and lightly tap it on her head as a threat.

She was that scared.

So I carried her out and the poor dear was whining away,

but we really couldn't have her inside,

because she hasn't had her bath!

That night when my sister came home,

she told me Storm was a lot better.

she came out from under the car to lick and acknowledge my sister's return,

then hurry back under the car,

her sacred protected area.

She's so cute.

I think I am evil,

but I would have never won the debate to let her in.

I think I have run out of things to say,

so...

let us end it here.

I need to google the sims2 cheats..

I know motherlode gives you money,

but I don't know how to type it.

The command to allow me to type.

Funny,

right?

Okay,

got it,

it's Ctrl+Shift+C.

Off I go now!

Happy CNY people.

♣

2009/01/27 || 1:40 pm

Okay,

too many emails.

I haven't been online for...

3 days?

It's madness.

Honestly.

and sometimes I hate facebook.

What's the point of using it,

if it keeps freezing up?

Okay,

since they are all not working,

I'll just wish here..

Happy Birthday Ms Sharon!

Happy Birthday Angela!

Will facebook you all when it's working.

There are new IJTP pictures,

and I'm feeling school-sick.

Lol...

and I just went to Gracia's facebook,

I can't write on her wall,

since I've failed on others' walls.

Sigh.

but it's so funny.

Hers is FLOODED like crazy.

I enjoyed my CNY.

Lots of shopping.

Pictures

(slightly.. took so few.. T.T)

will be up,

whenever.

and I shall do the 25 weird things or something like that...

I saw Matt's...

and I thought I was off the hook,

but apparently not.

So here goes,

courtesy of NyonNyon.

Oh,

before that,

mummy said we're going to Shanghai for Christmas.

I heard it's a shopping heaven!

so I am excited!

Any takers?

It'll be lovely to go with friends.

and KC,

I'll be praying for you,

your blog sounds...

disturbing.

I'm worried,

but I still don't see any reply!!!!!

1. I was born with double eyelid, but was so fat that it became single in the very hour I was out of mummy's tummy and... I got it back few years back, by rolling my eyes in the morning? Haha.
2. I love tofu too! (like NyonNyon)
3. I LOVE EGGS A LOT!!!!!!
4. Never tried Malta, which is mummy and Gretel's favourite drink.

5. I like to eat veggie, raw when possible, but not leek.
6. People tend to think I am older than what I really am. Got a few "are you Gretel?" recently. I am NOT that old!
7. This was my old blog, before I had newblog-morecrap, and swtiched back.
8. I have a crazy number of blogs..friendster,msn, 2 blogspot, 1 wordpress
9. I have much huge(r) feet than NyonNyon, so it's unfair.
10. My mum doesn't like me wearing high heels or make-up but she got me a Maybelline mascara and Revlon lip gloss this CNY, almost got me the new Revlon foundation too! (I said no.. shocking!)
11. I am ~~not for violent games~~ I love God of War! It's better than 300.
12. I complain a lot about things that I really care about.
13. I love Disney movies and Disney Channel, but I'm not fascinated by Zac Efron (did I get it right?)
14. I type really fast, but my sister is always scolding me about being too forceful.
15. I recently became girlier (I think?)
16. I don't know songs by name or singer, though I've heard most of them.
17. I have this obsession with Literature
18. I've hated Convent as far as I remember, but IJTP is different. =)
19. I don't like damp places because it worsens my sinus.
20. I really really really want to go to UK.
21. I want to visit my friends in their homelands and go travelling together.
22. I think girls should be allowed to do backpacking too!
23. I think the Singapore experience was a great one and it'll be pleasant memories always!
24. I would love to publish a book one day on my experience as a scholar.
25. I believe in God truly.

♣

2009/01/24 || 2:23 am

I did not online yesterday!

*gasp* in shock!

but I had a helluva day yesterday!

I started class at 830,

woke up rather late because I was so tired,

so I did not have breakfast.

Proceeded to class,

then when GP ended,

I went down to the cafeteria to grab a hot roll,

as they call it.

It was NICE!

Met Ariff,

talked a bit outside the classes,

and then I went for Maths.

After Maths,

I hung about for another hour,

because there was ALSCO at 1230.

I met Jon,

but I was on my iTouch and after that,

I called KC!

*I'm fine by the way,

you probably could... tell. =)

Missing you all. =D

and Chien Wen told me you and Matt told them about my..

Kbox -not wanting the mic thing!

"tsk hand-on-hips, what's all this!? LOL..*

Okay,

I need a minute,

I think my eggs are about done.

I split the freshly boiled water on myself just now.

SOOOOO PAINFUL LA!!!!

but it was only a bit..

Thank goodness.

Okay..

where was I..

Ah yes.

Then I went for ALSCO meeting,

and I volunteered to be secretary in the end,

because I'm so used to that job.

Anyway,

the highlight is the aftermath!

I had to get to Cempaka LRT,

so I asked the seniors how to go,

and I really got a lot of answers,

but in the end,

I called Dharl,

and she told me they were going to Kelana Jaya.

I remember Gretel telling me that Kelana Jaya is my nearest LRT,

so instead of taking the bus or whatever,

I cabbed to Kelana Jaya,

met Dharl they all,

and went to Cempaka!

It was quite...

something,

because it was my first time on public transport!

Aha!

anyway,

a rather stern lady told me not to put my wallet at the top of my bag and just leave my bag behind me and not pay any attention to it.

It's true.

Singapore's good security has made me less vigilant and totally slack.

Lol.

Anyway,

we took some pictures.

Bua,

Baobao!

Dharl

Chien Wen.

One (new friend!)

Fyon and me.

I enjoyed yesterday so much.

Although I was dead tired,

but Chien Wen let me sleep at her house a bit,

before we went to Pasar Malam.

Hahahaha.

It was so fun meeting up with them and all.

Her house is a bit far though..

I can't wait to be able to drive.

I got a lift back from her mum in the end.

Thank you aunty for the ang pao,

being so nice,

the crabmeat thing. =)

and the lift home!

Dinner too!

Thank you Dharl for waiting for me,

and for the birthday present!

The piggy mug is totally adorable!

Here's the back view,

and up close,

I LOVE YOU TOO DHARLYNNIE! =D

*hugs*

The other pictures will come later.

I'm happy

and my family is coming down to KL now.

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

♣

2009/01/22 || 12:09 pm

Honestly.

I think that letters are nice.

Handwritten letters will always be greater than emails,

just like handwritten and handmade cards.

I think that although they may not be as neat as the printed ones,

the sincerity and the effort put in,

is touching.

Plus,

the penned thoughts just seem so much more precious.

I appreciate any good emails from my friends,

but I love receiving letters.

They are like little packets of love.

Not to mention,

because they are more tedious to write,

to send,

longer to receive,

it makes it so much more meaningful that someone is putting in all the effort for me.

I'm like dying to finish off with today's post,

so I can EAT EAT EAT!

I need to type with two hands so that it will be faster.

Haha.

Although I was just saying I may not be able to commit to ALSCO,

or I was worried about it anyway,

I have just added my own workload,

with Musical stuff.

I'm going to try and research on Jive,

and get as many steps as I can on it!

I'm sure I can!

Yay!

YES WE CAN!

(I'm an Obama Fan!

=D)

but this is fun work.

Tomorrow after my lessons from 830-930 GP,

Sigh.

Lol...

I will be having Maths from 1030-1130,

which she has demanded homework to be handed in!

To be fair,

she let us have ONE HOUR break today!

Which was totally cool of her.

Honest.

It's my new favourite word by the way,

HONEST!

So...

I now have Maths homework,

Law homework,

Psychology Homework!!!!

and TESTS TESTS TESTS!

and of course,

my dear old GP.

But I'm not going to grumble too much,

because I am thankful I have a college to go to,

I am thankful I have a place to study,

I am thankful I have a blessed family.

No connection,

but I'm just feeling..

happy,

and that thanksgiving is important,

right KC?

One thing I learnt from you.

Okay,

one of the THINGS.

hahahaha.

I'm dying for a cup of juice.

I bought some on the way back.

Haha.

I snack in between classes now,

so it is not so bad,

but it is expensive to buy from the campus bookshop area.

Wondering if I should have my own supply of yogurt!

Yumyum!

Anyway,

I saw Ms Jean yesterday,

just to say hi.

She's so nice.

I went with Nicole.

and we had a nice talk before MS.

and she said I've got all the nice teachers,

and you know what,

I totally AGREE!

I've just decided that I LIKE MY MATHS TEACHER A LOT!

Ms See,

you rock!

MS,

for the first time,

was decent.

We were watching

"jack"

where ...

there are many stars.

Honest.

There's JLo, Robbie William, Bill Cosby and...

yeah.

I can only remember these names.

but it's nice,

as far as I watched.

and with Robbie William,

the show canNOT be bad.

I hope to finish the show one day.

So....

Jive Jive Jive.

Anyone have videos,

please contact me.

IJ people...

we learnt it,

remember?

Anyone got any pointers?

I learnt the girls' part..

It was..

"right leg back, left leg front, side side"...

Then what?!

Lol...

I need help!

SOS!

Okay,

and I need to talk to YeeWern!!!!!

and I need to start my homework.

so that's all for today.

I've already made a fool of myself yesterday..

to HuiZ.

a bit today..

but I have not revealed it yet.

I'm obsessed.

and I love life!

I can miss you all,

and have a great time at the same time.

This is why I love college.

Okay,

I'm adding this in.

After 3 hours.

LOL.

I totally forgot to blog about dinner.

Why is it important?

because it is the first time I steamed my own rice!

It's funny how things I am interested in..

They don't seem to fall into place immediately.

Not like those stories you hear of people who love drawing and draw beautifully at their first attempts...

To tell all the chaos I have been doing,

would be really quite a comedy.

For cooking,

there was the o-too-sweet cheese cake...

not to mention the gooey alphabetic macaroni that tasted not bad,

my red bean soup steamed into really SOUPY when water overflowed into it....

but today's rice was SUCCESSFUL,

for the first attempt!

and I am HAPPY!

because the elation,

covers the disappointments of the others...

Covers the disappointment when I tried sewing and the alphabets came out funny..

Sorry KC.

When I tried to bake and almost caused my family to be toothless.

It's funny.

Honestly.

but I'm still trying.

I'll continue to try.

Mummy is right.

I tend to give up before I even start.

I like too many things,

but when I know someone who is really good at it,

I am afraid.

I am scared to try.

because I want to be good too.

I should just relax and try.

♣

2009/01/21 || 12:58 pm

Sometimes,

I feel that I don't have to declare my love for God by sending emails,

as in forwarding chain mails.

I have stopped the habit years ago,

I'm not going to continue now.

I hope God understands.

Maybe I should..

O...

I don't know..

but I hate receiving junk mails....

Sigh.

We'll see.

It's a decision to make.

Add to my to-do list.

I think I'm dumb sometimes.

Maybe I can be quite a dumb blonde.

I haven't finished eating,

but I'm carried away onlining..

Shoot.

and I totally don't want to start on my homework!

Thank goodness I did my maths during the break,

so I only have....

note :ONLY

Law - essay assignment *sigh*

Law - test *Sigh*

GP - TWO essays *rolls eye*

Maths - test *praying to survive*

but actually these are holiday assignments,

so I should not kill myself over them.

But I am DYING to finish them right this instant!

and I got 21.5 for my Psychology test,

quiz thing,

which I did not really study for,

because I kind of totally forgot about it until... last minute?

so I glanced through it,

and hoped for the best!

21.5/30.

I have no idea if it is...A or what...

but Ms Ida looked..

decently happy..

so I think all is well.

So....

anyway..

where was I...

2 days of not attending law has left me slightly blur..

slightly off track..

but I think I'll be alright.

I'll keep my fingers crossed anyway.

I'm hyper.

I'm really tired,

but I'm hyper.

After I replied the email to Matt.

Hahaha.

I'm just nuts.

Sometimes I wonder if I should..

drop SC.

Sigh.

It's fun.

Honest.

but am I ...

doing it more for..

that....

or..

can I really handle this?

I'm tired.

and there's the musical.

Can I go on like this?

Especially with the work load piling...

and Charmaine said BKA (Bahasa Kebangsaan A / MALAY) started last friday!

like...

OH MY GAWD!!!!

I don't want to go.....

PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

=((((

Malaysian Studies is bad enough.

Honestly!!!

Anyway,

I was stuck in school to after 830,

which means I was in school more than 12 hours today,

because of the rain..

and ALSCO ADHOC meeting.

Bleah.

I'm tired.

but what am I doing?

Chatting online.

Blogging.

Checking things out.

STILL eating my already-very-cold-dinner..

I have yet to get down to HOMEWORK.

or even ALSCO stuff that I have to do!

See!

This is what I mean!

Do I really have the time?!

I almost wanted to go for Freshie's Night.

but on second thought..

I really don't like TECHNO..

so I'm passing.

Okay,

I should go and shower...

Really.

If not my hair won't dry..

but I'm still eating dinner!!!

I'll put on weight if I continue this.

Seriously.

and I cannot afford that!

I've finally slimmed down!

A little!

I'm HAPPY!!!

okay,

I'm stopping here.

I'm getting carried away.

I LOVE YOU ALL!

Take care!

♣

2009/01/20 || 11:46 am

I'm dying.

This is why I want to go to school.

I'm bored.

I'm feeling stressed out after what I have heard about the SC.

Is it really like that?

Can I make a difference?

Do I have what it takes?

I didn't even go for the first meeting.

I'm feeling stressed out.

Okay,

I love talking to Matt.

I've just gone from scared,

to hyper.

Talked to Gracia too.

Phew.

♣

|| 5:15 am

Okay,

I woke up feeling healthier.

I'm still having a rather bad cough,

but I'm better already.

My world does not spin around anymore!

We must be thankful and appreciative as much as possible.

Life's too good to waste,

when the rainbow comes after the rain.

I'm still watching "fated to love you".

It's loading really slowly on youtube,

and I cannot load a few episodes at one shot.

It sucks,

really.

I cannot wait to call Ainaa to get my homework and everything.

I hope it is not ALOT..

Anyway,

I just read Mei's blog,

just talked to Grace online,

just emailed some friends.

I'm not going to go all nostalgic,

don't worry,

but I'm feeling kind of peaceful.

Is that weird?

Lol...

It was great talking to Grace anyway.

and I finally ...

okay,

I went to facebook halfway through the sentence..

and I cannot remember what I wanted to type...

Oh yes!

I finally found my Body Shop ..

"Vanilla Spice Shimmer Lip Balm"

It's nicer than my

"Rich Plum Shimmer Lip Balm".

I really love how they all smell so good.

Don't know what's happening.

Internet is so slow..........

BLEAH.

I'm so tempted to call Singapore.

Again.

Sigh.

Looking at Emma Watson's profile and everything online,

I'm suddenly really curious...

Is it weird being a celebrity?

It is weird to have pictures of you plastered everywhere?

Is it weird to have teenagers idolising you when you don't even know them?

Is it weird?

Is it weird not to have any privacy at all?

Is it weird that before your car, or should I say, limousine door opens,

reporters are trying to get the first shot of you?

Is it weird that people love to read about your tabloids?

Is it weird that everyone wants to know you?

Is it weird that while you hate this kind of life, some people dream of it all the time?

Is it weird that when you type your name on google, thousands of results come back, positive?

It is weird.

That even when I am typing this,

I feel weird,

I wonder how being a celebrity truly feels..

I wonder if they really are as beautiful as they seem..

I wonder if they are as perfect as the world depicts them to be..

I wonder if they love/hate their lives.

I wonder.....

but I know some things will not be answered.

and so like that it will remain.

and this is how my file lookED like..

It's thicker now..

Still on "non-important topics"

*smacks forehead*

and here's my textbook

As mentioned, the blue one is my 1st law textbook,

the black one is my current Maths book,

while the red one is bought from my senior.

I'll be using it later.

I carry the black and blue one to school daily.

IMAGINE.

BLEAH.

and I have seen guys using Crumpler bags.

Apparently it is expensive (ya I knew that!)

and more a guy thing...

Girls all hold pretty totes..

How do they fit their files and books in....

Hmmm...

and the stupid iTalk thing is totally weird.

Maybe I don't know how to use it..

or..

it only allows national calls?

I don't know..

Seriously.

So confusing.

Okay,

I'm bored.

I'm not blogging anymore.

Bye

♣

2009/01/19 || 9:06 am

Nothing tastes good when you are sick.

I practically had to shove the food into my mouth.

Great,

I just spilt the sauce on my PJs.

Now I have to go change.

Just read the news...

China = bird flu again?

Sigh.

This is really a screwed up world.

Excuse me from being so pessimistic,

but I'm feeling grouchy today.

Got up at 730 for school,

and by the time I climbed up the flights of stairs,

I felt like my heart was threatening to jump out from its position.

so,

I went for my first class of the day,

Psychology,

for two hours.

Before she has even scratched the surface for anything,

Ms Ida enquired if I was sick.

I must look pretty much like a zombie...

She also said I as torturing myself by coming to school.

After the draggiest two hours of lesson I have ever sat through

(even law never felt this long!)

I had 2 hours of break.

Got my sandwich,

ate my medicine,

and stoned outside the library.

I felt more and more shitty,

till the point of no return.

Then I realised..

I am still having the slight fever.

I have been having it since..

Friday night.

Is it normal?

So I came back to the hostel to sleep..

Before which,

I informed Jon through sms and talked to Ming Wai about the ALSCO meeting.

"You better come"

"It's your lost"

"You may not know what you are supposed to do"

"I think you should come"

In a.. hufty pufty manner.

I can't really blame him..

but at the same time,

I had to swallow my pride,

and headache,

and dizziness,

to say "thank you"

to all the...

stuff he said.

I did not go.

I knew I could not.

As badly as I wanted to stay for classes and go for the meeting.

I know better than that.

My head was already swimming.

I already felt dizzy.

How long more can I last?

So I missed Law,

Maths,

GP and the ALSCO meeting.

I want to go tomorrow,

but I know I should not.

This is so ironic.

Last year,

it would have been

"I don't want to go tomorrow,

but I know I should".

This morning

I already had a round of "cold perspiration".

I'm tired.

and blogging is making my head worse.

and honestly,

this is the first day I went to the cafe downstairs to eat.

Or to takeaway,

to be more specific.

They don't have porridge.

*smacks head*

How can anyone not have porridge?!

SO I had to settle for rice.

Beggars can't be choosers.

Gosh,

I wish my mummy was here.

or...

a close friend.

This migrane is really making me cukoo la.

♣

2009/01/18 || 10:21 am

Okay.

This flu is persistent.

I took panadol,

but it has not gone away.

The headache lessened on Friday night,

so I managed to sleep,

and the fever went away,

but yesterday,

it returned..

Not too bad,

manageable,

but today,

it has become worse.

I hate being sick.

To go or not to go..

That is the question.

I want to go!!!!

Plus I have a meeting to attend!

Shucks.

but if I go,

and become worse,

then my lessons tomorrow

and on Tuesday,

would be..

less than half-absorbed.

As I am typing this,

I have sneezed more than..

10 times.

Shoot.

I really hate being sick.

My roommate isn't here yet,

and I am thankful,

because I don't want to meet someone new when I'm so sick.

I'm just going to be thankful,

for all the friends I have made.

I'm feeling rather happy,

apart from this stupid illness.

Sometimes,

when I think back,

I wonder,

would things have been different if I had gone to SA instead?

But then,

I would not have met Matt or became close friends with KC.

But then,

maybe I would not have come to Sunway and meet all these awesome people.

Sometimes I wonder,

what if I did not accept the scholarship?

Maybe then I would still be close to my Convent friends..

but then again,

I would not have known people like..

Mr A, Grace, RuiAnn, Chien Wen, Dharl, NyonNyon,

and the list goes on...

"The Road Not Taken".

That poem,

by Robert...

Wait, let me check..

Robert Frost.

It has stuck with me.

but I firmly choose to believe,

although there seems to be many loopholes in my life,

many areas that "could have been" better,

should have been...

maybe this is how I am supposed to learn.

Maybe this is what I am supposed to do.

Maybe this is the path that God wants me to journey,

so that I will grow to be the person He has been waiting for.

I believe,

and I will believe.

♣

2009/01/16 || 1:34 pm

MeiMei,
=)
All the best,
only one year to go!
I'm sure you can do it!
=D
It's okay la.
Hahahaha.
I'm guessing you love J1 more so you remember it well.
Hahahahaha.
It's REALLY weird to not have uniform.
I always have to think about what to wear..
Plus,
I'm not used to the super cold rooms,
so whenever I have to wear skirts or shorts because I washed my pants,
I'll FREEZE.
Literally.
Today,
I went to school in tank, cargo pants and my sweater.
However,
due to the fact that I was sick
(fever, flu and sore throat)
I was still rather...
Cold,
not COLD COLD,
but a little chilly.
when people were in shorts.
Lol.
and I get cold really fast.
When I went for the ALSCO (alevel student council) interview,
I froze inside too!
Lol...
A friend suggested I start taking Pharmaton,
I used to take Appeton(the child version)...
=P
and don't die!
hahaha.
JIAYOU!
I want to go OH too!!! =(((

Sabrina!
=D
haha.
We must take more pictures!
=D

Phew.
I'm sick.
I guess that's all I'm saying.
HUIZYI!
I want to talk!
About you-know-what!
hahahahaha
I want to talk to RuiAnn.
but I'm sick.
=(

oh,
and apparently the top O-levels girl from Singapore,
the St Nicks girl,
(IJ!!! WOOHOO!)
she's from Malaysia!
She's a scholar!
=D
and she's coming back to Taylors!
I'm so shocked.
Really,
but I guess she'll love college life.
=D
Maybe everyone's having different plans now.

I MISS GRACE NEOH!
Okay,
I miss too many people.
Hahahahaha.
Shall stop here.
I pray that this headache goes away,
the fever goes away,
and that I will get well soon!
=)
and I hope no one else falls sick.
Bleah.

What if I really am sick and go back on Monday..
what will happen to the meeting?
=(

♣

2009/01/15 || 11:45 am

Having a heavy dinner,

but I can't be blamed.

It's my first proper meal for the day!

I had eggs for breakfast,

YUMMY!

and sandwiches for lunch.

I was starving,

and after maths,

I had law,

and after law,

I wanted to die there,

after that,

I had psychology,

after which,

there was the musical.

PHEW.

it's OVER!

and I'm TIRED!

Like *SIAO*

and my sister understands....

*hugs*

The cleaners came to my room to clean up,

so I guess my roommate will be moving in soon..

I don't know to be happy or sad,

because..

it's good to have company,

but....

I like the privacy most of the time..

My appetite has gone down for the most parts.

I was so hungry,

that the chicken rice was like.. the best thing ever,

although I've had it twice before,

and it definitely wasn't THAT great!

but I'm halfway through,

and I feel full.

This is highly unusual!

and I'm having a headache.

I think I'm tired..

Not very used to "almost migranes" like these.

and I got into facebook today,

FINALLY,

because yesterday I could not reply to wall posts,

which means,

it's useless to me.

I was replying Anju,

but I could not finish my sentence!

apparently there is a maximum of 1000 characters!

And I overshot..

Lol..

It's just great talking to her.

I miss a lot of people!

but today I'm too tired to emo,

so perhaps overexerting myself is a good thing.

Lol.

Stevenn!

I wish you were online,

I wish you read my blog.

I MISS YOU!

You know that?

You made me cry once,

I can't forget that,

too scary of you..

Lol..

but I wish you were here,

even if you were going to make me feel so bad about that stupid issue that I cry..

I miss you.

I miss how we would talk.

We could talk about anything and everything.

I miss how we just sat and talk,

I remember the time we went to Clarke Quay,

I miss you buddy.

You have always treated me like a sister,

and I thank you for that.

I won't forget the first time we met in OH either.

Classic moment.

not to mention our OBS times.

Hahahaha.

It's funny how life is sometimes,

right?

and I remember you said you'll kill me if I don't pass.

Thank goodness,

you didn't keep to your word that one time.

*hugs*

I hope to see you SOOOOOOON!

Reminds me...

of the nightmare last night..

I slept at 11 plus,

and this morning when my alarm rang at 9,

I was shocked awake,

I jolted up,

seriously.

I was having a nightmare..

And it involved clowns..

Can't remember specifically,

but the clown was picking on me..

Parents were not around,

and we were in the hotel,

my brother and I were in the same room.

The clown attacks,

by blowing up your limbs into balloons,

and then....

it will burst...

So...

you die...

after a while..

I was so scared,

I was running,

and the stupid thing was coming after me.

I took the lift,

ran along the corridors,

and knocked at my hotel room door like crazy.

Just when my brother opened the room door,

I saw the clown turning at the corridor,

and I could see his evil grin.

I tell you,

even though my brother was sleepy,

I shoved him aside,

and I slammed the door shut.

I was SOOOOOO SCARED!

and it felt so real...

I even remember what my brother was wearing..

His Pyjamas,

which look like they were made from the same material as my PJ bottom.

Exact same flowers and prints..

Anyway,

he was really sleepy,

and angry at me for waking him up..

and he just went back to sleep.

me?

I was freaked out.

I laid on my bed,

trying not to cry..

while the clown?

He was just outside the door.

Singing,

in the hopes of luring me out.

Thank God I was not stupid enough to open the door.

Next thing was,

I heard ..

"the falala" song..

and I looked up,

and my brother was staring at me,

and at that point,

I woke up.

It was my alarm.

Shit, right?

I am still pretty freaked out actually.

I hate clowns.

Now and forever.

My throat is a little uncomfortable.

I hope this is not the start.

I can't afford to...

Not now!

and note to self...

it's always cold in Sunway.

I've been freezing there,

in shorts,

in skirts,

in pants.

What is a girl to do!?

♣

2009/01/14 || 10:43 am

Okay,

that was a really emo post.

Bleah.

Hi Mei!

How's NY?

I miss you all..

Sigh.

I miss wearing uniforms!

Now I have to worry about what to wear to school!

Not just when I go out to the mall.

Bleah.

I've always been lazy about dressing up,

although I think it's really fun...

I miss OH too.

It'll be a part of our memory always.

To my dearest Junior/Senior NyonNyon & Dharlynnie!

Gambateh!

It's probably confusing which jc to go or whatever,

but I wish you both all the best,

and jiayou, k?

*hugs*

RuiAnn & Nianci,

Congrats about chinese!

Ann,

I tried to call,

but somehow cannot get through..

so yeah.

Maybe tomorrow!

Kristyn!

They are so adorable!

right?

I miss those bunnies!

I think they should be pretty big by now!

Hahahaha

Time really flies!

and I still have your present!

Phew.

Life's been alright.

Funny how I'm angsty one moment,

emo the next,

and alright in the next minute.

Haha.

I had the ALSCO interview today.

It was...

scarier than I expected.

I went totally unprepared,

not nervous at all.

I wish I had been,

so that my adrenaline would have been pumping.

I was just all cold,

and trying to not shiver or stutter.

It went decently,

but I don't think I was impressive.

Sadly.

So I don't know if I will get in.

No matter,

I tried my best,

under those circumstances.

Malaysian Studies really is a killer.

It's boring,

I don't know what's happening,

we have stupid, boring quizzes..

I know I should not reject it..

but i cannot stand it..

Honestly.

BLEAH.

And she released us late!

Anyway,

the hype of the interview was actually the aftermath,

because I got to make new friends!

Hari,

Stephanie (I'm not sure if it's ph or f)

and Natasha!

They call her Nutty.

So cute!

So I got really hyper,

because Stephanie and Natasha are in the musical too!

Yay!

More friends!

Not to mention,

they are in my GP class!

which brings me on to..

GP!

There's only Composition!

(as far as I know for now. will double check on Friday!)

YAY!!!!

*keeping fingers crossed like crazy!*

We went through some..

"English in its Formal and Written Form".

Haha.

It's....

fundamental.

Important things la.

and there's this guy Clifford.

Lol.

Funny.

Seriously.

Ainaa,

usually goes early,

so I'll sit behind her.

and usually,

Clifford is there.

On Monday,

after I sat down,

and we introduced ourselves,

he went "o. I'm sitting with Calvin"

so I went "o. okay. bye! =D"

today,

the same thing happened.

Only,

I asked "Can I sit here?"

right at the start,

but he still left when Calvin came.

I wonder...

am I scary?

On second thought...

Don't answer that..

please.

haha.

I'm trying to load some pictures,

but I don't know if it will come through..

I should honestly take pictures of my textbook.

I only have 1 law book for now,

I'll need another 2,

and I have 2 maths book,

1 of which I have to bring daily,

with my law book.

So heavy!

Anyway,

I have the musical to attend tomorrow,

so I will end at 630pm.

I end at 640pm on Tuesdays and Thursdays,

5pm on Wednesdays.

So tiring!

Monday is earlier,

I think,

and Friday is really early!

At 1130,

assuming there's so ALSCO meeting,

because I didn't get in,

and there's no mentor-mentee session.

I totally hope,

wish,

pray that Miss Ida will be my mentor!

Or..

My Leonard!

It'll be a blast!

hahahaha

Don't know if I'll be lucky enough.

I have maths homework daily.

Doing statistics.

Starting to learn new things,

so I'm paying attention and all.

Ate a lot today,

I had cereal for breakfast,

I had a sandwich during class,

Rocky,

then "char kuey theow" which I didn't manage to finish for lunch,

and then "roti canai"/ "roti prata" for dinner.

It's a lot!

but I'm happy.

but...

I've been having..

tummy ache these two days.

Bleah.

and I can't find my nail clipper!

It was just there..

and now it's gone.

Anyway,

Ariff asked,

if I cut my nails one hand at one go,

and the next hand later on..

because one side is a lot longer than the other.

I rolled my eyes,

and told him I was learning the guitar!

I mean,

what sort of question is that?!

Psychology today was totally boring.

Lol.

It was the technical crap.

okay,

not crap,

but boring stuff...

I'm actually thinking whether I should start blogging in formal english,

since ...

I should think in formal english,

so that I will not commit silly mistakes in my GP paper...

but then again....

Lol.

I believe I should ponder upon the idea before I make a decision,

to ensure that it is the best option available to me.

Yada yada yada.

WhatEVER!

Lol.

What else should I talk about..

Oh!

The pictures are up!

Shall describe!

Here's what I wore yesterday!

It's just my "Ariel" shirt, and my PhutureLondon skirt!

I haven't worn it for a really long time,

and I was pretty uncomfortable in it,

because it is rather short,

but Ainaa thinks it's cute!

Hahaha

Thanks dearie,

and thanks for texting to cheer me up last night!

I was literally freezing in the Malaysian Studies (MS) class...

Brrrrr...

so today I wore pants!

but I was still cold in the interview,

maybe because the interviewers were not warm at all.

Get it?

Not warm..

so I'm cold...

Lol

It's a lame joke!

Here's my and Nicole,

or more fondly known as Nikki,

our second attempt was a little blur...

She's a year younger than me,

more like.. 4 months actually..

and we were in MS.

totally bored.

Here's the one she likes!

(I like the first one)

and here's one with Diana!

Courtesy of Ariff!

Thank you!

I know we bully you a lot,

but you've proven yourself as a gentleman!

I want a picture with Ainaa!

May!

Ariff!

Faisal!

Hahaha.

I think it's time you all met my friends!

and Jasmine..

please come back to school!

I miss you!

Hope your daddy will get well soon!!!!

Ps.

Ainaa thinks I have a nice smile.

Personally,

I like hers!

She's really pretty,

so await the pictures! =D

can't wait till the day I can go out with Vidya and Veenasya

The "V"s,

although they don't know each other.

hahahaa.

I should get started on my maths homework,

plus read up on law.

It's a lot...

....

taking pictures now!

haha.

Pictures can tell it better than I can describe it.

Here it is!

The red book is the book I got from Jon.

Just as reference,

the green book in front,

(more like the white book with green fonts)

is the one KC got for me during the tuition.

It's not.

thin.

Yeap.

The blue book is my 1st law book.

and the Black book is the Maths book I lug to school daily.

Imagine that the law book,

is about the English Legal System,

driest topic in law,

and the book is covered in words,

nothing but words.

No pictures.

Nothing.

scary, right?

And here we have my file!

Okay,

it won't upload,

so I guess I'll post it up tmr. =P

I need a new file because it's a bit spoilt.

This stack,

is only on the..

not important topics.

SERIOUSLY.

and like my law textbook,

the consist of nothing,

but WORDS WORDS WORDS.

I don't know whether it is a blessing I like reading,

so it is not too bad,

or should I be sad that the love of reading has brought this catastrophe upon me.

Lol.

Okay,

i really have to start on my work.

Feeling hyper.

Hopefully I won't die from the non-stop action tomorrow.

8 hours straight without breaks at all.

Since I start late,

I better buy sandwiches and what not..

Last week was a disaster!

Later people!

*hugs*

You know you love me!

♣

2009/01/13 || 2:30 pm

And I was feeling better..

because Aylwin was talking to me..

Consoling me..

but tears just fell..

when I realised..

It was you.

You told me to guess.

2nd from my facebook list.

I didn't know you were referring to the nots thing.

When I realised it was you,

after so long,

and the messages couldn't get through...

I panicked.

I started to feel like crap.

Finally.

the tears just fell...

Do I have to cry everynight...

Then you responded..

Fire drill in your school now..

Sigh.

The messages won't go through from my side.

It's unfair.

It's sooo unfair.

It's like some cruel game God is playing...

and as if He can see this,

and hear me crying,

the messages go through.

and then they don't...

I don't know how to feel anymore..

It's just so sad.

I want to talk to you..

but I can't.

Not properly.

and I miss you so.

Why are all my friendships in 2008 like that?

Why are they all breaking apart..

All the best for your test.

Sigh.

I feel like shit.

and I can't tell my new friends,

they make think I am so emo psychopath.

I hate myself.

I think I may go and talk to my psychology teacher.

She was almost a Psychiatrist anyway.

♣

|| 1:26 pm

Today is a much better day.

It was a great school day,

as usual.

and hostel is not that bad tonight.

I have homework waiting on the table,

and notes to be read.

The notes just keep piling up!

I haven't gone to MayBank,

and I have yet to go to CIMB.

I think I need files from Popular as well.

Mine seems to be dying after 2 years of usage.

Lol.

KC,

I love the skin!

NyonNyon said it's not jelek cute,

but Zoe, Asher cute!

which reminds me,

help me send my regards to Aunty Linda.

I miss seeing her around...

and yes.

Thank you for welcoming me to Old age.

Thank goodness there's someone as senior as you in the club to welcome me in!

and yes,

Thanks for the prayers.

Matt,

I'm recording this down!

I HAVE PRIORITY!

Hahahahaha

*hugs*

You know what..

when I come back to Singapore,

I don't care if you are in your smelly NS uniform,

without Hair,

I'm giving you a gigantic hug,

suffocate you,

then move on to KC.

and choke him off as well!!

okay,

a little too hyper right now.

Busy day.

Tomorrow's hectic as well.

Phew.

I end at... 630 on Tuesdays and Thursays,

5 on Wednesdays,

usually,

but I have ALSCO interview.

Bleah.

What should I wear?

ahahaha. =)

Don't know.

Shall not think now.

Phew.

Talking to Boer.

We haven't had a proper conversation for a long time.

Feels nice.

I'll not live in the past.

I'll live in the present,

and reminisce about the past.

oh and did I mention?

IT's totally obvious you two were like.. next to each other.

You tagged at the same time!

Hahahaha.

♣

2009/01/12 || 2:46 pm

my 320th post,

is nothing glamourous.

It's only to remember,

and to complain.

RM30,

just on one phone call.

Maybe you think I am nuts.

I think I am crazy too,

but I wouldn't have done it any other way.

No one else can calm me down better than these two.

I know I throw my temper around a lot,

maybe I make them really frustrated too.

I don't know for sure,

but I know they have been my rock.

Where else can you find friends like these?

I know I complain a lot.

I know I merajuk even more.

I know I said I didn't want to talk to you.

It's all crap.

I love you two too much to just cut you out of my world.

Sometimes I feel really sad,

that I seem to be out of it,

but usually,

when I look at the pictures we took together,

I just feel so much better.

Maybe you think I throw the word "love" around.

Maybe that's just you and me feeling differently about the word.

I care for my friends,

and I tend to get all worked up about it.

I think the love is a many splendid thing,

and it goes like..

The more the merrier.

I know I love my parents.

I know I love my family.

I love my dear old Storm.

I love God above all.

but I love my friends.

I sincerely do.

Being top in the list,

and being there for me most of the time,

I love you.

Don't worry,

and don't get freaked out,

alright?

You make me upset.

Why?

I'm just jealous.

Jealous that I can't be there with all of you.

It's a crazy reason.

It's not rationale,

but hey,

it's me,

that we are talking about.

I don't know how I am going to tide through this year,

but I will,

alright?

I love school too much to let myself go for the second time.

and I promise to try my best,

my BESTEST (even thought there is no such word),

to come and visit.

I felt like I was just upstairs.

Or maybe,

I was closing my eyes,

and we were at the courtyard,

at Botanic Gardens.

It was like,

nothing has changed.

There's never any awkward silence.

Just comfortable companionship.

I miss you both.

Sometimes I'm jealous I don't get to be there.

Sometimes I'm really upset,

that I don't see how much you two have changed.

I have to hear it from others,

try to imagine,

hear about how great things are..

I am happy for you,

really,

but at the same time,

this sadness,

sometimes it overwhelms me and turns into jealousy.

Don't worry,

it can be overcome.

I was angry.

I got pissed off.

I started crying.

Then I was laughing.

It's exhausting,

talking to you both,

because it is just so draining,

but I wish I can do it again,

and again,

and again.

I'm glad to hear the plant is fine by the way.

I hope it continues to prosper well.

Maybe this is God's way of letting me know all is fine.

Look,

even that plant is surviving and GROWING.

I heard you've grown a lot too!

I mean,

Fan clubs?

That's great!

Maybe the next time I want to meet you,

I need to take a queue number?

*faints* if it ever happens.

I've always been the kind,

who is unwilling to let go.

I can't.

Not yet.

Maybe I don't have to...

it hurts,

sometimes,

but mostly,

I feel more at peace...

as each day passes by.

Your 28th birthday.

I remember. =)

It's a promise.

I don't know how to say it,

and I just want to blog it out,

it's funny,

how life works.

Really.

I know without changes,

I would not have met you both.

Change,

is the only thing that is constant in this world.

I know,

and I am trying to embrace it.

I will continue to try.

Please pray for me,

that I will overcome this,

in life.

That I am able to seek solace in Him,

comfort in knowing He is taking good care of all of us.

It was a great wish of ours,

that you will join the Christian family,

so that your embracing God,

will lead to Great things.

It has been fulfilled.

I know I said I feel weird,

maybe because I am not there to celebrate about it.

maybe because I can't go to church with you.

maybe because I can't share about my faith with you.

maybe because I know we won't be able to grow in faith in Him together.

You know,

the day at Botanics,

you two holding my hand,

was really really important to me.

It gave me strength.

Gave me strength to stand up.

Thank you.

You guys were the one with me through thick and thin.

You guys had to put up with all my temper.

I don't know how you guys take it, really..

but I owe you both big time.

Sometimes I wish I was not so emotional,

that I can stand up by myself,

that I won't be so affected,

but then...

I won't be me...

and maybe,

being me,

was a key element in our friendship.

I feel old.

With all these changes.

Haha.

I'm weary,

but I shall seek solace in Him now,

and pray.

Can you please forgive me for being selfish?

I know that I must let go...

because if I keep turning back,

I will never be able to maximise my potential going forward.

All the best.

Labels: kc, matt

♣

|| 8:40 am

I'm so glad I'm talking to Mr Andrew!

School was great today.

I got my second Maths book from Jon.

It is really in decent shape,

looks rather new,

and it's only RM30.

The new one costs like.. RM80+++

So I'm happy!

I'm too lazy to go over to Pyramid.

Seems like I'm always going,

but I need to get my ATM card!

Maybe I'll go on Wednesday,

or Friday.

I'm just so lazy to go now.

I start late tomorrow,

yay!

but I end at 630pm.

Oh bother.

Anyway,

today was the first day for GP,

and Mr Leonard was really funny.

He was talking about how his name was borrowed by the English from..

the German (I think)

and not returned.

Plus,

the name had a different pronunciation,

to disguise it!

Haha.

So it's pronounced at Le(as in level)-nerd,

instead of the original Leo-nard.

He's cute,

right?

and we had to come out with food names for ourselves.

Since the girl before me,

Edna,

decided to call herself "Easter Egg",

I thought I would be crazy

so I called myself "Chocolate Chip Cookie"!

for triple C effect.

Don't know if I went overboard,

but who cares!

Tomorrow there's musical rehearsal!

I hope I'm up for it!

Oh and Anisha invited me to her church on Thursday,

for Alpha Course!

I think I will go.

It starts in February,

but I'm scared I can't cope..

but I hope to go.

She lives nearby,

so she has offered me a lift to go.

Did I mention,

Catholic church!

Life's good so far.

Honestly.

I'm still not used to hostel life.

I still miss Oldham,

but I really love school.

Ainaa!

I hope you find your phone!

Psychology class was the bomb!

Faisal(Did I get it right?)

and I were like...

firing away at each other.

Attraction issues.

Religious issues.

They are all so subjective,

aren't they?

I hope I'll ace these subjects I am taking.

And...

to my dearest NYONNYON,

CONGRATULATIONS!

I am so proud of you!

Beyond proud.

Good job,

alright?

Dharlynnie dear,

Thanks for passing it to Putu.

I've yet to hear from you.

I hope you did well too!

*hugs*

Long due pictures.

This is during my trip to Kuching in 2008.

One afternoon,

I was surprised by the weather.

Over this side,

the weather was nice, clear,

blue and lovely.

I turned to my left,

and it was grey-ish..

but over on my right, it is really DARK! =P

This just proves how unpredictable the weather can be!

Here are some Christmas decorations at Green Heights Mall!

I thought some are really pretty..

and here's a picture of a souvenir shop in the airport!

and here's me,

debating on how to wear my top and dress...

this way?

but I changed my mind...

and wore it the other way,

without the belt.

Su Ling said she liked my dress!

Mummy said the belt made my boobs look big.

>.<

Okay,

here's some Malay kebaya thing,

that's really pretty.

I actually like this white one the most!

Apparently it's the wedding dress...

Here is a picture of Pisang Tanduk!

Mummy said it's rare to see them.

They are really quite big,

and very yummy!

牛角蕉.

That's the name.

Honest!

and here's a picture of a cave...

in Damai Resort,

on Christmas Eve,

of where Jesus was born.

Really tiny picture.

Sorry about that.

And here's me!

with my tyrannical cousin.

The rabbit is REALLY cute!

I know I look retarded,

but my brother was being annoying.

Cute,right? =D

Here the little one looks like a lamb! =P

and this is how small they are! =)

I'm going to miss these little darlings!

Dharlynnie and I!=D

This is a better picture,

but we look lots better in the NeoPrints! =D

and this is my wardrobe!

The mirror is an issue... =P

and my already messy room! =P

That's it for today!