disconnect me

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2009/03/31 || 3:37 pm

To my dear friend across the border,

I am ever grateful to you,

for introducing friends to me,

when I came all alone to this college.

I don't really know what to say to you,

or what to do..

but I wish I was there to give you a big hug,

and listen to you,

and be there for you,

like how you have been here for me..

It does not matter that the world is unkind,

as long as you love yourself,

and know that God is watching over you,

God loves you so much.

When you love yourself,

the world cannot help but to wonder at the beauty of your soul,

and be amazed and what it has been missing out on.

Have faith,

have confidence.

Of course,

all these are easier said than done.

When I am down,

it is hard to think of all these.

I know that to be true,

but I wish you would try..

I love you,

and no matter what,

I'll always be praying for you.

HUGS.

and life isn't a bed of roses.

but there are certainly moments..

Moments that just take your breath away.

I just want to be thankful,

and grateful tonight.

Too many things to be thankful,

and I do not even know where to start.

MeiMei,

Gosh.. I miss dedicating stuff to you,

but sometimes it gets a little weird and all,

because I am feeling detached..

but I miss you and Gina so much.

Steph,

Hey girl!

Gosh.

Eugene is totally cool,

and man-hunt?

Must be the man-hunt that caused this infection!

LOL..

Maybe it's God's way of saying..

"girl, take it slow now"

LOL..

but oh well,

I am stuck with specs for the next week..

NyonNyon,

All the best,

alright?

I wish I could read happier things on your blog,

because angsty posts make me worried..

and feel bad that I cannot be there for you,

but then again,

it is great that at least we are people who blog it all out,

so the anger is somewhat...

released...

Take care,

alright?

My vocabulary is going down the drain.

Words that I discovered,

and tried to utilise as much as possible,

are now just disappearing before my very eyes.

Practise makes perfect.

It is true.

I remember how my grasp of chinese deteriorated.

I did not practise,

I was overconfident,

I thought I would be fine.

Sigh.

HuiZyi,

I miss you!

I cannot even tag you or comment on your blog because it is not there anymore!!!

There are just too many people that I miss,

too many people that I wish I did not have to say goodbye to,

too many people I wish I was with,

too many people that I want to give a hug to..

but I try to remember that,

if there were no goodbyes,

there would not be new beginnings..

I would not have met awesome friends from all over..

It just makes me feel really nostalgic,

when I look at pictures,

when I remember the good times,

when I remember our laughter,

when I was still in the picture.

Conjunctivitis.

It is confirmed.

Sigh.

Not a bacterial infection,

so I am laid off the antibiotics,

but I have a viral infection.

No TV, (not an issue)

No computer, (failed miserably)

and I did not take the MC (OMG!)

Lol..

No partying this week,

because I am stuck in specs for the week.

Talk about small, swollen eyes and nerdy look.

Youth.

A book I borrowed from Ainaa,

and just finished after WEEKS..

It is actually a very interesting book,

that focuses a lot on literature,

and I like it.

I can relate to the boy,

in his thoughts that depression and sadness,

are good motivations for poetry.

Somehow when you are sad,

in need or in search of something,

there is a need for communication,

and there is a need to let things flow..

I love to write at times like these.

The Lincoln Lawyer.

A book I am reading right now,

but I have read it before,

because when I read,

and while the plot is unfolding

I keep having the

"oh yes!"

moments,

and memories are rushing in..

but I cannot remember the whole thing..

The Horse Whisperer

A book that has me near tears every time I read it.

It is amazing,

how people's lives change in just a moment,

how people's lives are all entangled,

how people's lives can end just as abruptly as the falling leaves,

how life goes on although a loved one is lost,

how years of trust and love can be damaged in one small event,

how the very people you love and trust are the people who will hurt you the most in betrayals,

how the very people who want to protect you from the world could be the people hurting you the most,

how when one is trying to avoid one's destiny by taking a different path, one will likely meet and face one's destiny down that road to avoid it.

I believe that..

life is a grand thing

Every life on Earth,

is one of God's master plan.

How we make the decisions,

and God provides the answers..

How each of our decision changes our lives,

but lessons are thrown at us until it is well learned.

How although there are options A, B, C, D for each event in life,

no matter the decision that is made,

God knows the next step,

God not only knows the answer we will pick,

God knows what is behind this answer,

God knows what will happen after,

for each and every single thing in life,

and yes,

our decisions are important,

and they affect our lives,

but in the end,

we are still undertaking a path,

that God has designed for each and everyone of us.

Life is awesome,

and this is the beauty of it all.

Knowledge?

Opinions?

The more you learn,

the more you realise that you know nothing.

Opinions?

The more you express your opinions,

the more you realise that strong opinions are usually not mature or wise as both sides of the argument have not been thought out clearly.

Again,

life?

It is a mystery.

A mystery filled will wonder, beauty.

Labels: books, life

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2009/03/29 || 11:24 am

Prav dear,

I popped by your blog,

but I couldn't even leave a comment,

so I'm leaving a msg here.

Your posts..

I like how they have double meanings.

and thank you,

I hope they provoked you into a lot of thinking,

unnecessary though they may be.

Grace dear,

Thanks for hearing me out.

and hey,

I hope you managed to kidnap your brother's,

because I kidnapped the guitar from my sister too!

so I am practicing away. =D

Having my own entertainment now.

Do introduce easy songs to me yeah. =D

There's something wrong with my iPhone,

and I need to restore it to the original setting,

but that would mean I need my sister to help me jailbreak and crack it,

which is why it has been months and it is not done.

There is a lack of time on both parties,

but I wish the speakers would work fine.

Sigh,

but I am grateful for such a good phone.

and time passes by swiftly.

I won't lie and say that I am perfectly fine,

but the world goes on turning,

the rain keeps falling,

the fire keeps burning..

It is a beautiful day.

Wouldn't you agree?

You can't decide the length of life, but you can control how you want to live it.
You can't control the weather, but you can control your mood.
You can't change your look, but you can smile.
You can't control others, but you can control yourself.
You can't foresee tomorrow, but you can utilize today wisely.
You can't win everything, but you can try your very best to achieve that.
Hope everyone can face the daily life positively and always happy...

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2009/03/28 || 12:38 pm

and I was 10 minutes late for Earth Hour.

Damn.

Can't even do this right.

Thank you Nikki for the text!

If not I might have been even later!

What happened to all the bloggers?

As in friends of mine..

what happened to them?

Some friends closed their blogs.

Some don't have time to blog anymore,

and some just choose not to blog anymore.

I just dropped by Steph's blog.

That woman has LONG posts.

and I realised,

it is easier to blog frequently and in long posts,

when people actually read and tag you on them.

It is a bit like talking actually,

you don't go on and on and on if people don't listen to you.

How do you tell if they are listening?

Well..

body language and their responses!

In the blogging world,

this "listening" can only be realised,

by people tagging or commenting because you cannot track who has been on your blog otherwise.

(Note: perhaps there are ways I have yet to uncover)

The Prodigy.

This man's name was mentioned during Friday's lunch with Nickolai and Mr Leonard.

"No. Never heard of him" was my answer.

Then I went home and was on the computer,

and realised I have songs by him in my iTunes list.

I really need to go through my iTunes list once.

Miley Cyrus.

I have friends who hate her.

I do not,

but I really do not like her.

My sister does though.

Taylor Swift.

I think she is really pretty.

LOVE STORY is just awesome,

but overrated.

I want to learn her "Teardrops on my guitar"

Friday's outing to Pyramid was quite chaotic.

I am thankful Nickolai and I went off without really waiting for the girls.

One thing about girls is that we procrastinate and drag a lot.

Waiting for each other,

talking,

socialising..

I realise the importance of social networking,

but if your networking could potentially harm your other networks,

perhaps you could do the socialising later on?

but then again,

I commit the same crimes.

Heinous crimes.

DDR.

I never expected to play on this,

least of all with Nickolai.

What is DDR?

Dance Dance Revolution.

The most lala thing ever.

What is lala?

Yes. It is a Malaysian slang,

something along the line of Ah Beng and Ah Lian.

It's a bit confusing to juggle the different colloquial slangs and terms.

A Maths in Singapore; Add Maths in Malaysia.

Ex ; Expensive.

Ah Beng ; Lala

Primary 1 ; Standard 1

When I said "digress", friends did not really understand.

It's annoying sometimes,

to have a need to censor oneself.

Then again,

what is the point of language,

especially bombastic words,

if it does not aid in effective communication?

Am I to succumb to a lower level of English?

or am I to be so proud as to use language that does not include my friends?

Of course, there is talk about balance and balance.

Journalism.

Another topic I am highly interested in.

I remember days when I was in awe of friends who constantly use bombastic and impressive vocabulary.

There is nothing wrong with that.

However, my parents did ask me a very good question.

"will that impress your readers who do not even understand the article and have a constant need to check the dictionary?"

I thought it was a good question.

An occasional bombastic word would have led to the readers being interested and find out about the meaning of the word,

but have a whole passage full of these words,

and I think that I am signing a farewell note to my career in journalism.

I might as well just write

"I'm too good for you losers so if you don't understand my article you should go back to primary school" in bold for the readers.

Right?

That IS the message transmitted to them anyway.

Okay, enough on journalism and language.

It is a never-ending debate.

Let's move on to the hype today.

The event that has unite that world in one action.

"Earth Hour".

So, just to know more,

and not to sound like an air-head on my own blog,

I visited the earthhour website to take a look at the aims.

Do most people even know what earth hour is about?

Or like me,

they thought it was a movement to save energy?

Apparently it is not.

Not exactly.

The act of switching off one's lights for an hour,

the entire planet,

is to vote earth.

If one's lights remain switched on,

it would mean that one has chosen to vote global warming.

As insane as this sounds,

I am participating,

because 1 billion voters, is a high target,

and might as well join the crowd if you can't beat them.

Why even bother?

That is my question.

So, we have chosen to vote for the planet we live on,

the planet that we love and will continue to care for,

Earth,

by this action,

this very action of switching off the lights.

so it does not matter,

that I am still using my computer,

that people are using the air-cond,

that people are watching tv.

It does not matter,

as long as you switch off your lights.

Perhaps one can argue "one step at a time",

but is it true?

Are people,

are human beings ready to sacrifice so much for Mother Earth?

Call me a skeptic,

call me a cynic,

but the last time there was a concert for an event like this,

"earth day" if I am not mistaken,

the concert used up so much electricity,

and plastic bags, bottles and other rubbish was left behind at the concert venue that it was an event that back-fired.

why is this any different?

I can't read in the dark,

so I will watch TV.

I can't study in the dark,

so I will use the computer.

Oh, but I am voting against global warming,

because global warming is bad for Earth,

but using up more energy isn't.

I am, after all, in the dark now, with my lights switched off.

With skepticism oozing from every pore,

I wish someone would come and slap me and tell me off for being such an ass,

but I am alone.

All alone.

Nope,

not in the condominium.

I am in my sister's hostel in Cyberjaya,

but sometimes I wonder,

what is the point of letting me come over,

if she is not going to be around.

What is the point?

It is true that there is Astro,

there is decent internet,

and there is Playstation 3 here,

but do I really want to be all alone here?

No.

I think I would have fared better going out with friends.

Then again,

would there have been anyone to go out with?

This morning,

my sister was listening to a new song by Miley Cyrus.

I do not know the title of the song,

but it reminded me of Jungle Book and Mowgli for some reason.

There was a one-line conversation in it,

"excuse me officer"

and as I lay on the bed trying to sleep in,

it suddenly jolted me awake.

Memories of the ALSCO camp flooded me.

More specifically, memories of that activity..

How I burst into tears, because hands were going up my shirt.

How May was really upset.

How everyone was so apologetic later.

How I felt really bad for such a dramatic reaction.

How the seniors came over and apologised.

How Michelle was so worried.

How Sarah kept asking if I was alright.

How Lorenzo was being such a sweetie.

How Adli offered to let me beat him up.

How Sharm was serious but sorry too.

How Mun Wai's note was super adorable..

It was an unfortunate event,

but I think it bonded us in a way.

and the song "Fall For You" and "Awake" by secondhand serenade,

just reminds me of Bo so much.

It was not our song,

we never had a song for us,

but it was the song I put on repeat while we talked in the cabin during the chalet.

It was my first, and by far, only chalet.

The song was ironic,

and when we came out from the cabin to join the others at the bbq,

you were in a foul mood.

How could I not remember...

Different songs remind me of different things..

Someone is singing "Ave Maria" on top of their lungs right now.

Not the one we hear in church,

but the one is 200 pound beauty.

Lol..

That was a song the girls in 5th floor loved..

haha..

Fond memories.

It is just one of those things in life.

How we relate to things with our five senses..

And I shall post this up,

when the goddamn Earth Hour is up,

so that I can go shower with LIGHTS to see where the showerhead is.

Labels: blogging, EarthHour, journalism

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|| 6:18 am

I understand what you mean.

The beauty of songs.

The beauty of lyrics that just sing out to you.

When you love someone like that - Reba McEntire

It's alright.

I am already better.

but I wish I was there for you.

I wish we were less than 2 minutes walk away from each other like before...

but time never stops.

sometimes I look at pictures,

and am thankful I always enjoyed myself to the maximum,

but sometimes I wonder,

should I have been even more appreciative?

Is that even possible?

I hear thunder..

Sigh.

time to say bye I guess.

I saw a cockroach yesterday.

I did not scream,

but I was freaking out.

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2009/03/25 || 12:37 pm

but it's hard.

That I won't deny.

I won't try to pretend it does not hurt,

I won't pretend that I am perfectly fine..

I'm alright.

I was a fool,

but I always am.

Am I just expecting too much?

but I don't want to be cheap.

I don't.

I want it to be beautiful,

like how I heard it is,

like how I hear it always is..

Phew.

Maybe it's just not meant to be.

Maybe how my life was planned out..

it just didn't cover this section.

When I close my eyes..

and I try to to just relax..

Images just fly by..

and I just get so intimidated..

What did I do wrong?

Why is it like that?

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.

the only thing that keeps me wishing on the wishing star..

I just want to put it all down tonight,

be my own priority and sleep tight tonight.

Thank you

Ainaa.

May.

Gracia.

You all have been darlings. =)

to my dearest YeeWon,

BIG HUG.

I hope not..

but I wish you all the best..

to my dearest Gracia who squashed my boobs flat,

you just made me more manly.

LOL...

HUGS back dear.

HUGS.

I'm going to be strong,

and you have to update me,

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2009/03/24 || 2:37 pm

and I don't know what the hell I am doing right now.

Shit.

Fucking screwing things up as usual.

OH MY GOD.

GRACIA GOH.

CALL ME ALREADY!

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2009/03/23 || 10:47 am

so I failed to mention about my big bawling moment when I saw the cockroach flying.

I cried.

I was so freaked out.

It is obvious when I am scared,

I will scream and tears will fall before anything else,

and then I will be angry that I am crying,

and hence tears of fear will turn into tears of embarrassment and anger.

I think it is time for a change of blogskin.

but I shall browse later.

I need to get down to my maths homework for today,

and my law essays which have been assigned last ...

Tuesday?

LOL..

It is just such a pain to have to read over 15 pages for the essays.

So the orientation is over.

The presentation for psychology today is done.

All my focus is back to the charity sale,

which is freaking me out so much.

Sigh.

I'm in charge,

and I really don't want to screw things up,

because this is a big event.

Another issue would be the t-shirt thing.

I don't know how..

I don't know what..

I don't know why..

but I feel obligated to see it done.

I feel obligated to get the business for my sister.

Obligations.

Responsibilities translate to obligations.

It can be such a pain sometimes..

but then again,

it feels like an honour to have responsibilities because people trust you with them..

Sigh.

I need to stop crapping and get down to serious stuff.

Wei Ling,

get well soon.

♣

2009/03/22 || 11:01 am

I need to drink more.

I'm starting to chap.

Left, right and center.

But drinking is only making me more tired..

(opps. drinking here means H2O by the way)

in case some people get carried away by the idea of alcohol..

which brings me to an interesting topic.

My mummy's ideas of drinking and me.

So.. she thinks that girls should not down an entire glass.

I have no issue with that since I can't do it either..

No stamina.

She thinks that I should not drink with boys,

because I don't know my.. capacity and it is dangerous.

but I usually drink with guys,

even back in Singapore..

so it's like..Funny..

She thinks that Gin&Tonic is too strong a drink for me,

and I'm like...

Okay..

No Gin& Tonic,

No Cordon Bleu..

only red wine,

when I am 21.

Sigh.

I'm probably going to be tired or parties and clubbing and what not by that age,

so isn't this the time to have fun?

well..

apparently it IS a good thing to keep certain activities to myself.

I hardly think my parents will approve,

at all.

Just read Gracia's blog..

BLEAH.

I wish I was there to give her a HUGE HUG..

Distance is an annoying thing.

My mummy doesn't like my blue nails,

but I do..

and I think I shall paint them pink.

Is it wrong to love oneself?

I need to start on my homework..

and to shower and eat.

It's getting late!

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2009/03/19 || 1:33 pm

ALSCO.

I swear I don't have a life.

It's only revolving around..

Owh.. wait..

let me think..

This sure is a tough one..

Like..

Is it..

hmm...

ALSCO

ALSCO.

Am I giving up the best of college life for ALSCO?

Or am I getting the best part of it because of ALSCO?

I think it's both.

Seriously.

but I think I am singing harmony for graduation!

so yay! =D

This rocks!

Okay,

I've got an orientation to attend tomorrow,

and I have to put my best face forward,

so I should be off to bed soon!

I miss Gret.

*hugs*

♣

2009/03/18 || 1:21 pm

and I woke up at 820am this morning.

Then I had to rush rush and rush,

because class starts at 830 on Wednesdays!

Hence,

I was late,

and I felt really bad..

and everyone was half dead during class,

which may be the reason for her sudden

"test tomorrow on today's lesson!"

which jolted most of us wide awake.

This is bad.

I have no idea what was happening..

but I shall try to keep up..

Math test today was horrendous.

I should have revised,

but being the idiot that I am,

I just went to bed early last night..

and still woke up late today..

Lifestyles.

Sigh.

and when you have one emo dude,

with another emo dude,

and add the third emo dude,

you get an explosion of it.

Retail Therapy.

I know I am in trouble when I succumb to this.

but I've got 2 shirts from FOS and I love them,

2 tanks (been dying to get some)

and a really nice top from Nichii. =)

ShushiGroove is GROOVY!

Girl Facts--

when a girl is mean to you after a break-up

she wants you back but she is too

scared she'll get hurt and knows

you're gone forever!

when you catch a girl glancing at you,

she wants you to look back

and smile

When a girl bumps into your arm,

while walking with you

she wants

you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug

she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart

she still feels it when

you run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,

millions of things are running through her

mind..

When a girl is not arguing,

she is thinking deeply,,

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of

questions,

she is wondering how long you will be

around

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a

few seconds,

SHE IS NOT FINE AT ALL

When a girl stares at you,

she is wondering why you are playing games

When a girl lays her head on your chest,

she is wishing for you to be hers forever

When a girl says she can't live

without you,

she has made up her mind that you are

her future

When a girl says, "I miss you,"

no one in this world can miss you more

than that

Guy Facts---

When a guy calls you,

he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,

He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,

He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few

minutes

he means it

When a guy stares at you,

he wishes you would care about him and

wonders if you do

When your laying your head on a guy's

chest,

he has the world

When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday,

he is in love

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,

he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you,

he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"

he misses you more than you could have

ever missed him or anything else

Is this even true?

Is it?

Girl part is true, I know..

I don't need a man.

I don't need a boyfriend.

I just need you,

to think that I am special.

but sometimes I do wonder..

Do you take me for a fool?

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2009/03/17 || 10:15 am

and I can't resist,

but to blog,

before I head to the showers..

and drown my sorrows away..

Okay,

that's not true..

I just wanted to be dramatic.

Haha..

Had a celebration with Farmin at Coco Banana last night,

where the birthday boy,

Farah,

Haz,

and I had a blast.

Vodka + orange (screwdriver) is alright at first,

but tastes funny later..

Vodka + sprite = love.

Sex on the beach is NICE~!

yay!

Me likey!

Hahahahahaha.

Didn't booze that much,

but I slept at about 4 and got up around 730,

and hence,

the lack of sleep,

added on with the need to go to college early to meet Mr Leonard,

was overwhelmingly disturbing..

However,

life just has its quirks.

I was 5 minutes late,

and waited for the next 45 minutes,

but Mr Leonard did not appear..

(I could have been sleeping!)

so when I was off to classes,

I felt like dying in them.

Of course,

some people were smarter and didn't come at all,

while others had driving~!

Pictures will be up when I have them,

but for now,

memories will be my best card.

and the days roll by..

It is already in the mid of March..

It scares me how time flies..

really.

but that's just how life is..

We pass each day by,

and we whine and complain about our work,

about meetings,

about assignments,

about issues..

and suddenly we realise that..

time is running out,

life is short,

but guess what?

The sand does not stop flowing..

It never does,

until time runs out.

Then everything seems to stop..

but does it really?

Life moves on for the rest of the world..

and sooner or later,

things are forgotten,

and memories are wanting..

Do we really want to pine and whine in a world such as this one?

and while I ponder upon irrelevant questions that my mind can't seem to give a rest at,

I shall attempt to catch up on lost sleep.

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2009/03/16 || 10:53 am

I know my internal clock just go screwed over,

AGAIN.

All the partying,

drinking and all..

It's getting to me..

Don't get me wrong,

I've only been drinking twice so far~!

Tonight is going to be my third.

My friend's boyfriend's birthday,

so we are out to celebrate!

but all the staying up late,

for various reasons..

I know this is bad for my health,

but I can't help it..

I don't want to be coop up in the room alone and bored to bits,

and I want to spend time hanging out now because I may not have time next time,

and I want to be with people I like..

so Lord help me manage my time,

Lord help me keep my body in one piece..

Beer belly??

I know I have a tummy,

but that's because I am on the chubby side dearies..

It's not because of beer la..

but then again,

I need to get this butt moving..

I think all the eating and drinking are contributing to my jeans not being as loose anymore~!

so it is time to stop griping and start swimming!

Life isn't a bed of roses,

but with every bundle of thorns that you find,

there's bound to be a rose bud waiting for you. =)

♣

2009/03/15 || 1:27 pm

It is always easy to preach,

It is always easy to talk about doing something..

but the truth?

It is always hard to get down to it..

Especially when you are not counseling a friend,

when you are the one emotionally involved,

when you feel emotionally exhausted,

when you feel emotionally drained..

You will suddenly remember and realise..

It is not that simple..

In fact,

it is hard to be rational and objective,

when all you want to do is lie in bed,

cry and moan and whine,

then sleep.

Yesterday I had Subway for dinner,

and I have not had it for months..

and Subway always bring back memories of lunches with Ming Hui,

with Yee Wern,

With Tim and Aylwin..

because I love Subway,

and these are the people I always "subway" with..

Sigh.

I am feeling emo,

and I am a little ticked off with Matt..

and the thought that I may not be able to meet him,

or Peixia,

or Hansen..

is seriously making me grumpy..

Life throws shit at you.

You just have to know to throw shit back,

or to take it all in.

Facebooking stressed me out..

but not today,

because I see wall posts,

and I get to talk to friends..

♣

2009/03/14 || 1:34 pm

There's a new Facebook layout!

and I don't get it..

LOL..

I realised I seldom follow through with things that I plan..

but I do many things without planning..

Am I destined to be fickle-minded?

Am I destined to be disorganised?

Watched

Eden Lake

Marley & Me

Watchmen

Slumdog Millionaire

The Illusionist

None of which were planned..

In fact,

Harry Potter 5

Prince Caspian

Made of Honour

Fool's Gold

Bride Wars

are some that I planned to watch,

but never got to it..

Weird, right?

but Watchmen was pretty good.

I was really tired through it all,

but I thought it was a good movie.

Marley & Me was alright.

The book was better,

but then again,

the books always are..

and I was not watching the movie properly..

Dozed off a bit halfway..

but I've been a pretty happy and contented girl this weekend.

It was nice meeting new people!

Namely,

Faeez,

Melissa,

Kevin

and Wei Wen (such a sweetie!)

and Matt is in Malaysia!

OMG.

Like I totally WANT to meet him on Monday!

but he cannot confirm..

T.T

and it is at KLCC..

So I am pretty. sad.

Oh well.

It's late,

and I should be in bed,

because I have to get up early to go to church tomorrow!

*I don't like reading about death..

Not because I fear it,

but because of the grief it brings..

and the eternal farewells that I am not prepared for.*

I need to sleep,

now..

*and then I can have my sweet dreams about you*

♣

2009/03/13 || 4:23 pm

and the question remains..

but I am thankful for an older sister..

Thankful for a wiser trustee..

Confused,

but enlightened..

Afraid,

but determined..

I shall stop procrastinating and get down to my law essay and math test.

I just wish I was going home this weekend..

and I really wish I know what is happening..

♣

2009/03/12 || 4:15 am

A trip down Memory Lane.

The best school ever.

CHIJ (Toa Payoh)

and the journey back..

the road I always walk..

The bus billboard I always stare at.

and here's SULTAN!

MUDPIE!

My dearest Yee Wern!

and here's my bestie RuiAnn!

OMG. what the hell is this..

When I was posing for Gracia. =)

Take 2!

Blood-Red nails she will be proud of!

MEOW!

and the the girls decided to have some fun..

GIRLS' Night Out at Laundry

My fav Picture!

ALSCO dinner 1st March 2009

Here's the cutest guy ever!

My uber hot senior!

and here's the ex-vice president, ex-president, and the Powerpuff Girls!

(LOL)

Taking a picture with the ever fashionable Divya!

her new juniors = new vice presidents!

and here's the new faces of ALSCO Jan 2009

ALSCO Camp 20th-22nd February 2009!

My dear Ainaa!

Ainaa, sickly me, and May!

(I can see Brynn)

Meow. See no ~~shark~~ Evil!

When we were really tired and supposed to be asleep!

TRANSFORMERS TRANSFORMERS!

We look like black ducks..

I'm the ~~black sheep~~ white duck!

Getting ready!

Anyone has asthma?

and when it's MEAL TIME!

A compilation of some pictures!

♣

2009/03/10 || 11:03 am

Why is it that everytime I want to load pictures,

the internet is just so slow that I cannot do anything?

I shall wait,

and let the pictures do the talking.

Life has been great.

I think I screwed things up,

but I have faith and I will hold on.

I am head over heels and heels over head.

Is this for real?

♣

2009/03/09 || 10:57 am

I need to relink people.

I need to update about the weekend.

I need to get more time,

but before anything else,

I need to study.

Homework piling up,

Tests coming up.

I've got to go,

but I promise PICTURES and UPDATES! =D

love.

♣

2009/03/06 || 11:37 am

It's Friday.

I know I should go,

TGIF!

but I'm not really feeling that.

I'm tired.

Although I slept early last night,

I am still lethargic.

Tomorrow is Saturday.

It should be an interesting weekend

and I shall look forward to it.

Today was actually not a really good day.

Last night was good.

I had dinner with papa at Medan,

then I got to talk to Gracia on MSN for the longest time!

Plans got cancelled,

but new plans were made.

and I am going out tonight!

Yippee! =D

With the girls,

to Laundry.

This should be interesting,

and I just painted my nails.

It's a shade of what I think is,

BLOOD RED.

My mum is so killing me tomorrow..

but oh well,

as long as I am happy! =D

Last thing,

I cannot believe Anisha and I hung about waiting for Mentor-Mentee when it was upstairs all along,

and that I brought my essay home with me!

I did it in a rush during my break today,

carried my textbook to college for that sole purpose,

and still took my essay home with me.

I think my lecturer is so "frying" my ass..

Dammit.

but I shall be a happy girl,

and I shall be thankful still.

Had a heavy dinner,

thanks to one currypuff for breakfast,

and a small pack of nasi lemak (ppl's breakfast) for lunch!

and facebook does not work.

This is so annoying.

Bleah.

I shall go off.

I need to shower,

and pack.